I wake to the smell of waffles coming in from the kitchen. In London, the only smell I would ever wake up to was my roommate's strong perfume. And it didn't even smell good. It was a mixture between a wet dog and dead flowers. Needless to say, I missed the smell my dad's waffles in the morning. Truthfully, I missed everything about my dad and this family. Studying abroad in London for my senior year was a good idea, but it wasn't home. I did learn a few things about myself while I was away and felt extremely guilty for my behavior last year. I was disgusted with whom I became, but somehow I just couldn't stop. I became selfish and greedy and felt that I could get away with anything. I didn't care if I hurt anyone in the process of getting what I wanted, as long as I did get what I wanted. Turns out, I didn't get anything, instead I lost everything. I lost the trust and respect of my family and was sent away to a boarding school in London, England. It definitely wasn't a win/win situation.

"Jenny, you awake yet?" asks Eric peeking in through my door.

"I'm up." I say getting out of bed and going to my closet to pick out an outfit for the day.

"Good, cause breakfast is ready and Rufus is making his 'special waffles'" he adds quotation marks around special waffles.

"Yeah, okay, I'll be there in a couple of minutes" I tell him while picking out a black skirt with a white t-shirt to wear today. Eric leaves and lets me get ready.

I realize that Serena must be coming over as I start to put on my heels. My heart starts beating faster and faster as I head out to the breakfast table. Last night, after I arrived, I texted Chuck and we met up at Butter without Blair knowing. I told him it would be better if she knew, but he said I was still a sore subject among the group. Out of Chuck, Blair, Nate, and Serena Chuck is the only one who has forgiven me for all the crap I put them through. He filled me in on what has happened in the past year. Serena and Nate are still together and Chuck and Blair are engaged. Rufus and Lilly are happier than ever, which I kind of realized after I saw them last night. Eric is still single, which he had already told me about, and Dan and Vanessa are still happy and in love.

I sneak slowly toward the table where I could already hear voices filling the room. I wonder if Serena brought Nate or even if Serena's here at all. As if to answer my question, I hear Serena's laugh fill the room after a joke said by my dad. I must be imagining it though, cause my dad's jokes aren't funny. No one ever laughs at them and if they do, it's just to be polite.

"Jenny?" I hear a male's voice call my name.

I jump and turn, only to find the person I was dreading to see the most standing right in front of me. Nate Archibald looks like he has just seen a ghost and I'm pretty sure that the ghost is me.