Thanks to you reviewers out there! I hope the rest of the story doesn't disappoint. Here's a background info chapter!
Dan's POV
I shifted slightly, but found I could barely move. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand and opened them slightly. I came face to face with the most beautiful face I had ever seen.
Serena looked peaceful and happy and safe. My heart swelled at the thought that she could sleep so calmly. I thanked God she wasn't plagued with nightmares like I was.
My head pounded and I closed my eyes due to the pain. I moaned out loud suddenly realizing how bright the light was pouring through the window. I slid down so I could lie on my back and Serena started moving. I stared at her face. She was still sleeping.
She shifted her body weight so she was nearly on top of me and rested her head on my chest. I knew it was wrong to take advantage of her while she was sleeping. I should have gotten up and let her sleep by herself.
But I couldn't.
I wrapped my arm around her the best I could and tried to fall back asleep.
I closed my eyes but I still saw her face.
Her calm expression slowly morphed. All of the sudden her face was glaring at me. Her eyes were red and puffy and tears were running down her face.
It was the image of her breaking up with me.
My heart broke again while I lay in bed with her, picturing the pain on her face and knowing that I caused it.
I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or being forced to remember but suddenly the day she walked out started playing in my mind.
"What the hell Dan!" she spat at me.
"Serena, do we really have to do this?" I asked her, tossing my coat down on our couch.
"Are you serious?" she questioned, "This is the fifth time you've stood me up. And when I came to visit you at work, you barely smiled. And what about last night?"
"I told you I was gonna be home late," I said shortly, "I was working on a piece."
"And I was still awake wasn't I?" she said, "Sitting on your coach, waiting for you.. And you mumbled goodnight as you walked by and that's it."
"Are you really gonna get mad at me for that?"
"If it was just that, no!" I said honestly, "But seriously Dan I feel like I'm the only one who cares anymore!"
"Look Serena," I said angrily, "I've had a lot going on. I constantly have deadlines and grades to keep up and its stressful, ok?"
"And what that gives you the right to treat me like shit!" she exclaimed.
"If you're gonna get pissed at me, at least have a good reason," I told her, "I don't want to deal with this."
The anger quickly faded off my girlfriends face. She stared at me blankly and a tear fell off her cheek. I wanted to brush the others away but I could feel her emotions radiating off of her and they acted as a shield. My heart broke as she let her pain shine through.
All of my promises came flushing back as she stared at me. I wasn't gonna hurt like all those other guys would. I would treat her with never ending respect and love her unconditionally. I wouldn't break her heart. We had some troubles through high school but once we were in college and equal most of our issues were gone. Our parents relationship didn't last and my dad had a different serious girlfriend so Serena and I were free to date. I promised her when we got back together, things would be different.
"When did this happen to you?" she asked quietly, and somehow it hurt more than the yelling, "When did you stop being you. The fun loving, respectful Dan Humphrey. When did you turn into a jackass with no emotions except pity for yourself. Cause when that happened you stopped being the guy I love. I'm sick of trying to help you sort out your shit, when you don't even want to talk. I don't know what the hell happened but I know you don't care about me and you anymore. So if you're done, I'm done."
She grabbed her coat and purse and nothing else. She shot me one last look of disgust and walked out the door.
It didn't register as the door slammed. It didn't register the next morning when she wasn't in the kitchen trying to make me breakfast. But whenever it did sink in hit me hard.
And the way Serena looked at me, haunted me from then on. That one look said so much. But most of all it made it clear that she realized I had turned into another guy that would rip out her heart and throw it in her face.
Without wanting to or planning to, I had done the impossible. Tons of douche bags and lying manipulative jerks have walked all over Serena's life and they've always made my blood boil and my stomach sick, but she's so strong and she could fight off every single one of them. And somehow after all that I was the one that broke Serena van der Woodsen.
A flashback to the beginning of Dan's downfall! Find out what's making him this way!
