Chapter Two

I used to wish to be in the spotlight. Have the whole stage to myself that was back when I was unafraid of anything. Back when I wasn't afraid of failing. I used to wish I never let anything affect me or my choices, especially Jade. I used to think we'd be friends one day. I used to WANT to be her friend. Now, I'm not so sure. After the stunt she pulled today with the janitor's closet I don't even think I know who she is anymore. Is this her way of coping with my parents? Or has she always been this way? I spent all night pondering this while I heard Jade fighting with Beck on the phone in the room next door. It's not like I was eavesdropping. She was literally screaming at him. About me of all people. I don't even know what I did wrong. The screaming stopped then there was a slam of a door. I figured it was Jade leaving to get some fresh air. I sighed. My aunt and uncle were out on a date and I was home alone. I picked up my guitar and strummed a few notes.

Sometimes I wondered if I made a mistake by choosing to never talk again. I missed singing, a lot. Sure, I sing to myself sometimes in my head but never out loud. I wasn't even sure my voice would even sound the same. I guess there was only one way to find out.

OH yeah yeah

My voice sounded scratchy but I cleared it a few times and it sounded decent.

The situation turns around enough to figure out

That someone else has let you down so many times I don't know why

But I know we can make it as long as you say it
So tell me that you love me yeah

And tell me that I take your breath away

And maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure

There's nothing left to say

Tell me that you love me anyway

Tell me that you love me anyway

Ohhh

Waking up beside yourself and what you feel inside being shared with someone else

Nowhere to hide I don't know why

But I know we can make it long as you say it

So tell me that you love me yeah

And tell me that I take your breath away

And maybe if you take one more then I would know for sure

There's nothing left to say

Tell me that you love me anyway
Show me look what we found turn it around every day

I can hear what you say

Now I know why know we can make it
If you tell me that you love me yeah

And tell me that I take your breath away

And maybe if you take one more

So tell me that you love me yeah

And tell me that I take your breath away

Maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure

There's nothing left to say

Tell me that you love me anyway

I sighed. I could never go back to singing in front of people it'd be too much. I put my guitar down and looked up. I saw Jade standing in the doorway. My eyes widened.

"Relax. I won't tell anyone, as long as you do something for me. That voice of yours, not too bad for not being used in a while. Why don't you sing for me in my plays and musicals? So I can concentrate more on my footing than anything else, and of course that way my voice won't get overused. You do this for me and I won't tell anyone about your voice. What do you say?" Jade said walking slowly into my room to stand at the foot of my bed. I considered her offer. It would be a way for me to sing again, but did I really want to let Jade be the one to show it off? I sighed. There really was no other option. I nodded my head. "Good. Then we'll need to practice for the beginning of the year showcase. Have a good night, Tori." And with that said Jade left me to my own thoughts.

I'm not going to lie, Jade scares me. More than anything. She used to be so sweet and innocent when we were little then we were separated. She went to the fancy preforming schools and I went to the regular schools because I never thought I was good enough to go to one. Now I know I'm not good enough if I can't even face my fear and start talking. I sighed for the billionth time and lay down and went to sleep.

The Next Day

I woke up earlier than I normally would have. I decided I would walk to school today. It wasn't that far, maybe ten-fifteen minute walks. I got up and took a quick shower before deciding on what to wear. I chose purple and black spaghetti strapped tank top with my ripped up skinny jeans, my vest, and my purple vans. I applied light makeup and grabbed my bag and headed out the door. It was a nice day, or morning. I smiled; today was going to be a good day. I could feel it. I got to school soon enough and when I walked in I saw Cat sitting on the steps crying. I went over to her and sad down. I took out my whiteboard and marker and asked her what was wrong. She looked up at me with her tear stained face and hugged me. I had no other choice but to comfort her. I wrapped my arms around her and rubbed her back.

"I-I miss my brother!" She wept. I sighed. "He was everything to me! My best friend and today's his birthday and I can't see him!" I pulled back and looked at her weird. She must have seen my confusion so she explained. "My brother died when I was young and it's still fresh in my mind." She whispered. I wrote on my board.

"Do you want to skip first and go and see him?" I asked her. Her face brightened a little bit.

"Tori! Thank you so much! Let's go!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me out to eh parking lot. She led me to her small little blue bug and off we went to the cemetery. On the way there I was considering telling Cat about what happened, since she's lost a brother I guess she can relate. I wouldn't tell her today, I'd wait until tomorrow. Today is all about making her happy; not I. Cat kept telling me all of these stories about her brother. She also said no one but me knows about her brother. Not even Jade, and I thought her and Jade were best friends. "Thank you, Tori. For coming with me. There is no way I would have been able to tell Jade about my brother… or anyone else in our group for that matter. I just met you and I already trust you and love you like a sister. I'm glad you came to HA, Tori. I think you've brought the life back into the school." Cat smiled.

I almost started crying. I already meant so much to her? After just a day of knowing her? Was I really that special to everyone? I smiled. I guess things are looking up after all.

Kinda short… but I am open to any suggestions whatsoever! I would actually kinda like some… thanks to those who review! And remember the more reviews I get the quicker I can update!