Chapter 2

We were nothing


I want to hide the truth
I want to shelter you
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
...

He suddenly woke up from his unconsciousness but he didn't open his eyes. He could felt something soft beneath him, where he was lying and a soft beep on the background. He was too tired and he didn't want to wake up at all, he felt like he had run a marathon for being finally hit by a train. He was physically and mentally exhausted.

Then a noise... he heard a little metallic noise and then some footsteps muffled and a different aroma filled the room. It was fresh, like freesias and peonies, like vanilla... he didn't know what it was but that delicious and vaguely familiar smell made him sigh heavily and opened his eyes to find a beautiful but gaunt girl standing in front of his bed.

Suddenly a million questions ran through his head. Where he was? It was a hospital? It looked like a hospital. But why he was there? Had something bad had happen to him? And the most important, who was her?

Her skin was like ivory, pale but still glowed and her chocolate curls framed perfectly her face, her pretty face. She had big brown eyes, red rimmed probably for fatigue or concern... Was she worried for him? But... who was she? And then the realization of something, twisted his stomach in a painfully way.

"Where I am?" he asked hoarsely to the girl. His voice sound too tired and like he hadn't used it in a long time.

A little frown appeared in the girl's face, her pouty and red lips pursing worried and with some emotion he couldn't identify.

"In... in the hospital, Chuck" she responded kindly and gently. Chuck? It was true, his name was Chuck. His attention was caught again by the gorgeous girl and she looked at her deeply. He felt something strange about her, like if he had seen her before... like he had met her in a dream... in another time. But he didn't know her name, or who she was. Without really thinking about it, he just frowned and asked her:

"I'm sorry but... do I know you?"


I'm sorry but... do I know you? ...do I know you? ...do I know you? his voice rang in her ears as if he had shouted at her the question; that simple and yet confusing question. For a brief, relieving and angry moment she though he was kidding but then she saw his confusion in his empty eyes.

There was not pain, or sorrow, or anger, or rancor, or love... anything, just confusion... for some reason, he didn't know her.

"You... you don't who I am?" Blair's voice was merely a whisper and she wondered how it was possible that her really broken heart could still beating so fast.

But she wasn't the only one with thousand of torturing questions, thoughts and feelings. When Blair asked him that, Chuck frowned trying to remember the girl... but he hadn't any memory of her and the true was... that he hadn't memory at all.

Who he was? Chuck... who? Why he was in a hospital? In which country he was? What had happen with his memory? The boy lifted his hands to his hair and clenched his hair tightly, his gaze in his lap, looking completely confused and lost... and hurt. His chest raose and felt violently and he started to hyperventilate.

Blair got scared when she saw him like that and immediately approached him.

"Chuck?" but she stopped dead in her tracks when he looked up to her; his lost expression broke her heart again. "What's wrong?" she choked looking at the hopeless face of her ex-boyfriend.

"I... I..." Chuck was afraid to say it out loud but he needed answers immediately. "I can't remember anything"

Blair froze again when she heard his words, refusing to believe them... it wasn't possible... it wasn't. It had to be a really bad joke...

"You mean... you don't remember anything of your accident or-"

"I can't remember anything!" he snapped at her. "I don't know who I am... or where I am... I had no idea who you are!"


"So tell me Mr. Bass, what is the last memory you have" Doctor Gischler asked to Chuck with a strong German accent. Serena was standing against the door watching at her stepbrother as he had became suddenly into a stranger and Blair, paler than ever, was sitting in a chair, looking absently to the floor.

The boy clenched his jaw without looking at the doctor and responded reluctantly:

"When I woke up here"

"So you don't have any memories of the accident, nor from your life?"

"I thought I already made myself clear" Chuck snapped to the doctor, angrily. At least it was the same Chuck's mood, Serena thought bitterly. "No, I don't remember anything"

"What is wrong with him?" Serena managed to ask and Chuck looked at the blonde girl frowning. After he had snapped at the brunette pretty girl, she just started to yell, calling for the doctor and her friend whom came right away. The blonde's name was Serena and according to her, she was Chuck's step sister.

The doctor Gischler turned to Serena and sighed.

"He has amnesia"

"What?" Chuck and Serena snapped at the same time. Blair didn't react but the words pierced her furiously right to her core, his words still rumbling inside her head... I'm sorry but... Do I know you...? I can't remember anything... He has amnesia... I had no idea who you are!

"Is a deficit in memory caused by brain damage, disease, or psychological..."

"I know what the fucking amnesia is!" Chuck interrupted the doctor explanation, sharply. "I want to know why I... why I have it" his voice broke at the end and finally Blair managed to look up to him. The boy was glaring at the doctor with anger... and hopelessness.

"Well the amnesia has three principal causes: a head trauma, a physical deficiency or a traumatic event" the doctor explained to the kids, scratching his jaw. "In your case, Mr. Bass, we can assume that the cause maybe was the trauma of being shot, but we can't discard a head trauma or a deficient. I'm going to make you an examination to assure that everything is fine in-"

"Nothing is fine!" Chuck snapped at the man. "I can't remember anything so just find out what is wrong with me and fix it!"

The doctor pursed his lips, holding back a sigh. Chuck was not the first tough patience whom the doctor'd had to deal with. Gischler rose from Chuck's bed and looked at Serena.

"In that case I need an authorization to proceed with the examination... Miss Van Der Woodsen?"

Serena nodded and headed out with the doctor to sign the papers, glancing with concern at Blair before left the room.

Once the brunettes were alone, Blair looked at the floor again as Chuck flopped back on the bed, groaning for the pain in his ribs, thousand things running through their heads.

They reminded in silence, wondering, hoping, fearing... Chuck turned his head over the pillow and looked at Blair. She looked pretty tired and worried, and like she could broken apart in any second. Her torture expression made Chuck feel guilty for being rude with her, after all, it was not her fault.

"Hey..." he called her and she lifted her gaze so slowly as she couldn't believe that he was speaking to her. Her lips trembled. "Hey, I'm sorry" Chuck apologized in a whisper and her eyes opened with surprise and terror but she quickly cooled her expression. "I didn't mean to be rude, it's just-"

"I know, forget it" Blair interrupted him, looking down again.

Chuck looked away too, feeling the awkwardness of the moment. It was obvious that she knew him and it was obvious too that she felt uncomfortable around him so... what had happened between them? What was she for him? Just... her step sister's friend...? No, he doubt it. He felt it, when he looked at her when he woke up, a warm feeling and electrify one... He didn't know but he had to find out.

"Hum... sorry" Chuck tried again, staring at her and she met his eyes. "What's your name?"

Blair felt the tears back and started to fall down her face. She didn't know what was more painfully, that he didn't remember her or the sweetness of his voice.

"Oh no, no, I'm sorry" Chuck apologized immediately when he saw her tears, that scene twisting his guts. He moved aside the sheets and jumped out of the bed, ignoring the pain in his bull wound and rushed to Blair's side. He wasn't sure why but he did learn one thing in that moment, he didn't like to see this girl cry and would do anything to stop it. Her tears was breaking completely his heart.

He knelt in front of her, looking for her glaze. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean... please don't cry"

Blair turned to him, her eyes meeting his and she shook her head, totally embarrassed.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I didn't want..."

"Hey, it's okay" Chuck assured to her, reaching for her hand. It was like an electricity shock. Their skin burned and tingled immediately when they touched each other and they felt something twisting their stomachs, -actually Blair knew exactly what it was, but she thought she had killed them some time ago-.

The suddenly energy between them, startled Chuck but he didn't let go her hand, on the contrary, he held it tighter.

"I'm Blair" she whispered looking at him though her wet eyelashes, that name causing trouble in his whole body.

"Blair" he repeated, his name slipping from his lips like a sweet caress and her heart started to pound painfully. "I wish I could remember you"


"Is it serious?" Serena asked worried to the doctor, overwhelmed by all what had happened in just one day.

"We don't know yet" the doctor responded as she signed the papers authorizing the examinations. "In this case the amnesia could act unexpectedly. It could be only a temporary amnesia if it was caused by the trauma but if his brain suffered a damage I'm afraid that he could never recover his memory"


Just when she was able to look away from his eyes she snatched slowly her hand from his, the soft touch killing her. Traded her by a hotel, sleeping with Jenny Humphrey, she repeated to herself so that thought would give her the power to stay away from Chuck or pretend indifference.

The boy noticed the change in her expression and the deep hurt and anger that had appeared so suddenly in her eyes. His mouth was dry. Why this sudden change in her? Had he... had he done something bad to her? And speaking about that, who was she for him? Who was Blair?

"Blair..." he slowly called her and she sighed, trying to not look at him.

"What?"

Her rudely voice made him insecure.

"Hum... us... what..." Blair frowned turning to him, knowing already his question. "Hum... what exactly was our relationship? I mean..."

"None" she snapped and he blinked surprised. "I mean... we were not very close" she lied, looking away again. "I'm only Serena's best friend... and the ex of your best friend"

"Really?" Chuck said straightened, trying to not look disappointing but something inside of him, told him she was lying. She looked nervous, she refused to look at him and her mouth didn't match with the expression in her eyes... but why was she lying?

"Really" Blair answered standing and walked through the door.

"Please, Blair, wait" the boy called her, taking her by the arm. She had to use all her self-control and mental force to snatch her arm from his grab.

"I told you Chuck. We are not friends, we are nothing!" she yelled at him, opening the door and leaving him alone. She crossed to corridor, searching urgently for a bathroom as tears started to stream down he face.


Okay so, Blair is acting like Blair, please don't hate me I promise a happy ending ;) I hope you like it, thank you so much for read it and for the reviews, I love you guys! XO