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Chapter 2

Raph sat atop a building, a bottle of half gone whiskey in his hand. For the last hour he'd been trying to convince himself he had nothing to feel guilty sadly enough he was wrong and he knew it.

Every since Leo left things between Shay and himself had seemed ok. Rocky at times but as it dawned on the 1st year of Leo being in Central America something had changed between them. They rarely spoke civil words, nor did they seek each other made an already tension stressed house even worse.

Raph downed the last of the whiskey flinching as it burned his throat. A nagging memory touched the back of his mind. Raph growled and threw the bottle at the building across from him. It hit the wall and shattered.

With a satisfied growl Raphael turned only to run into his brother Donatello. "Jesus are you trying to give a man a heart attack Donny?" Raph growled holding his chest.

Donny just frowned at him with an eye ridge raised. "What? What is it? Did they send you up here to talk me into apologizing. Well forget it Donny! There is no way im going to-" He ranted his voice drifted off when Donny held up his hand

"This isnt about that Raph...Somethings happened..." Donny said his voice still level with a sad but dangerous tone to it.

"What is it? Did Leo discover some new breed of mutant." Raph said snorting with amusement at his joke.

When his brother didnt laugh, or even cracked a smile. Raph looked Donny in the eye. "Its Leo..Raph...hes...hes dead." Donny said softly.

Donnys words hit Raph like a punch in the gut. "N-No thats impossible... Splinter just spoke to him." Raph said in complete disbelief.

Donny steadied his brother before he spoke. "Raph come on back down. Casey and April just got here and-" Donny started.

Shaking his head Raph pushed Donny away causing him to stumble. "What the hell did you push me for Raph!" Donny snarled.

"Just leave me alone Donny." Raph snapped back walking back to the ledge and leaned against it his fingers, griping the old brick.

"Fine. Just dont stay up here all night alright. Splinter is worried. If you care." Donny said his voice filled with sadness.

Raph wanted to stop him, wanted to say something. Sorry maybe. But he couldnt bring himself to do it.

His mind wandered to Shay. How was she taking this? Should he go back and check on her? Would she shove him away? Could she find it in her heart to forgive him?

FLASHBACK

As Raphael made his way down the hall to his room he paused at the door to his brother Leonardo's room. The door was open a bit and he could hear soft music.

Curious he peaked in through the door. There his brother sat with his back against the wall, his long legs crossed and a blond haired girl sat across from him. Her legs were crossed with a guitar in her lap, fingers gently strumming the strings.

A burning sensation began in the pit of Raphs stomach. There was a time when Shay had looked at him like that. But now that look was solely for his oldest brother.

Pushing down the bitter taste of jealousy Raph shut the door and continued down the dark hallway to his room at the end.

He entered the room slamming the door and burrowing his face in his pillows desperately trying to tune out her sweet voice and his brothers laugh.

If only he could have known that this was the last time they would all be together...Raph would've walked in and joined them insted of huffing to his room to brood over something he had no control over...

END FLASHBACK

With a heavy heart Raph made he way back to the lair. He didnt know how he would be received by his brothers or his sensei. Nor did he really care...All that mattered was Shay..And if she could forgive him...

[A/N]

01.20.2016 - GASP! A wild Wolfy appears! :) I appologize for neglecting those of you who loved this story! But life has a way of giving you wicked writers block! I'm going to clean up the rest of these chapters a bit and then work on the next. Once again my computer betrayed me and I lost everything! So I kind of gave up. Sad I know.

I cant promise WHEN it ill be up dated but I will add at least a chapter or two. IF you guys still want it that is. :)

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