To my dear Clary.

I never wanted this to happen. I was thinking of you. My brave, strong girl. I wanted for you to have a chance. A life.

I'm sorry. I thought I was protecting you. I know you will never forgive me but please listen.

I had to hide you. I couldn't risk losing you. I couldn't let Valentine know where we were. If he touched you-

He, he turned my first child into a monster and I didn't want him to do the same to you. So I made my choice.

I stole your memories, I took them away from you. I took away everything from you and it didn't belong to me.

It's just that I was so frightened of him, of you finding out where I was from and who I really am. And now you have. And you have every reason to hate me. I'm am not asking for your forgiveness, I'm telling you I'm sorry.

I will never leave your side, you are my existence. You kept me alive. I love you so much it hurts. You are my daughter and you are so brave.

You deserve everything and more.

All my love,

Jocelyn x