The next day they were at La Boulie for Sam's birthday party. The Cramer's, Manning's, Rivera's, and Thornhart's (Starr and Cole) were all there. The party was winding down a little and Dani said that she had an announcement to make. "Matt, get over here!" Matthew walked over to Dani and put his arm around her and he had a big smile on her face "Everyone we have a big announcement to make...We are going to have a baby! I'm pregnant!" Everyone gathered around and congratulated the couple. Now it was Starr and Coles turn. "Congrats bud! I'm really happy for you" "Thanks Cole...I'm very excited". Starr gave Matt a hug and then hugged Dani "I'm very happy for you...You're going to be a great mom." Starr pulled away from her sister and looked at her "I'm happy I really am, but I'm sorry I have to go" Starr ran out of the house with Cole following behind her. Back inside no one quite knew what to say. Blair broke the silence "Dani, honey I'm sure your sister is happy for you...its just hard for her" "I know, I didn't mean to upset anyone". Tea walked over and held her daughters face "We know u didn't, Starr is just going through a rough time right now". Starr and Cole were in the car driving home and Starr sat in the passenger seat trying to hold back tears but was unsuccessful. "Babe, what's wrong?" "Nothing I'm fine!" she hissed. "If you were fine you wouldn't be crying" "Cole, I'm happy for Dani I really am, but she's my little sister! I should have been the one to be telling everyone I was going to have a baby. It's just not fair! Why can't I have the one thing I've always wanted?" As Starr spoke her voice cracked as she talked through her tears "every single day I think about the baby we lost! I sit and I wonder if I did something wrong is me that's the problem." "Starr, it's not your fault! Things happen. I think about our baby every day, I wonder what she would like, if he would play sports. Would she be like you...would he be like you? What their first word have been. I want to give u that family u want, but maybe it's me...maybe I'm the problem is this" "How would u be the problem? I'm the one the baby has to grow inside. I'm the one who has to take care of myself to keep a baby safe and healthy. I want to know what it that little flutter you get in your stomach when the baby moves; I want to feel the jab when the baby kicks. I want to see the look on your face when u see that baby in a sonogram." "And I promise you one day that will all happen." "How can you be so sure? I mean we used to talk about having a family all the time before we got married and how we wanted to start one right away, and like been 4 years! 4 damn years and nothing has happened yet! All I want is a family." Cole took Starr's hand and brought it to his lips and kissed it "I know I want that to." Starr and Cole arrived home and went upstairs. "Cole, I'm going to take a shower ok?" "Yeah that's fine". Starr walked into the bathroom undressed and got into the shower. She just let the water run over her body. She had her eyes closed but when she opened them she looked down at her flat stomach and wished so much that it wasn't.
