When Luke got home he found Lorelai asleep. He saw how her cheeks were full of her mascara and that her eyes were red and puffy.
This was not the first time he had found her like that, but he never asked her what was wrong.
If something was truly wrong she would tell him right? He saw the books but he only recognized the pearl colored one.
He opened it and saw the test and what Lorelai had written. Then he thought the Lorelai he knew would not find out she was pregnant and not tell him. She would not take a pregnancy test that came out positive and then fall asleep.
He woke her up and saw how those beautiful bright blue eyes were now bloodshot and now a dull colored grey, but he figured it was the stress at the inn and her parents stuff like that.
"Hey" she said weakly plastering on a fake smile; she had become a pro at that.
"Hey" he said back and kissed her
Lorelai kissed him back but she didn't feel anything the spark that she used to feel when they kissed was dying just like her hopes of marrying Luke
She said "oo give me another one" thinking "maybe this time I'll feel something" but she felt nothing.
He picked up the book and went straight to it" Were you going to tell me?"
Lorelai felt that feeling in her stomach. She could never describe what it was or how it felt but she hated it, because she got it every time Luke doubted her or eve time he said that he would see her after April left.
"Luke of course I was going to tell you"
"When after it was born, or maybe on its first birthday party when you need ice"
"Tonight" she yelled I was going to tell you tonight" why was he acting this way wasn't this suppose to be something good, and why was he calling the baby it hadn't he read the name on the book
"Really and why until tonight huh why didn't you go run to the diner like when you bought the damn book"
Lorelai couldn't help but cry. That "damn" book like he called it was the book that was suppose to hold the memories of their first child together but she got herself together and said quietly
"You called me at the inn and told me April was going to be at the diner from 3-8 and since I can't be anywhere near April I worked until 6, came home, took the test and put it in Bella's book and fell asleep…I was going to tell you when you came home because you told me you were closing tonight. Now if you'll excuse me I have paperwork to catch up on, you should leave its late you have to close…see you when you come home if you want to and if you don't I don't give a damn because apparently you don't give a damn either"
She grabbed Bella's book and walked out feeling worse than ever. How could he say all those things this wasn't the Luke she knew. Then she remembered she wasn't the Lorelai she knew either.
When she got to the inn she locked herself in her office sat on the couch and opened Bella's book she turned the page and began to write…
