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I know the last chapter ended abruptly but I couldn't think how to finish it. I will just continue it in this chapter.
I may put lemons in it but it depends how I'm feeling cos I know that I will cringe the whole time.
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Bpov
"Hey." I glared at him.
He just smiled at me from across the room.
"Why did you stop?" I said when I already knew what his reply would be.
"You know. I love you Bella. I don't want to break you. But hey, soon we'll be married and we'll be able to, you know." He raised his eyebrows suggestively and winked.
"Bla bla bla. I suppose..."
I stood up and walked into the bathroom to brush my hair. I'm sure it was looking like a haystack. Yep it was. I grabbed the brush and attempted to drag it through the mess that was my hair. It was tough work trying to tame it, let me tell you.
I felt two cold arms wrap around my waist.
"Edward?"
"No, I'm not Edward,I'm.... I'm Paul."
"Yes you are, I can see you in the mirror."
"No you can't." He put his hands over my eyes. "I came to deliver a message to Miss Swan, from Edward. He says that if you walk out of the room again and leave him on his own, he will be very, very angry."
"Oh did he?" I tried to say seductively.
He picked me up and spun me around, so that he was between me and the mirror.
"Yes." He walked towards me, pushing me backwards out of the door into his room.
"Oh so it IS you, Edward," I speculated.
"Did I have you fooled?" he teased as he pushed me further towards the bed.
"Definately," I said just as my knees hit the bed. He pushed me backwards so I fell onto the bed and him on top of me. He kissed me roughly and shoved his tongue in my mouth. Quite rude, but hey, I wasn't complaining. This was unlike him, and I liked it. I kissed him back passionately, moving my hands through his hair. He was running his hands down my sides, and moved his mouth to my neck. I moved my hands to his shirt and undid the top few buttons. I felt his stone chest and I wanted more. I fumbled with the other buttons on his shirt,trying to open them. His hands moved from my waist to my wrists quickly, to stop me.
I looked at him in the eyes as to say Why? Didn't you like it? Oh yer, I forgot, my safety. And just when I thought you'd given in.
"Bella, you know full well we can't carry on."
"No, I know that we could, but either you don't want to or are to afraid to. I think you should just lighten up once in a while." I leapt off the bed onto the floor, about to burst with anger.
Edward was obviously dazed by my sudden temper. "Bella,you know.."
"What," I butted in. "That its for my own safety, yes, I know. I just wish we could be a normal couple sometimes. I suppose the problem is that I'm too fragile. SO WHY DON'T YOU CHANGE ME!!I want to be like you Edward, a vampire. Can you just make up your mind. Either you want to do it or you don't. Either I'm a human or a vampire. Either I'm with you or I'm not."
I took the ring off my finger and chucked it at his head, or tried to. "Come find me when you've figured out some stuff. No more games, Edward."
With the tears streaming down my face I ran out of the room, out to my beat up truck. I sat in the front seat for a while with my head pressed against the wheel.
I love him, of course, I can't live without him. Why can't he just give me what I want, what WE want. I know he cares about me and is concerned for me, but I'm not a little girl, I can take care of myself. Why can't he make up his mind. I thought we really wanted this but he's always determined on playing games when I thought we were supposed to be serious. I don't know.
I was about to start the car and drive back home, when a little pixie knocked on the window.
I opened the door, and ran into her arms.
"Alice, I don't know what to do. He loves me I know he does, but he is annoying me so much at the moment. I want me and him to be together, no complications, but it is really hard cos I know it's not like that and it will probably never be. It's difficult but I love him and he knows I do so why can't he just make up his damn mind."
After I had finished my incessant ranting Alice just replied in a calm tone, "Stupid boys."
I let out a small giggle but then continued crying.
"I'll drive you home."
"Thank you."
Oooooooh, what will happen to Bella and Edward? Don't worry they won't break up, could never do that to myself.
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