disclaimer: I In no way own Harry Potter, J.K Rowling does, If I did George and Luna would be a thing and Hermione would get more love that she needed.

I'd Like to thank those who reviewed and those who liked and read my story, IT means a ton and I'm sending you all hugs!.

To guest's;

I am so sorry you know what Luna is going through, I really wish I could help you, but sadly so do I, But I'm getting better, and I hope as you read this and go though Luna's journey, you will find help with her.

To Scarleaf,

Thank you for that! It means a ton, You might have to wait awhile till you get to see the letter, But I hope you enjoy the story until than haha.

PLEASE DO NOT READ THE END OFF THIS CHAPTER IT COULD BE A TRIGGER FOR SOME, SHE SELFHARMS AND TALKS ABOUT HOW SHE FEELS AND STUFF THAT COULD MAKE YOU SAD.

~chapter two. Mummy~

As Luna woke up she looked at the clock and saw that it was, again, 6:00, Sighing, Luna knew that she would not be able to fall back asleep, Getting up she search through her chest for clean cloths, She found her Ravenclaw dress that once belonged to her mother, She held it close sniffing in the smell of Apple pie, How her mother smelled, She held in close as she took in the memory of when her mum told her about this dress.

~~Flashback~~

8-year-old Luna sat on the Kitchen counter softly kicking her feet back and forth, as she watched her mum placed the pie in the oven taking off her apron showing the blue skirt and blacked top dress with a bronze coloured bow around the waist where the two colours mixed, Luna looked at her mothers blonde hair that was almost a white much like Luna's she loved how similar they looked. Luna's mum's hair had been cut just below her chin and fell in curls, she had taken two pieces of hair from the front and pulled them back and kept them in place with a blue and bronze bow.

"Mummy, Why do you always wear that on this day" Luna asked looking at the Calendar which read September 20th

"Cause when I went to Hogwarts, I was in Ravenclaw, Just like your father, and there was a ball, that was on this day,, and you know how my family didn't have a lot of money growing up, I made this dress. and once I was out of Hogwarts I made this lovely potion that would permanently make it keep the smell of the family's famous apple pie all you had to had to do was wash it with the potion. Take a smell" Leaning forward she offered her daughter her shoulder, Taking in a breath through her nose, Luna smelt the apple pie that had a hint of peppermint. (That being the secret)

"Yummy"

"Snow?" Luna's father called looking for his wife,

"In here, sweetheart" Luna's mum called back who finished washing the dishes by hand. Luna's father came into sight, his cloths cleaned, his hair smooth and not a hint of Grease, His eyes held a sparkle as he wrapped his arms around Snow giving her a kiss on the forehead. before sniffing the air,

"You're making pie"

"Guilty" Snow giggled as Luna watched still on the counter, Hoping that she would be lucky to find a love like her parents.

~~ Flashback over~~

Sighing, Luna picked out knee-high socks that had a light blue bow on the side on each one, some black flats that had a bow on them by the toes, and a bow that was also once her mothers. Luna picked up her cloths and headed to the bathroom to shower and get ready.

Luna exit the bathroom putting her hair up in a messy bun, much like her mum would have her do when they make potions,or Cooked, and since that was the first class Luna had today, Luna thought it made sense to fix her hair up now. Throwing her Ravenclaw robe on and a pair of fox earrings and heading over to her desk, She grabbed her Ravenclaw notebook and begun to write the events of last night. She wrote a quote or two that she either made up or over heard. She wrote at the top of the page ''It's scary what a smile can hide''

Looking at the clock, Luna, saw that the time was 7:00 so she decide to run down to breakfast and eat before anyone came down and tried to mess with her.

As She finished eating her Owl oats and the hall filled up with some Hufflepuff who she did not mind and some nice Gryffindors. She thought back to how Her and Hermione would talk before everyone else came in. They would talk about muggles things, house elf's, school work, but through it all they did not mention each others pain.

Luna noticed that the hall started to fill up more she grabbed her black shoulder bag that had dangles black stings hanging off. She looked up to the doors as she watched the as the twins walked in followed by everyone else. She looked at The group as everything from last night came rushing back to her, Hazel eyes met her gray ones as Angelina looked at her with hope, But Luna could see tears quickly finding their way in the girls hazel eyes. Luna kept her head down as always but this time she felt the groups eyes on her, but she paid them not a single glance as she rushed off to 6th year potions class, It was the only class that she skipped that far ahead, She is technically only in her 4th year but she is in 5th classes the only one who Dumbledore allowed to do so, He offered the same to Hermione but she said no. Luna skipped up a grade higher when it came to potions, She was in the twins classes but of course they did not know. She always hid unnoticed.

"Come in" A silk voiced commanded from in the inside, She opened the door finding her potions master. Snape. She always came early so she and the professor had gotten close. He had tried to talk her into taking over if he ever leaves

"Good morning" Luna came in and sat in her seat that was, unlike in the rest of her classes, In the front, but still off to the side.

"Good morning, Miss Lovegood. How has your days been"

"Same old, same old" Luna wasn't stupid she knew, Snape, knew about her depression, but she will say nothing about it until he brings it up himself.

Snape sighed as he came over to her, his cloak trailing behind him, Wordlessly he walked to his cupboard, taking a bottle out and handing it to Her she looked and saw it said healing.

"It works well for small wounds, just dab some on a cloth and apply it to the wound." He walked away leaving Luna gabbing, that was the first time he ever mention something like that, she sat there looking at the bottle in shock until she heard someone come in, she quickly stuffed the bottle in the her bag as the class room begun to fill up with students, Luna didn't have time to run to the back, so she stay stuck in the first row near the walk way.

As the lesson goes on she felt pairs of eyes staring at her as she worked silently, She knew it was the twins and Angelina but she kept her eyes on the potion, not spearing them a single glance. She listened to Snape as he told the class what to do.

Everyone worked in pairs and no one questioned why the young Ravenclaw worked alone, they didn't even take to big of notice to her.

Snape told everyone to come up and take one Snail shell to add to their potions, anymore than that and it could cause harm to those around. Luna was one of the first ones to go up and grab one, followed by everyone else, Soon the line became shorter to only five people in line, A Hufflepuff girl in low pigtail with pink ribbons came by and dropping in a shell into Luna's cauldron while Luna was cutting up her tail of newt. Luna heard bubbling and sizzling coming from her potion, She walked over looking down at her potion that was now grabbing other students attention, Luna tried to cool it down by mixing in the spiders eyes until she saw the blonde Hufflepuff, Luna knew what she did and hurriedly grabbed the lid trying to stuff it on the over flowing pot before it blow.

"Duck!" Professor Snape yelled out before the pot blew, breaking the lid and scattering the pieces, Luna fell to the ground she felt blood run down her forehead and lip, Using one hand to keep her up she placed the other upon her face feeling where the stone pieces cut her, she could feel one piece lodge in her forehead, But she was no longer focus on that, Snape had walked over and offered the girl a hand, pulling her up, Luna looked around and took notice to the looks she received, The looks of anger, The looks of humor and the looks of sadness from her professor and the twins.

She looked down at her dress, her mothers dress, the one that her mother made and passed down, the one that smelt of the family's pie, now covered in green and yellow goo, Luna froze, She had one thing that she owned of her mothers that her father did not lock away now ruined, She felt the tears hit her cheeks as she noticed she was crying, She ran out of the class (Grabbing her bag of the way out(?)) eyes burning with tears. Luna did not know where she was running but she knew how it would end.

She reached an empty bathroom and ran into a stall, She searched through her bag looking for her razor, remembering that George Weasley took it she grabbed her wand and quickly used it to break off a piece of metal, She stuffed her wand in her bag throwing off her robe she looked down a the ruined dress and cried.

She gripped the metal tightly in her hand as she made a cut across her skin, watching the milky flesh split in two, and blood pour out, She felt realized followed by guilt, She did not know if it was guilt for the dress, for her mistake or her guilt of breaking her promise to Hermione, either way Luna wanted it gone. She made more harsh lines down both arms, not cutting to deep but enough to watch the blood drip down her arms and onto the white tile floor. Luna leaned back and cried, realizing that the dress no longer smelt like pie and her mother now only smelling of smoke and Rubbish, realizing that she had broken her strike and had once again shed her own blood.