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That trauma…it was getting at him again, the memories that he so wanted to forget were now unforgettable and worst of all the snow-white boy was carrying his symptoms of depression again. Not being able to talk at all without choking on his words, not being able to walk without shaking, not being able to feel any light shine down on him, just a black pit of darkness.
He thought he had escaped, but Mellos actions had thrown him back in that cage, the cage that sealed his lips, blindfolded his eyes and tied him up, leaving him alone, unable to do anything, unable to cry, see or scream for help.
He gripped the door knob from the inside of his room, shaking, scared of going back outside. What would he do if he saw Mello? How would he act? And most of all what was Mello doing back there? Why did he have to….?
He took a deep breath and forced himself to open the door, taking a small step outside. He looked both ways, no-one was here, the corridor deserted and rooms empty, leaving silence. It almost scared Near, but why did he feel scared? Ever since he came here he lived in silence, unaccompanied by anyone, so why suddenly did he want human company?
A warmish tingle spread through the place where Mello had held him, he remembered, how he had been rocking side to side, ever so slowly, whispering in his ear so lightly. No mean words, no harsh acts, no violence. Near felt his face heat, if it was so similar to his past, why wasn't he scared anymore knowing that it was Mello that had held him? Not his…
…Not his Father.
"Hey Near, are you alright?" A familiar tone snapped Near back to reality, he turned himself so he could look directly at Matt.
"I'm fine thankyou Matt." For once his throat didn't tighten as he spoke, it was a nice feeling, knowing he didn't have to force the words out of his mouth just this once.
"You didn't look alright yesterday…I thought I saw you crying, what was that all about?" Matt questioned, looking into the little boys deep grey eyes, he had never seen them sparkle so much before, must be the side-effects of crying.
"It was n-nothing." Near stuttered, he was still confused, what exactly happened? He didn't even know anymore, he had lost himself in Matts emerald eyes, it was the first time he had seen them and they were nothing like he had imagined before, they were a million times more beautiful.
Matt chuckled a little, he never thought that Near could look so cute and it didn't help with his little stutter, "Well, I'll see you 'round." He continued his path down the hallway, stopping to look only where Near was headed, he had turned the opposite way.
The red head walked through the big doors to the hall area, where all the kids in Wammys ate. He was looking for Mello, not like it was hard, all you had to do was look for where all the kids were keeping a good distance from and you would know it was him.
Today Matt actually felt the anger radiating of Mello as he approached him, "Why is it whenever I see you the first thing I have to say to you is why are you so angry?" Matt sighed, sitting next to his friend.
"I don't know." Mello mumbled, he turned his head slightly to look at Matt, yay! He had his goggles around his neck today, Mello would be able to look into his eyes, the blonde silently celebrated. He didn't know when, but from out of no-where Matt had suddenly started wearing them for some stupid reason, so it was a rare occasion when he got to see Matt's warm eyes.
Matt felt Mellos icy blue eyes lock with his green ones, shit…after wearing the goggles so long he wasn't used to this kind of eye contact, he quickly broke off and looked into his PSP, I guess you could say that was his backup when he wasn't wearing his goggles.
Damn that game…Mello thought as a silence spread over the two, sometimes interrupted from the beeps of the game console. Soon this grew irritating and Mello snatched the game out of Matts hands and threw it against the wall. The sleek black game immediately broke into pieces.
Matt huffed, "Fuck man that's the fourth this month…." He stood up to go pick up his game.
Mello grabbed his gloved hand and pulled him back down next to him, "Why do you never talk to me anymore Matty?" He whispered sadly, leaning on Matts shoulder.
Matt fought the urge to lean back onto him as his cheeks flamed red, thank god Mello couldn't see his face in that position, "I never stopped talking, you stopped listening." He whispered back, it wasn't the full truth, but it was a part of it and like Matt was going to tell Mello the other reason.
You know that reason.
"I'm sorry Matty." Matt felt a shiver run down his spine, he loved it when Mello called him Matty and had really missed it.
Mello sat back up again and leaned on his arm, he could feel the littlest blush forming on his cheeks, he had also noticed that his heart sped up when he leaned on Matt…
His eyes caught onto the moving figure of someone small and very albino looking, his thoughts about Matt disappeared and were replaced with new ones, and his heart sped up as he remembered his actions last night…just what had he been thinking at the time?
Matt followed Mellos gaze and ended up at Near, his heart stopped. Why was he looking so…passionately at Near? Didn't he hate him? Matt was confused and he could feel a little bit of jealousy spark in him, he knew that gaze and he'd been through this before, watching as Mello fell in love with someone and only being able to wait at the sidelines.
Near was one lucky little bastard.
Near felt someone looking at him as he walked through the hall, he turned his head, only to meet with Mellos gaze. At first he was taken aback by it because the look he was sending him wasn't a glare for once and then he felt himself go red in the cheeks for reasons he couldn't figure out at all. He was about to turn away when he saw Matts hand wrap around Mellos shoulders, pulling Mello closer to him as he whispered something into his ear, Mello blushed furiously and pulled away shaking his head violently. Something greedy pulled at Nears heart, almost like a pang of jealousy, maybe envy? How did Matt get him to act like that? What was those two's relationship? And why the hell did he want to know?
Near shrugged and stalked off, Mello noticed this and got annoyed. He didn't want him to go, but he did want him to go, he was hot and then he was cold, he was yes then he was no…why the fuck is he thinking of Katy Perry?
"Urgh, fuck this," Mello said standing up, "Are you coming Matt?"
"Yeah…" There it was again, no more 'Matty' just Matt. Matt sighed.
Throughout the whole day Matt noticed that Mello was being less and less violent to Near or more and more violent towards him, his moods were going up and down constantly and it was just another sign for Matt that it was true, Mello didn't hate Near.
He loved him.
Again that little bit of jealousy washed over him, Near should feel like the happiest guy in the world! He has Mello running after him for fuck sake!
And most of all, the little albino was avoiding Mello as much as possible, why the change of heart? He normally just takes the punch and leaves like nothing happened…which again leads to Matts question.
What the hell did Mello do to Near to make him cry?
"Hey Mello." A pair of icy blue eyes whipped around to meet Matt's, Mello was obviously giving him his full attention, better not waste it.
"Um, what did you do to Near last night?" Mello laughed and threw back his head.
"Nothing, I simply teased him a little."
Matt was still unsure, "Fuck Mello, you tease Near all the time, why the fuck would he break now? Don't give me this shit." Mello stopped laughing.
"It was nothing." His voice was soft, maybe because he had noticed the hurt in Matts eyes.
"Also, d-do you like Near?" Matt tensed, he knew the answer and exactly how Mello would reply.
"NO! Never, no…" Mello shook his head furiously, his heart beating faster and faster when an unintentional sentence poured out of his mouth, "Because I love you Matt."
Mello clapped his hands over his mouth, what did he just say? Sure he liked Matt, maybe a little more than a 'friend' should but…
But how would Matt react?
Matt sat there, in shock, "What?" Had he heard Mello right? Did Mello really….
There was no backing out of it for Mello now, so he just went on and confessed, "I love you, Matty."
