Chapter Two
It took us a while to get everything packed especially since so many people lived under one house. Renesmee and Jacob got back about an hour before we were done packing. Alice had put some clothes out for Renesmee to change into instead of wearing a dress for the whole trip back to Forks.
"Thanks for the clothes, Alice," Renesmee stated after she came back from her old bedroom.
"No problem, Nessie," Alice replied. Nessie was the nickname that Jacob gave her when she was only a few days old. He thought that the name that I gave her was a handful, but I didn't like the nickname. The locness monster was Nessie, not my baby.
"Everyone ready to go," Carlisle asked before we left for the final time.
"Nothing will be left behind," Alice stated. Each time we moved, she made sure that nothing was left behind. It was impossible to have something left behind on her watch. We all filed out to our cars. I went with Edward in his car, while Jack and Renesmee took my car. I still preferred running over driving, but Renesmee sometimes can't take running. She runs out of breath a lot if we run for a long time.
"We'll see the new house soon," Edward stated as we started to drive. I sent my shield over to Renesmee. No matter what, she was still my little girl.
'This is going to be hard,' I thought once I knew that Edward could "hear" me.
"It always is."
'This is going to be the hardest of all.' He took my hand then. He understood why I felt like this, and I knew that he didn't know what he could do to calm my emotions down. I would be able to see Charlie's grave soon, and it scared me. When I lost my father, I felt like I lost my humanity almost. I kept strong for my family though.
Edward's phone rang soon after. He reached into his pocket to fish it out. When he did, he stated, "Yeah."
I heard Seth say, "Leah wants to know how long it will take us to get to Forks."
"It will take only a couple of hours if we drive fast enough and not take a lot of stops," Edward replied.
"Why would we stop," Seth asked.
"Gas, food for you guys, Alice's shopping trips. There can be a list of reasons."
"Oh okay. See you soon." Then they hung up. It was amusing to see Edward and Seth relationship. They became friends when they took down Victoria and Riley. Now they're like brothers. It always amazes me how close they are.
Edward and I didn't talk much for a while. We loved to just enjoy each other's company. My phone was the one to ring next after a couple of hours. "Hello," I stated into the phone.
"Mom," Renesmee asked sounding tired.
"Yeah?"
"Can you drive? Jacob and I are getting really tired right now."
"We'll pull into the next gas station soon. I'll drive then, okay?"
"Okay. Bye."
"Bye sweetie." Then we hung up.
"Renesmee getting tired," Edward asked. He already knew, but he probably just was trying to start a conversation.
"Yeah. I wouldn't blame her. She and Jacob haven't slept for seventeen hours now." We pulled into the gas station then with the others following in suit. All of us got out to stretch, but not all of us really needed too. We had to keep up human appearances when we were out in public. We did it at home also because it was out of habit.
"Everyone get the snacks they want," Esme stated as she walked into the store. The werewolves followed after her. They always got a snack whenever they wanted. They could probably eat a cow and still be hungry.
Once everyone got out of the gas station, I said, "See you soon". I said it to Edward because we both hated being apart from each other. It broke both of our hearts when Edward left me. We both couldn't stand it, but I had Jacob to help me. It grew very complicated after Edward came back from the Volturi with Alice and me. We almost died that day, but our love grew stronger than ever. The only bad thing was that Jacob started loving me also. It really sucked.
I gave a kiss to Edward before I hoped into the driver's seat of my car. "Everybody set," I asked when they hoped into the backseat. I switched my shield from Renesmee to Edward. I didn't want to leave him unprotected at all.
"Almost," Jacob stated as he put a seatbelt around Renesmee. She sighed, but she didn't complain which was a good thing. Jacob always made sure he was safe because of the fact that he was imprinted to her. "All set."
"Put your seatbelt on too," Renesmee finally complained. She was a big complainer especially since we spoiled her throughout her live. Jacob did especially. No one could top how much he spoiled her. I can't even top some of the things that he gets her. He always gets her what she wants, and it gets annoying sometimes.
Jacob did as he was told, and then I started to drive off. Everyone drove behind me. For some reason, I was the leader this time. I always hated driving first, but no one really cared right now. We all just wanted to get to a house. I wonder if it would be a new one, or if we would have the same as before. Has Forks changed? Is La Push still there? Is there more werewolves in La Push? All sorts of questions went through my mind.
"Want some, mom," Renesmee asked holding up a bag of popcorn.
"No thanks, sweetheart," I replied. She probably was just being polite. She knew that I couldn't have any food besides blood, but she asked every time.
We stayed quiet after that. After about an hour they were both asleep. I was always envious that they got sleep and I didn't. It was just a fact that I would have to live with I guess.
We soon were in Washington borders, but we were across the state from it. It probably would take us another three hours to get to Forks. It annoyed me that I couldn't run right now. Every cell in my body wanted to feel that freedom, but I knew that I couldn't yet. I hunted two days before, so I didn't need to hunt yet.
I just kept driving. I didn't know where the house was, but I knew where Forks was. Did we have a house yet? Of course we did. Carlisle and Esme must have already gotten all of them ready. It would be dawn when we reach Forks which means I could make a stop. I needed to make a stop, and the two people I wanted to spend the time with would probably come with me. At least Renesmee would. I'm sure that Edward would too probably just to make sure I'm safe. He might already know where we are staying.
As I predicted, it was dawn when we were close to Forks. I had one stop on my mind right now. I wanted to see my father for the first time in so many years. I headed straight to the cemetery, and I didn't care if any one followed me or not. I needed this no matter what they thought.
"Where are we," Renesmee asked as she climbed into the front seat of the car. Jacob was still sleeping noisily in the back.
"Home." That's all I could say. I didn't know if I could say more than that.
I wasn't surprised that the gates were already open to the cemetery when we pulled up. I pulled up to where Charlie was approximately. Renesmee and I got out while Jacob was still in the back seat. We heard more and more car doors. I looked to see that everyone had followed us. I walked in silence with Renesmee. I didn't want to talk. It was going to be a sad moment for my family, but at least we were all together.
We got to Charlie's grave soon. Renesmee and I held each other because we felt like we might fall apart. I felt like that when he died. Renesmee started crying, but I couldn't. I was ashamed that I couldn't cry for seeing my father's grave. Edward came to hug both of us. He might be able to read Renesmee's thoughts, but he seemed to know that I was pained.
"He was a good man," Carlisle stated when he came up to the grave.
"We'll all miss him," Jasper commented.
"He kept us all in line even if he was the weakest of all of us," Rosalie said. She was telling the truth. No one could fight when Charlie was around.
"He had a big heart," Emmett stated.
"He brought me a wonderful gift," Edward said, and everyone knew he was meaning me.
"He was the best grandpa ever," Renesmee tried to say through her tears.
"He knew when to be there, and when not to be," I said. That was the difference between my mom and my father. He never stuck around.
"I enjoyed his company until the end," Esme stated.
"He was like another father to me," Jacob said as he came over to us. He must have woken up and known where we went. Renesmee ran into his arms and started sobbing even more. Edward tightened his grip on me.
"He was one of the most considerate humans that I have ever met," Alice stated, "Bella was always first to me."
"We were proud to know him," Quil said for himself and Claire.
"I will miss his enthusiasm for games," Embry stated.
"I will miss him for who he was," Leah stated. We stood there for another minute and then everyone else started to depart. Jacob took Renesmee first so that he might be able to comfort her. The pack followed them. The rest of the Cullen's except Edward and me went then. I slid out of Edward's arms and dropped to my knees. I touched the grave so that I could be close to Charlie in a way. I stayed that way for a long while. I didn't even know if the rest had gone or not. I knew that Edward wouldn't leave me alone which was comforting to know.
"Honey," Edward said after what felt like forever, "We have to go." I got up slowly, trying to not break down again. I felt pained, and I was partly glad that Jasper wasn't here to know my emotions. He took me gingerly and led me to the car. I was surprised that the rest hadn't left then. I heard a car door open, and there came my daughter running to get comforted from me. I opened my arms just as she reached me. I wanted to comfort her, so that I could ignore my own pain.
"It's alright, Renesmee," I said as blankly as I could. I didn't know if I could put any emotion in it without breaking down myself. Renesmee 'showed' me a picture of Charlie. "I miss him too." That picture almost broke me. I felt like collapsing, but I had to stay strong for Renesmee and the rest of my family. She showed me her favorite memory of her and Charlie. They were fishing sometime, and she just caught her first fish. He was glowing with pride when she did. She went fishing with Charlie every Sunday as long as the weather was nice. If it wasn't they went that week. They never wanted to miss a week. Edward was thankfully still holding me, or I would have collapsed then. The memory brought me a huge pain that I couldn't take any more. It was too painful.
Jasper came out of his car and held the back seat doors open for us. When Charlie died, he stuck by me constantly to keep my emotions from overloading, and I was happy for that fact. He didn't make me numb, but the pain was less intense. Renesmee and I got into the car then without a word, and we both felt a sense of calmness as Jasper got in. Renesmee's sobs died down, and they were barely heard. I felt grateful to Jasper for this. I needed to feel calm for once.
It only took us a couple of minutes to reach the house. It wasn't the same as the old one, but it was close enough. I felt happy that we were finally at a house. I took Renesmee while Jasper stuck close by us. He wouldn't let Edward or Jacob come near us just in case we might start all of our emotions again. They weren't happy with that fact at all.
"Why don't we pick a room for you," I whispered into Renesmee's ear.
"I'll take you to her room," Alice said once she knew which one was hers. We went up to the second floor, and once we reached her room, it dazzled us both. It was beautiful. The room had light green walls and a white ceiling. The walls had abstract designs that made them unique. Her bed wasn't a big one, but it was so beautiful. There were tons of pillows on it. Renesmee saw the pillows and thought of only one thing: a pillow fight.
"Maybe later," I said when I saw Alice's stare. She must have seen it coming. We'd definitely have fun with the pillows at least. Emmett brought some of her stuff in for her.
"Do you want help unpacking," I asked. I loved to spend time with my daughter, but she always was with Jacob.
"I can do it myself, mom," Renesmee stated as she shut the door. God, I was turning into my mother! When did that happen?
"Here's your room, Bella," Alice told me as she went down a couple of doors. When I went into the room, I gasped. It was like a dream. The room looked exactly like the one in our cottage when we lived in Forks the last time. I loved it. It brought so many memories back of our honeymoon even though they were blurry.
"You like it," Edward asked as he wrapped his arms around me. He must have gotten it cleared by Jasper to come near me. I shook my head. "We can always change it if you want," he said as he took it the wrong way. I turned so quick around that there was laughter from the others. I showed the hurt in my eyes the comment he said made. He was confused by it.
"Edward," Alice stated, "She doesn't like it; she loves it." He seemed to understand then. It was just like when they gave me my cottage. I couldn't stop loving it, and I hated leaving it knowing that I would probably never see it again. I wonder if it is standing still.
"It's not," Alice stated. She probably knew that I would want to go see it. I sighed frustrated.
"Let's get packed," Edward suggested. He brought all of our stuff up beforehand, so all we had to do is unload it all. I walked towards the boxes and started unloading. Edward grabbed his boxes and headed into the closet. I didn't know if I was ready to see the closet yet. Alice usually made it bigger than the bedroom which would annoy me. I thought about switching the closet and the bedroom just to make it bigger a couple of times. Once I finished with the bedroom, I headed into the closet. It was definitely a bad chose. The closet was humungous. I didn't like that fact at all. Alice was always trying to make me wear different things then what I want to wear. She never really had a problem like that with Renesmee. It annoyed me when she stated that fact around me. If I didn't love her like I do, I don't think I could manage being around Alice.
Once I was done, I headed downstairs to see if they needed help with the kitchen or living room. They seemed to have it all covered though.
"Esme, do you want me to go to the grocery store for supplies," I asked. I wanted to get out of the house and explore a little bit. I wanted to see if there was a huge change, and if some things stayed the same.
"Everyone make a list," Esme called. All the werewolves ran downstairs and started saying what they wanted. The vampires really didn't need anything at all which was a good thing. I didn't know if there would be enough room for the stuff they were asking for in the kitchen.
Once they were finally done, I took my car. I hoped that there would be enough room in the car for all this stuff. There was a lot on it. I found the grocery store easily, and I got two carts for good measure. I don't think I could go with just one cart.
Every person I walked by stared at me. It was normal for me by now because I was a new person in town. I didn't feel comfortable with the stares though. I might be use to it, but I always hated it. I felt like they were calling me a freak or something.
Once I was finally done with the list, I ended with two full carts. The lines weren't long because of it was early in the morning, but I swore that the sales person was having a panic attack when she saw how many things I had.
It took thirty-eight minutes to get through the sales line. That was crazy. It took me a while to get everything loaded into the car because I was the only one doing the loading, and I had to keep it at a human speed. It annoyed me, but I was use to it by now. I was glad that no one volunteered to go with me because I wouldn't have had any room for them even if we tried to get the room. I went to the house quickly and decided to drive around to the back door. It was the closest one to the kitchen, and I thought it would help a little bit. I took four bags in for the first load. No one seemed to want to help me when I went back out for the next one. I unloaded everything myself, which I thought was rude. I helped out in trying to settle in, but they wanted to just lounge around.
Once I was finally done with that, I put everything away. I was about half way through when Edward came in and asked, "Why is your car in the backyard?" When he saw all the bags full of groceries, he seemed to see why. "Do you need any help?"
"Why would I need help with that? I've done everything so far with the groceries, and no one asked for help, so why now," I asked venomously. I know it was bad to take my anger out on him, but I needed to do it to someone, he would probably understand more. He left me looking sad, but I ignored it. I put all the groceries away. If the werewolves wanted to find something to eat that they wanted, they would have to look for themselves. I wouldn't do a damn thing about it.
I walked into the living room to find everyone in there. Edward still looked sad, but I still didn't care for the moment. I was too engulfed in my emotions right now to care.
I was about to walk upstairs to my room when Esme stated, "Bella, we have to figure out the grading right now. School is going to be starting in a couple of days, and we need to figure out everyone's grade level. Will you stay down here with us?" I almost broke the wooden railing then. I was consumed in anger, and I didn't know why. I was acting like a girl who was PMSing. I nodded, but I didn't say anything out loud. I didn't know if my voice would sound friendly at all. I decided to stand against the wall. They didn't seem to notice my mood except for Jasper and Edward. They looked at each other with a confused look.
"Who's going to be freshmen," Rosalie asked. She hated being a freshman, so she was always at least a sophomore.
"Edward can be a freshman with Jasper and you," Claire suggested.
"What about you, Bella, Alice and Renesmee," Rosalie insisted.
"Bella, Alice and I can be in eighth grade while Renesmee is a junior."
"How can she be a junior and not me?"
"She's engaged, and the werewolves need the higher spots," Alice answered, "It's nothing against you personally."
"What about Emmett," Rosalie questioned.
"He's going to be a sophomore with Quil, Embry and Leah," Edward answered blankly.
"What?!"
"Stop being a baby, Rosalie."
"What about me," Jacob asked to change the subject. Rosalie could fight forever if she wanted to just to get what she wanted.
"You'll be a junior also."
"I'll write a list then of all the things we'll need," Alice stated.
Once she was done, I stated, "I'll get the supplies."
"I can get them," Claire stated.
"I said I can get them," I hissed. I took the list and walked away. I knew everyone was staring at me now, but I didn't care. I didn't seem to care at all. I was at the door when I heard someone walking after me. I just wanted them not to follow me, so I ran out of the door and started my car quickly. I had to get out of here, and I had to now. I swerved out of the driveway quickly and made it to the main road just as fast.
I found the store to get the supplies at quickly. I got all the supplies, but left the back packs for last. I wanted to take my time finding each individual a backpack. They didn't have a lot of chooses for the back packs, so I tried to get them something that was them. I found a green backpack for Renesmee, and a black and gray one for Leah because of her coat of fur is black and gray when she's a werewolf. I found a pink one for Rosalie because she always deserved the best, and I thought that it was the best one out of all of them. Claire also got a pink one. Alice got a hot pink one; I thought it might match her personality a little bit. I got Seth a yellow one to also match his fur. Emmett got a red one, while Jasper got a black one. Edward got a brown one that was close to the color my eyes were when I was human. Embry and Quil got gray ones. I decided to pick a navy blue one out for me.
I went up to the sales counter then and paid for everything. I got some masking tape and permanent markers also there. Once I was done, I went out to the car and loaded everything in, but I didn't go back to the house yet. I spilt up all the supplies for them, and then labeled each backpack. They could switch if they wanted to, but I thought that I did a pretty good job. I wasn't completely happy yet, but I wasn't completely mad either.
Once I was done with that, I went back, but I didn't feel like going yet in the house. I parked my car outside while keeping the keys in the ignition, and I ran.
