Sharon smiles apologetically at her doctor, Anna, as she hangs up her phone, tossing it back into her purse.
"Sorry."
"No problem, I know you're busy," Anna smiles reassuringly, resuming her examination, "How has everything been going? You've lost a little bit of weight."
"Good for the most part," Sharon comments, "Andy had a heart attack a few months ago, we've been eating better, going to the gym...just trying to keep him healthy."
"That's not good," Anna sympathizes, "Everything okay with him?"
"Yeah. He didn't quite need a bypass, so they put in a few stents. Keep everything open. He's been doing great actually. It's like he's reverse aged a decade," Sharon smiles.
"Good. I have no doubt you'll keep him on the straight and narrow," Anna smiles as she finishes up her exam, "Seems like everything else is on the up and up. I am going to go grab a blood draw kit. We will take a couple samples so we can send out for a more complete panel, but we should be able to get back to you by this afternoon with some initial results."
"Sounds great," Sharon smiles. The doctor snaps off the examination gloves she had on and grabs some hand sanitizer on the way out the door. Sharon's eyes drift around the small examination room as she waits, regarding the anatomical posters with interest as her legs swing back and forth gently. She stills her movement when Anna comes back, quickly prepping her for the draw before taking a couple test tubes worth. Anna wraps the draw site and cleans up before handing Sharon a couple print outs.
"You are free to go. Like I said we should be able to get back to you by this afternoon, but if you don't hear from us today we will definitely call you in the morning."
"Thanks again," Sharon says, folding the printouts and setting them in her lap. She waits for Anna to leave before changing back into her own clothes, tucking the printouts in her purse on her way out of the office. Checking her watch as she heads for the car, she loads the address for their latest crime scene onto her phone and navigates her way out to the street to return to work.
Sharon walks the crime scene with Provenza as he catches her up before grabbing her own pair of gloves and tugging them on. She takes a look at a few things in the immediate vicinity of the body, before wandering through the high priced house for more context on their victim. Sharon jumps and swings around on her heel when she feels a hand on her shoulder, her hand automatically reaching for her gun. Andy holds his hands up with a wide eyed grin.
"Don't shoot."
"You scared the crap out of me!" Sharon reprimands, her eyes narrowing as she moves her hand away from her gun. Andy shrugs with a smile as he takes his gloves off.
"I was getting ready to go back, if you wanted a lift."
"I'm the one that drove here," Sharon grins, her stance relaxing slightly.
"You drove my car," Andy corrects with a roll of his eyes. Sharon shakes her head as she snaps her own gloves off, silently answering Andy as she follows him out front. She gives a few directions before telling them that she and Andy were going back with the body. Andy gently rests a hand on the small of her back as they walk back to his car.
"How did your appointment go?"
"Fine, just your usual physical. They took some blood, poked and prodded a bit," Sharon replays for him, stuffing her hands into her blazer pockets, "Everything seemed good though."
"Good," Andy comments, opening her car door for her. Sharon nods in silent agreement before getting in, handing Andy the keys. Their hands find each other over the center console during the drive back, a single personal touch in an atmosphere filled with work.
Sharon pulls her attention away from the interview in front of her as she feels her phone vibrate in her pocket. She takes her phone out and glances at the number before standing up from her chair.
"Excuse me for a moment, I need to take this," Sharon tells Buzz before slipping out of electronics. She swipes her thumb across the screen to answer, holding the phone to her ear as she walks the hallways, taking a lap around the office as she talks. Sharon finds herself rounding the corner to the interview rooms again as she hangs up. Andy looks up as he hears the familiar click of her heels, while pulling the door shut.
"Hey," Andy says, surprised to find her in the hallway and not electronics. Sharon looks up, tucking her phone in her pocket, "Phone call?"
"Yeah," Sharon nods, resting a hand on her stomach as she lets out a long breath, trying to quell the butterflies within. Andy steps towards her, stuffing his hands into his pockets, with an arched eyebrow.
"Everything okay?" Andy inquires softly, a worried look taking over his face as he notices a distant one settle over Sharon's.
"I...," Sharon whispers, "I'm pregnant."
"What?" Andy's eyes widen as his eyebrows shoot up on his face, stepping closer to Sharon, "You're..."
"She said they ran the test three times," Sharon says, finally looking up at Andy.
"How is that even possible?" Andy whispers.
"I don't know," Sharon shakes her head, looking down at the floor. They both stand in silence for a moment, lost in thought before stepping back from each other when they hear a throat clear behind them. Sharon lifts her eyes for a moment to notice Provenza standing behind Andy, a file in his hands.
"Lieutenant."
"Captain," Provenza clips out. Andy clears his throat, giving his friend a pointed look. Provenza shakes his head and turns to walk down the hall the opposite direction, throwing a mumbled insult over his shoulder, "Idiots."
"We can talk later," Sharon whispers, stepping fully away from Andy before heading in the opposite direction towards her office, a haunted look on her face.
The couple had arrived home separately that evening, Andy managing to get there first before Sharon arrived with take out for dinner. It wasn't something they indulged in too much since his heart attack, but they had been tied up late at work and neither of them felt like cooking when they got home. They'd spent the rest of their evening on the couch, talking about Sharon's pregnancy as they ate. They'd broached a multitude of topics, most of them concerning whether or not it was a good idea to carry through with anything. Coming to the agreement that Sharon's health came first, they agreed that they would try and see where this new road would take them. They spent a few quiet moments gathered in each other's grasp before Sharon collected their plates to take to the kitchen and clean up as Andy declared he was going to shower. After packing away their left overs and quickly picking up the kitchen and living room, Sharon presses the button to run the dishwasher before turning off the lights in the kitchen. She heads down the hallway towards the bedroom, watching as Andy comes out of the ensuite in a towel as she shuts the door behind herself.
"You know, best thing about this place sometimes is that damn shower head. Really works out the kinks," Andy comments as he towels off before dressing in boxers and an undershirt. Sharon hums in agreement, noticing a small bouquet of flowers on her bedside table. She rounds the end of the bed and leans down to smell the fluffed out peonies and roses.
"Where did these come from?" Sharon asks, arching her eyebrow at Andy. Andy shrugs with a lopsided grin as he sits up on his side in bed.
"Must have been a fairy," Andy reasons through his grin before letting his face become more serious as he shrugs, "I figured you could use a little pick me up today."
A small smile finally spreads over Sharon's lips as she nods before moving to the dresser to grab her own pajamas. She changes into the purple night gown she had pulled out before sliding into bed next to Andy and pressing a quick kiss to his lips.
"Thank you for the flowers," Sharon murmurs gently against his lips. Andy smiles and kisses her back deeper, his hand tangling in her auburn locks and cradling her head in his palm. Sharon melts into his grasp, getting lost in the feeling of his lips and tongue. They indulge in a lengthy make out session before Sharon's hands dip into his boxers and soon her mouth engulfs him. Andy groans and drops fully back to the bed, propped up on their pillows as his hand tangles in her hair to lift it out of the way. He watches with rapt attention as she hungrily takes him in, getting lost in the feeling of her tongue and mouth moving over him. He grunts and tugs at her hair as he feels his release start to close in on him, letting out a longer groan as she flashes warm green eyes at him, continuing to suck him off. Her name falls off his lips paired with a harsh curse and a strangled groan as she deep throats his cock as he cums. Sharon pulls away slowly a moment later, swallowing as she flicks her hair over her shoulder.
"God you're fuckin' good at that," Andy rasps, pulling her to lay down next to him. Sharon grabs the comforter and pulls it up around them as she settles into his side, her head resting on his chest. Sharon takes off her glasses and puts them on her beside table next to the vase, fingering the petals for a wist filled moment. She flips her beside light off and sighs as she feels Andy's hand settle against her middle. Sharon covers his hand, her fingers stroking his wrist gently as she looks up at the ceiling.
"It's still early..."
"Early?"
"I'm only four...maybe five weeks along," Sharon comments, repeating what the doctor had told her earlier, pulling his hand away from her middle. She presses a kiss to his palm and holds his hand to her heart, "Lot of things can happen in the next few weeks. I just...don't want to get too attached yet."
"I'm sure it'll be fine," Andy assures her, squeezing her hand gently. Sharon shrugs as she continues to hold onto his hand, not responding verbally, "Are you worried something's going to happen?"
"I'm no spring chicken, no matter what the doctor said," Sharon replies before taking a deep breath, her chest heaving up and down as she finds herself lost in thought remembering the pain of getting too attached too early previously.
"What's on your mind?" Andy asks, holding her closer as his hand moves from her chest to stroke down her side. He watches in the dark as her face contorts through multiple emotions before she snaps out of her reverie and looks over at him. A small, sad smile drifts across her lips as she covers the hand resting on her hip.
"I had..." Sharon sighs as she looks up and away from Andy, swallowing hard, "I lost two when I was with Jack. One was before we even had Emily. I was 10 weeks along and I'd just started at the academy, so it wasn't the greatest time to have a baby anyway. But it hurt. It's the one thing I'd been raised to believe was my job. Get married, settle down, have kids. I mean my parents wanted more for me...they always wanted more, but there was that implication of settling down...and some how I'd done it wrong. Some how I had messed up."
"You didn't mess up," Andy murmurs.
"I felt like I did for a long time. I threw myself into getting through the Academy, passing all my tests. Couple years later we had Emily. Everything went fine, textbook pregnancy and delivery. She was a perfect, happy baby," Sharon continues, "I started to forget, figured it was just a fluke, or a test or something. I didn't even think of it much when I got pregnant when Emily was 18 months old. I wasn't...I wasn't thrilled with the idea at first. I'd just made Detective and was assured that I was on the fast track to Sergeant, and I was going to be riding a desk in a few months and taking maternity leave again. But...the idea grew on me once the nausea went away."
"How long?" Andy asks as she trails off.
"Eighteen weeks."
"Jesus Christ," Andy swears quietly as he squeezes her hand tight.
"We'd been short staffed and so as long as I could still fit in my vest, my CO was okay with sending me out. I'd just barely started running after a suspect when the pain started. I made it about a block and a half before I was doubled over in pain, practically blacked out. They took me to the hospital but there wasn't anything they could do for me besides give me pain medication and wait," Sharon recounts quietly as she continues to hold onto Andy's hand, "Jack was out of town, so I had to send Gavin to go get Emily from daycare. He brought her to the hospital and sat with me all night, we didn't talk, we just sat.
"He was born at 3:27 in the morning, and he fit in the palm of my hand. It was early enough that there wasn't any paperwork to fill out or anything, but I still found myself trying to think of a name for him. Things started to fall apart after I told Jack that I had lost the baby. Emily was the only constant I had. I barely put her down for weeks afterward. I never wanted to let her go, she was so sweet and so perfect and so here. I was so numb when I was pregnant with Ricky, and Jack was so far gone from our relationship...I didn't realize what was happening until I was sitting in the hospital alone, introducing Emily to her brother."
"Did you ever think of a name?" Andy inquires softly after Sharon's quiet for a few moments.
"James," Sharon whispers, her voice thick.
"That's a good name," Andy offers. Sharon nods quietly, taking a deep, shuddering breath before letting it out slowly. Andy curls his arms around her and pulls her close, pressing a kiss to her temple as his hands rub up and down her back comfortingly, "No matter what happens, I'm going to be here for you. You don't have to go through any of this alone."
Sharon nods again in silence, burying her face in his shoulder and inhaling his comforting scent. She closes her eyes as she tries to forget, to move beyond the feelings fluttering around inside her. After a while she speaks softly.
"Andy?"
"Yeah?" Andy asks.
"I'm already attached," Sharon mumbles into his shoulder, squeezing her eyes closed tight as she clutches him closer. Andy rubs his hand up her back and holder her just as close as his lips press against her hair line.
"Me too, Shar...me too."
End Notes: It is going to be one of those fics - I can't help it, it's like crack. I almost have to write this fic first before I can write anything else. It's sad really. But I hope you'll stay along for the ride. There is still definitely going to be smut, and Shandy, and even some appearances by Emily and Ricky down the line!
