I whisper into her ear, knowing she can't hear me. "Brit, baby, you're gonna be ok. You're gonna be just fine. I never meant to hurt you. God, baby, I love you too. I will find a way to be with you again, I promise baby."
I walk outside and down the street to my friend Jordan's house. I go in the window and see him on the ground passed out. I see a note. It's flat and already open. He must not have folded it. I read what the plain white paper contains:
To whom it may concern, as you probably know, Jace is dead. I hope my decision to join him doesn't hurt anyone. It's just too hard to live without Jace. He was my best friend, the only person I could talk to, the only person who was always there for me. But now he is gone. I am sorry. Goodbye everyone. This was NOT your fault. I just wasn't strong enough to continue on with my sorry life. -JORDAN-
I fall to my knees. His chest is slowly falling and rising. I reach for the phone to call 911, but of course I can't grab it. I scream "GOD PLEASE, LET ME HELP HIM." I reach for the phone, and I knock it off the hook. I dial 911. The line rings twice, then a woman answers. "Orlando Police Department, please state the nature of your emergency." "My friend, he tried to kill himself." "Hello?" "Dammit lady, he's dying." "HELLO?! Press one button if you need police at the scene, Press two buttons if you need ambulance assistance, Press three buttons if it is a life or death situation, Press four buttons for an attempted suicide." I press one button, then two more, then three, then finally I press four more buttons." The woman says "Please stay on the phone with me while I send people to help you." I hear the sirens soon. Within a minute the door is busted open and they are checking vitals on Jordan. His heart stops and they start chest compressions. "Keep him breathing, Jay." "You got it, Doc." Soon Jordan's heart is beating by itself. They roll him onto his side and that's when they see the blood. He had sliced his wrists open. They get him on the stretcher. "We gotta get him in the bus and to the ER NOW! I NEED A BLOOD TRANSFUSION WAITING AT THE ER STAT. GET THREE DOCTORS TO STAND BY, THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING OF THIS BOYS FIGHT FOR LIFE OR DEATH. HE IS DYING AS WE SPEAK." I take that as my cue to yell "THEN STOP FUCKING TALKING, DUMBASSES." They seem to understand that it really is almost over for Jordan. They take him to the bus and then he is hauled down the road in the direction of the Mercy Emergency Room. I go to my house. I see my body still on my bedroom floor. There are people touching and poking and prodding my lifeless body. My mother sits on my bed crying and hugging onto my favorite pillow. I sit down with her. "Mama, I love you." I whisper the words in her ear. "I love you, my son." I feel a hot wet tear roll down my cheek. I wipe it away and see that it is blueish in color.
I walk back to Britteny's house. I see her laying on the grass under her window. My not beating heart sinks into my stomach. I run over to her and as I get closer I see her chest moving. I stand over her body and stare at her. Her eyes shoot open. She squints her eyes, almost like she can see me, then a tear escapes her eyes. "It almost feels like you're here with me, Jace." "I am here with you. I'm right here baby." She sighs. "Remember when we used to lay out here and look at the stars? I used to say they were so many I could never count them all, then you'd say that you love me more than all the stars in the sky. Why did you have to leave me?" I take a deep breath. "I didn't mean to leave you baby. I only meant to stifle my pain. I'm sorry." "I am not going to say its ok, because it is not ok, I'm not ok. But I will say I miss you, and I love you, and I'm going crazy because I'm laying on my lawn talking to myself." She giggles a little, almost forgetting that I am dead. I lean down and kiss her lips. "Jace, are you here?" I grab her hand and squeeze as hard as I can, and her fingers twitch under the weight my hand has in hers. She gasps, "Jace, you are here."
A/N CLIFFY! SORRY, DONT HATE ME, I GOT SERIOUS WRITERS BLOCK. REVIEW AND LEAVE SUGGESTIONS ON IF I SHOULD CONTINUE WITH THIS BOOK. THANK YOU. I PROMISE I WILL UPDATE SOON. XOXO CARRIELUV XOXO
