I own nothing… But I guess that's a good thing considering it wouldn't be the same Hunger Games we all loved if I owned it, now would it?(x
Previously….(:
We finally got a phone for District 12, but I haven't been able to call Finnick. Every time I try, I'm reduced to tears. But, thinking about how much I miss everything about him, I decided to call him when Peeta was asleep. I walked into our living area and picked up the phone. I quickly dialed the number Finnick left for me, and listened to it ring. It rang three times, and I was about to hang up when a sleepy voice answered, "Hello?" It was him. I was starting to cry.
"Hi Finnick," I whispered.
"Katniss?"
…...
"Katniss?" Finnick asked, bewildered.
"Yeah it's me…"
"Why are you calling so late, sugar?"
I had to stifle a laugh. Sugar? But, it did get me to grin, because I did meet him when he offered me a sugar cube. I pulled myself back to reality and sighed. "Because I didn't know when else to call… I can call tomorrow if you want?"
"No, it's fine. Did you want to talk about anything in specific?"
Telling him I wanted to hear his voice might be a little weird, so I went with what I thought was the next safest answer. "I miss you Finnick. A lot." My tears were threatening to spill over.
"I miss you too, Katniss. Are you alright?" He sounded worried.
"Yeah fine!" I answered a little too quickly and brightly. Finnick noticed.
"Katniss you're a horrid liar even over the phone. Now what's wrong?"
This time, the tears did spill over and I started to sob. "I thought it would be better now! With no Hunger Games! But, I still can't escape the nightmares and Peeta can't help because he has his own! And I miss you a lot! I miss getting to talk to you everyday, and I haven't seen you in weeks! Finnick, I can't do it anymore!" Finnick tried to calm me down.
"Shh, Katniss it's okay. It's all gonna be fine. I have nightmares too. Almost any normal person would be having nightmares if they had been part of the rebel forces in 13. And it doesn't help we're victors from the Hunger Games. I'm not going to lie and say it will get better, but I do know something. We have each other, and Annie, and Peeta, and Johanna, and Haymitch. We can get through this together, it's what we do, we survive. We've survived through it all, and we haven't become complete head cases yet.." Finnick said.
I giggled. "Thanks Finnick."
"Anytime sugar," he replied, "Oh and tomorrow there should be something arriving for you."
"What is it?" I asked, insanely curious.
"It's a secret."
"Aww Finnick! No fair!" but he refused to tell me.
"You'll find out tomorrow silly!" he laughed.
"Okay, fine." I grumbled.
"Now go to bed Katniss. I can't have you all tired when it arrives!"
"Fine. Good night Finnick I L- I miss you." I almost slip up and say I love you, but quickly cover it up.
"Goodnight Katniss. Sweet dreams." I hear a click, and just like that Finnick is gone. Who knows when I'll talk to him again? I trudge up the stairs and back to Peeta who surprisingly didn't wake up at my little outburst. I get into bed and when I finally do drift off, I do have sweet dreams.
The Next Day…
I could tell it was very early when I woke up. Peeta was snoring softly beside me. He always looked so peaceful when he slept. I loved Peeta, but I wasn't sure if it was the same as it used to be. Sure I would always care about him more than just about anyone else, but I wasn't sure if I was in love with him anymore. My brain couldn't break through the hazy confusion to figure it out. So I dragged myself out of bed and took a shower to kill time while I waited for whatever was coming from Finnick. I methodically scrubbed my body clean then grabbed a towel and stepped out of the shower. I padded over to the dresser containing my clothes and randomly picked out an outfit. I got a blue t-shirt and black shorts. I quickly got dressed and went downstairs. When I walked into the kitchen Peeta was waiting for me.
"Good morning beautiful." Peeta says when I walk in. I hate when he does that because it I know he truly loves me, and I'm just confused.
So all I can say is, "Good morning Peeta." I barely finish my sentence when there's a sharp knock at the door. Could this be Finnick's gift already? "I'll get it!" I yelled and ran to the door, with Peeta slowly following. I threw open the door and almost fainted. Finnick. Finnick Odair is standing in my doorway and he came to see me. I launched myself into his arms. "Finnick!" I cried, "What are you doing here?"
"Coming to see you of course!" He sounded upbeat, but I detected and underlying sadness in his tone. I pulled my head back to look at him. I could always tell how Finnick felt by looking at his eyes, and right now instead of a bright sea green, they looked darker. Something was wrong. And I intended to find out. "Well come inside Finnick!" He walked in and saw Peeta.
"Hi Peeta. Nice to see you again."
"Hi Finnick. It sure is a surprise to see you!" and they shake hands. We all head to the kitchen and I prepare lunch. It's a quiet event the only sounds are the clinking of utensils on plates and quiet chewing.
After we finish cleaning up Peeta announces, "I'm going to lie down. Headache." I shoot him a sympathetic look and he trudges upstairs. Ever since he got back from the Capitol he will randomly get really bad headaches. But, this gives me the perfect time to talk to Finnick.
We sit down in the living room and before he can say anything I say, "Finnick what's wrong? And don't say nothing because I'll know you're lying."
He sighs. "I didn't want to tell you yet, but I think it's the best thing for me to do." My breath hitches in my throat. What could it be? "Katniss, Annie seems to be gone completely. She doesn't even recognize me anymore! I just don't know what to do! So I sent her to the Capitol where she will stay happy until she dies." He looks down at his feet, and I can tell he's about to cry.
"Oh Finnick," I say, close to tears myself. I scoot over to him and wrap my arms around him. He leans his head on my shoulder and starts to cry. "Shh Finnick it's okay. I know you love her, but leaving her in the Capitol is going to be best for her. Maybe, they can fix her." This doesn't seem to help because I feel his tears falling more rapidly. So I do the only thing I can think of. I sing.
Deep in the meadow,
Under the willow,
A bed of grass,
A soft green pillow,
Lay down your head,
And close your sleepy eyes
And when again they open,
The sun will rise.
Here it's safe,
Here it's warm
Here the daisies guard
You from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet
And tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where
I love you.
Deep in the meadow,
Hidden far away,
Cloak of leaves,
A moonbeam ray,
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay,
And when again it's morning,
They'll wash away.
Here it's safe,
Here it's warm
Here the daisies guard
You from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet
And tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where
I love you.
I think of Rue when I sing, but I can't cry now, I need to be there to comfort Finnick right now not the other way around.
He looks up at me. Still sniffling, but not exactly sobbing anymore. "Thank you Katniss. You truly are one of the best friends I ever had." he sniffs.
"I'm always here for you Finnick. I hope you know that." We lay on the couch for a while just talking about anything and everything. Then I get down to the question eating away at me. "Finnick how long are you staying?" I ask timidly.
"As long as you want me… Or when I get bored," he teases and winks at me. "Actually Katniss, I'm not sure. I really don't want to be back in 4 right now.." he looks sad.
"Finnick you're kinda of a doofus huh?" I say. He looks confused. "I want you to stay for awhile and I don't want you to go back to somewhere you don't want to be." He smiles.
"Thanks Katniss." he says and hugs me tightly. I surprise even myself by kissing him on the cheek. What's wrong with me? But, as always Finnick surprises me. He kisses me back. Only not on the cheek. On my lips. (A/N I guess kind of a duh there but oh well(x ) We stay like that for awhile when I hear a thump at the top of the stairs. I quickly pull back and look at Finnick. "Oh no.. What have I done?" I whisper and start to cry. I really am a monster. I can't keep hurting Peeta and I'm not going to start hurting Finnick. I need to make a decision. And fast. Finnick holds on to me, my only anchor in this twisted world, and pull myself together. Peeta comes downstairs and starts chatting animatedly, while I can barely go through the motions to make dinner. Finally, after almost slicing my finger, Finnick and Peeta take over shooting me worried glances. We sit down to a delicious dinner, and talk about how our districts are faring. Soon, we are all ready for bed. I show Finnick to one of the guest rooms say goodnight and trudge back to mine and Peeta's room. I can tell they're both worried, but I shrug it off. That night I can't fall asleep, and when I do my dreams are filled with nothing but the boy with the bread and the boy with the sea green eyes.
*So I couldn't think of a good name for Finnick so I just used his eyes(x Anyways I'm still trying to work this story out, so it might be awhile between updates, because I have to sort everything out in my head & I have homework.. :P So how many of you have read Mockingjay? Now, how many of you despise Suzanne Collins? I do.(x she killed all those people! If you've read the book see spoiler.. If not, you can read it but it will ruin everything(x
Spoiler- She killed Finnick! And Prim! And Cinna! And Portia! And Madge! And countless others! What a meaner :P
Okayy well I guess I should go now(x Peace! ßoh goodness I'm a loser(x
