"…Undead?"

Integra was rapidly becoming pissed off. Alucard took a step backward, raising his hands up in the air defensively.

"You gave me permission, Sir Integra," he said innocently. "I only did as you requested."

Integra pondered on this for a moment, then threw her pillow at Alucard, which caught him off guard and hit him in the face.

Seras cocked her head.

"Master, what's going on?" she asked.

"None of your business at the moment, Police Girl," Alucard said sharply. "You and Walter can leave now."

They left.

Integra looked at her hands. They didn't look any different. She didn't feel any different.

"It's strange, isn't it?" Alucard said, in a far-off tone. "To know that you are now one of the undead, a No-Life. It can be confusing."

Integra growled.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Integra snapped.

"I felt the same way when I discovered…what I had become."

The look on Alucard's face was almost one of regret.

Integra huffed.

"This is all so strange," she said, almost to herself. "It's sort of…"

"Frightening?" Alucard offered.

"Don't finish my sentences."

"I'm sorry, Master."

"Don't act so damn modest. It's unnerving."

Alucard smirked, if only to please her.

He could tell she was confused- fledgling vampires always were. Seras was the same way at first…sort of. She'd merely been puzzled-Integra was downright horrified. She probably didn't have much recollection of her agreement to become a vampire, but that didn't matter. She was a vampire now, and that was what frightened her.

Integra bit down on her knuckle nervously. She had become…a vampire. She had become one of the creatures she had sworn to destroy. She had become the thing she hated. She drew her knees up to her chin and hugged them.

Her father would be disgusted. She was a disgrace to the Hellsing name. She'd been careless. She'd been a coward.

And now, she wasn't even human.

"How does it feel to be undead?"

Integra had merely been amused when he used those words on Seras, but now she could see why the girl had been so horrified. Why wouldn't she be?

She felt like a little girl again, quivering with fear. She also felt disgusted. Disgusted in what she had become.

A…

…Monster…