Hey guys just wanted to give a shout out to Seth's the Best you are awesome and for getting me stoked to write this next chapter…ummm. I hope it's up to par on your meter I'm kind of scared lol. Hope you like it.
Seth's POV
I woke up the next morning with someone next to me, and I was naked.
Why in the hell would I be naked?
If that were a surprise then the morning wood I felt digging into my ass should have been.
What the fuck? Where am I?
"Mmm, morning baby" I heard a deep husky male voice beside me, It was filled with sleep, I soon recognized it as Jake's.
Just then all of lasts night's memories came flooding back at once, Jake, the imprinting, the being a wolf, the sex, everything... Oh no I had sex with Jake, I let him touch me in the most intimate ways, and I touched him, it was all too much to handle.
I jumped out of bed startling Jake and he jumped up into a protective crouch, I looked at him in all his naked glory and felt disgusted with myself. Jake was not only a friend, but a male friend, and I was turned on, that's just fucking wrong.
I soon realized that I was naked also. I ran to try and hide myself and the obvious boner that had just sprung up, to cover myself from his alluring view.
"Seth what's wrong? What happened? Did I do something?"
"Did you do something" I repeated him.
"Did you do something!" I said a little more loudly, my eyes getting teary.
I walked slowly to him giving him the deadliest glare I could muster.
And I slapped the shit out of him.
He grabbed his cheek and held his hand to it.
"What… what's your problem Seth?"
"What's my problem?" I said repeating him again.
I slapped him again, this time on the other cheek.
He didn't move, not to comfort it or anything.
That pull was happening again. The one if I yelled at him and hurt his feelings, my feelings also hurt.
"You fucking took advantage of me in my weak state and didn't even think twice about it, how fucking dare you try to talk to me huh? Or Call me baby! Answer me Jake, FUCKING ANSWER ME!" I yelled stomping to the nightstand in the sheet that had once been on the bed, picking up the clock and throwing it at him, then a book, and a pair of old reading glasses that no doubt belonged to my dad.
"Seth I… I thought you wanted it" he said the hurt obvious on his face.
"How the hell could you possibly think anyone would want this, huh? To be a wolf, to imprint, any of that shit dude. And I damn sure didn't expect to love you not like this, I feel so forced to you, like I don't have a choice but to be with you, and I miss my friend Jake, the best friend I went to dance battles in Seattle with, the one who wanted to hang around me and not Sam, the Jake that was a hetero." I hadn't noticed I was crying until I felt that itching feeling on the side of my lip.
"I'm so sorry Seth." He said in a low whisper.
"Yeah so am I" with that I ran into the bathroom taking the sheet with me.
A few moments later I heard Jake shuffle towards the door.
"Seth, please some out" he pleaded to the door.
"Please I'm sorry. Look…can we just like talk or something?"
"Not now Jake I'm…I'm not ready now" I sobbed.
"Seth, please?" he begged, he sounded so broken, that only fueled my emotions toward him.
"Jake please go away right now, I'll come find you in a min just let me shower first ok?" I asked so I could get some time alone with my thoughts.
"Ok but please come out so we can talk."
"I will, just give me a few minutes"
I sat there alone on the floor of the bathroom alone with my thoughts.
I can't believe he did that to me, we are supposed to be friends, best friends.
He knew what kind of state I was in, I was so vulnerable, and he knew it and fed off it and I let him.
Maybe it's not all his fault, maybe I was falling for him before the imprint, but fought the feelings because I knew they were wrong and went against everything I believed in, everything I was taught not to partake in.
I was raised that being gay was like a slap in gods face like you're saying you don't like the way he made you, but then again, if God was all-knowing, like he knows who you are before you are, then he would see what would happen in your future, and make you what you'll want to be right. With all the transsexuals in this world, and closet homosexuals; God would've known what they wanted to be, so he'd have no abominations right? Wouldn't he? He wouldn't have that rule in his Bible if he'd looked ahead, and he'd have less unhappy people.
I got up and started the shower still thinking about everything that happened.
I showered for a good twenty minutes. I wrapped the towel around myself; I peeked out the door to see if Jake was anywhere to be seen. To my luck he wasn't, thankfully. I walked out and put on my gray tight fitted v-neck with my black not to skintight jeans, and went in search for Jake so we could talk, even though I really didn't want to. I was just glad all we did was touch and not explore any further. I f we had I don't think I'd be anymore good. I walked downstairs to the living room, no Jake in here.
Next stop was the dining room, not here either. I walked into the kitchen, and there he was, slaving over the hot stove with a bowl of egg mix in one hand and a whisk in the other.
I chuckled lightly and he turned around and had, what I guess to be pancake mix on his face, he really was kind of cute, and the fact he was lacking a shirt had me drooling.
So if I had to describe Jake in one word to the world it'd be, Sexy? Yeah, definitely sexy.
'Seth snap out of it he's a guy dude you dig chicks not dicks, man get a hold of yourself man!'
I mentally scolded myself. Shaking my head to get those thoughts out and come back to reality.
"Go have a seat in the dining room. We'll talk after breakfast."
"Umm…ok"
I went and sat at the table, and I started to think about all of this.
My mom always told me to follow my heart, and my heart says Jake, but brain says 'sick ass' if I am with him, and so will all of society.
I just don't know what to do, I mean, here I am with a guy who is really good-looking, and I'm almost sure I'm in love with. I'm so torn between right and wrong, but a great mind did once say, 'if loving you is wrong I don't wanna be right'my gut instinct is to run and hide, to run so far and never look back, and to save my soul from eternal damnation. But what about this werewolf business what was I going to do about it? What was I going to tell my mom? I mean Sam said because I'm Farley new at this I have no control, so could I even see my mom and Leah any more what would happen to her if I never came home? How would the both of them feel?
In the middle of my inner monologue Jake came in holding two plates filled to the stack.
There were eggs, sausage, bacon, pancakes w/syrup and hash browns; it was the all around perfect breakfast.
He disappeared again while I was examining all the food on the plate, and reappeared, with the perfect finish. OJ, No, not OJ Simpson, OJ as in Orange Juice. I ate and felt to full to count, normally I'd never eat so much but now I've been hungry a lot more, my guess the wolf thing.
After I was done and Jake was also, I offered to take the dishes to the sink.
"You done?" I nodded to his empty plate.
It'd been empty for a good while now; he just sat there watching me eat.
He nodded I got his plate and cleaned them, dried them and put them up in the cabinet.
I turned around and saw Jake Leaning on the archway.
He sauntered over towards me, and gently lifted my hand in his.
"Let's go have that talk" he whispered and pulled me toward the living room.
We sat down on the sofa and he looked at me expectantly, like I was the one who had the explaining to do.
"Jake there isn't anything you'd like to say to me before I start?"
"Nope, right now I'm all ears, but hopefully later you'll change your mind and I'll be all yours" he said in a playful tone.
"Jake, right now is not the time for jokes ok? This is serious!" I yelled getting up from the couch.
"You think this is all one big game don't you? You must because you try to make a joke out of everything I say! This…" I motioned between he and I "is not ok… it's not right"
"Who says it's not right huh! Where is it written that you're not allowed to fall in love?" He yelled standing to his feet throwing his hands in the air.
"Don't yell at me!" I pointed at him.
"Seth" his voice softer now.
"Look I'm sorry" he said looking at me with regretful eyes.
"No don't be sorry, fix this, undo whatever the hell it is you did. You cursed me" I sobbed out.
"you made this happen to me, it's all your fault, now I'm going to lose mom too just like I lost dad and I'm going to lose Leah too" I cried out sobbing.
He grabbed my shoulders and pulled me to his chest. I grabbed his shirt, sobbed hard into it. I felt comfort and warmth in his arms. Like somehow we fit, it was like that's where I belonged, and I couldn't fight the feelings anymore it was just getting to be emotionally unbearable.
"Jake this… I don't know what I'm supposed to do." I sniffed my sobs dying down.
"Just let me love you. Show you, you can be loved, it's not wrong to love me Seth, just like it's not wrong for me to love you" I looked up at him.
"I can't Jake, these feelings." I said through clenched teeth.
"I... I just can't fight them anymore, and I don't think I want to" I said looking up into his eyes.
"Good… that's a battle I'm happy you're losing" he whispered and pulled away from me a bit to cup my face.
"I love you Seth, please just give me one chance to show you how I can make you feel, don't consider this as wrong, just think of it as love." He whispered. I closed my eyes.
"I love you too Jake" I said and took a deep breath. He leaned down and closed the gap between us.
His lips were just as there were the night before, luscious, they were pulling and nipping at mine and I loved every minute of it.
"Jake" I called out breaking the kiss.
"Do you really think we could make this work without society looking down on us?"
"Of course I do, if I didn't do you think I'd be begging for you to give me a chance?"
"I don't know, you say you love me now, but will you be okay going out in public with me after they stare and point at us? Will you be okay just showing me affection in front of others? I just don't think you will be, and because...I…I just might not be able to handle the whispers Jake."
"Well, when you get weak, and you feel like your knees are gonna give out, do you think you can trust me enough to let me help you throooooughooooh?" Jake sung to me, he sounded just like Gary LeVox from Rascal Flatts.
"Wow Jake I didn't know you could sing, see another thing you kept from me all these years" I scolded pretending to be angry.
"Well you're giving me a chance right? There are a lot of things you're about to find out, that you didn't know already." He said in a horror movie tone.
"Jake stop it you know I hate scary movies" I said slapping him playfully on the chest, feeling totally at ease with him now.
"I know that's what's so fun about it, come on, Sam told me to have you at his house by 9am so we can train you for your first patrol in a few nights" wait, my what?
"Wait, my what?" 'Very smooth Seth that's why we think before we talk'
"I'll explain everything in a little bit, just let me go shower and get dressed, since you decided to shower already, I'll try and take my time" he Joked winking at me.
"don't come up either, my head is filled with thoughts of you and last night so I'll need to take care of that, and we wouldn't want you to walk in on some pretty groovy movements huh?" he chuckled looking at me suggestively. walking toward me slowly, putting his hand on my growing buldge, and slowly rubbing it., causing my eyes toflutter and roll back. then he suddenly back a way. looking at me as if he'd done nothing. and the conversation carried on as if nothing happened
"No, we wouldn't, ok off you go" I shooed at his crude humor.
"See ya in a bit." He bent down to kiss my lips, in a long lingering kiss.
God he was amazing, i still couldnt wrap my head around all of it, especially not the gay thing. he was walking away.
"Ohh and the packs hosting a bonfire in celebration of you phasing, it on Sunday, after the football game." he stopped and turned to say.
"Ok I'll meet you at your house on sunday then." i said
"No ill pick you up the night before, so we can spend some quality time."
"Uhh I don't know Jake…" I took a deep breath
"I just don't think I'm ready for that yet."I know I want him, I'm just not prepared enough, and these feelings are getting a little out of hand.
"Ok umm... Not everything I say is about sex, Seth" he said
Now I was totally embarrassed. My cheeks got really hot.
"Oh I'm so sorry I just assumed…"
"It's ok I would've thought the same thing"
"Ok go its 8:30" wow we got up early, either that or time was moving really slow today.
And if that were the case today was going to be supper exhausting.
Ok wow that took a hell of a lot outta me. so thanks to all whom favorite, alerted and reviewed my story I'll try to keep the chapters going, but I don't really want Jake and Seth to have a smooth sailing time but I just want them to always have a happy ending. So if anyone has any ideas about how I can put some bumps in the road for them, that don't include death or I already used death and I hate cheaters lol, I wouldn't want to hate my story. Next chapter will have the training and maybe a lemon if you have some lemony goodness you'd like to share to see how I can start, middle, and end it let me know thanks.
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