Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.

- the first chapter is here! short, but here... hope you'll like it! x


Chapter 1

She remembered that bloke. Tall, black-haired with his stupid glasses and smirk on his face. He asked for a lighter couple days ago, and she never met him after that, not even once. She didn't mind, of course, college is killing her. So she doesn't have time for boys or anything like that. Of course, she went out with someone once or twice. But the thing is - she didn't really want to be in a relationship, or perhaps she wanted to but the boys she's going out with don't.

"Fuck, you really should just shag someone," Marlene mumbled under her nose and without even looking up, continued at her work. A redheaded girl raised her eyebrows and was no longer lost in her thoughts.

"What do you mean?" Lily asked, surprised by what her best friend just said.

"I mean..you're so tense. All you think about is school and your essays." Marlene replied with a small smile and looked at her. "You deserve to have a good time. If you know what I mean."

"You mean to be like you?" Lily laughed and closed her book. "Have a friend with benefits? Who is it anyway? You never told me, even when I'm your best and only friend, Mar." she added with a sad voice and brunette threw a pillow at her.

"I won't tell you who he is. We've agreed that this is our secret and besides, you may know him." Marlene rolled her eyes, and Lily laughed and shook her head. "Anyway, look."

"What's this rubbish?" Lily furrowed her brow as she looked at her best friend's phone where was an invite for a college party.

"..It's not rubbish," said Marlene slowly and rolled her eyes. "I promise that it'll be fun. We weren't out for ages."

"Last weekend? You got drunk, then you vomited on my shirt and snogged someone you didn't even know." said a red-headed girl with a small laugh. She remembered that night; somehow the things got out of control. But still - Marlene was her best friend and what's a life without a little embarrassing moment? It took Marlene a little bit more convincing words - after that Lily finally agreed. It took a few more minutes of talking when Lily got up from the bed and quickly climbed the stairs. When she was out; breathing fresh air, she found a pack of cigarettes and lighted one of them.

Lily looked at her phone nervously and sighed. Her sister still didn't answer to her message which wasn't quite weird, because Petunia just doesn't like her after what happened to their parents. And Lily knew. She knew that it was her fault. She knew that if she didn't want to go to that bloody fucking party, nothing would happen. Her parents would be alive and healthy. They would be happy that she did all her exams perfectly and that she's coming back home. They would be proud that she's doing what she always wanted to do, or at least trying to. And Petunia? Her sister doesn't even want her on her wedding, it's not that Lily would want to come because she's marrying that Vernon-git whom she hates, but still - they were sisters. Really close ones, but after that accident, they barely spoke to each other. Lily then moved because of college and Petunia stayed at home with her boyfriend - soon to be husband.

"You're annoying.. just stop crying." someone said slowly, and Lily quickly wiped her cheeks. She turned to find Sirius Black watching her, casually leaning against the wall with a cigarette in his hand. "He's not worth it, love."

"I'd appreciate if you could stop calling me like that, Black. I'm not one of your loves." snapped Lily and threw her cigarette into the garbage can. "And if you must know - I wasn't crying because of a fucking bloke."

"Aren't you the sweetest? I mean, your kind words are everything -"

Lily opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but she was interrupted by someone.

"You fucking idiot! I've been looking for you everywhere," he shouted with a laugh. "We were supposed to meet in the dorm room. Please, don't tell me you're snogging someone there!"

Lily knew who that shouting idiot is. It's the guy who needed a lighter. Black looked at her when she lighted another cigarette and did the same thing. That bloke was walking towards them, with a cigarette in his hand and that stupid smirk on his face.

"Oi, a girl with a lighter!" he said happily and smiled at her. "Fancy seeing you here, Evans."

Lily rolled her eyes and wanted to ask how the hell he knew what her name is, but before all of that could happen, Black started a conversation with him. Her phone started vibrating, and she quickly pulled it out from her jeans. A new message from her sister; nothing changed - Petunia still hates her. Lily's smile grew as she laughed quietly to herself. Unbelievable.

"I have to go, mate," Sirius said suddenly and grinned at him. "I dunno when I'll be back."

Lily looked at him, no longer lost in her thoughts and rolled her eyes when he winked at her. She wasn't smoking anymore, felt a little bit of awkwardness between her and that guy.

"I'm James, I didn't even introduce myself," he said with that common smirk on his face.

Lily looked at him and laughed under her breath. "I don't care what your name is."

And with this, she turned around and headed back to her room. Lily knew that this was rude, but she didn't really mind. James was the last one she wanted to talk to or be friends with. She could see his arrogance and that hidden power of breaking girls hearts.

James, on the other hand, was pleased. He liked her attitude and sarcastic comments from the first time they've met. He didn't believe in love at first sight but what if is Evans the one? He was looking at her when she was walking away from him, how her red hair shined when she stepped under the lights. James smirked to himself as he walked to his dorm room.

All this because of a bloody lighter.