Author's Note: OMG MY FIRST AUTHOR'S NOTE!!! Yeah….so it's really mushy at first but I promise it gets better. *cry * unfortunately Kuro-rin isn't here yet so Fai is stuck with Evan who is my character and who I kinda hate…. I NEED CON-CRIT so yeah…review!!

He pulled me in, squeezing me in a protective way that I liked and again ran his soft hands through my hair. "It's okay, you don't have to remember, and I'll stay with you. ... Fai."

I might have imagined the last word, but whether he had meant it to be there or not, the name sunk in and lulled me to sleep.

Dream~~~

There was screaming. Everywhere hurt. There were snaps of a whip. There was red. My legs were spread open by painful hands. There was a fire splitting me apart. I was crying. Sobbing. I was trapped. This was hell.

End dream~~~

I woke with a scream and attempted to jerk away from the arms around me. They held me protectively. My face was pressed against a bare chest while a hand stroked my hair. I calmed immediately and felt my tears stop. I slipped my own arms around my savior and held on for life. He kissed my lightly on my forehead and said "it was just a dream, a bad nightmare. You're safe now. I'm here"

I stayed there shaking for some time before my breaths steadied. "Fai, fai, fai." he sung, "I think it suits you, don't you?"

I nuzzled into him and said into his chest "what is your name?" my savior, I added in my head.

"Evan" he murmured. "Evan" the name rolled off my tongue. "Who are you?" I say tentatively.

"Oh. I'm the prince of this country. My father is the head priest and emperor"

For a moment, I felt a flush of anger that quickly faded. I then wondered where it came from. There was nothing wrong with being a prince or a priest. I brushed it away. "Why did you save me?"

"Well, when I saw you there on the beach, I thought you were an angel. Your face made me think you were a girl at first. Well, I thought god had sent me an injured angel for me to help"

He sat up with me still plastered on him. "Do you remember anything?"

I told him about my dream and the whip.

"You were a slave?" he said incredulously. "But you look like royalty!"

I held on to him. I wanted to be able to tell him about myself but I couldn't remember anything. "I'm sorry, I don't know"

"You don't have to apologize." he said and patted my head.

"Do you have a mirror?" I asked suddenly. He said I looked like a girl and an angel. Among my name and origins, I couldn't remember what I looked like either.

"It's the middle of the night, I could call a servant but I don't want anyone to see you yet. There's a mirror in my room but there aren't any candles. You can look in the morning ok? For now, just go to sleep"

I slid down as he brought us back in the covers and did as he said.

I woke when I felt Evan get up. I watched him take off his pants to reveal muscled legs. I looked away and listened to him change.

When the noises of cloth stopped, I looked back and propped myself on an elbow. He turned around and smiled. "There's a mirror here," he said, pointing behind himself. "I need to go my tutoring now. I asked some trusted servants to bring light food. Don't move too much, you need to rest and heal up. Other than your head, you have scars and scratches on your ankles and back. Don't strain yourself"

I smiled, trying to reassure him that I'd be all right. He smiled back and with a small royal wave, he left.

I stared at the fancy door for a while before getting up and stepping slowly towards the mirror.

I shocked myself. I did look somewhat like an angel. I looked very girly too. I had soft pale hair and an even paler complexion. My lips were a natural pink. They were, as well, like a girls. My eyes were a crystal blue and my eyebrows a soft arch. My cheeks were glowing with a more healthy shade of rose and my chin jutted out ever so slightly. I looked like a princeling I thought incredulously.

The curtains were open behind me and they let in the beautiful scenery of mountains. I gazed out the windows and wondered where I was. It wouldn't really help me much though, seeing as I still couldn't remember anything beyond almost drowning.

An hour later, I heard sharp rappings on the door. I fell over again and I cursed myself for my weakness. I crawled over to the door and pulled myself up using the handle. This opened the door and revealed an old maid who rushed over to catch me as I almost fell again. "Oh my" she exclaimed as she carried me to the bed. "The young prince was right, you are most definitely in need of medicine and a good amount of food" she propped up some pillows and rested my head on top of them. She stared at me with thoughtful eyes. My eyes closed and I tried to stay my spinning head. "Well the young master was also right about you looking like an angel. This is surely a good omen, god sending down an angel, before his coronation in a few months."

I heard shuffling steps and opened my eyes to watch her pick up a tray with soup and bread on the ground. She placed it over my legs and straightened out my tunic before saying "I'll be leaving you now, but I'll check back on you in two hours."

I drank the soup but didn't have the energy to finish the bread. I moved the tray to a nightstand to my right and fell asleep with the warmness of the soup comforting my body.

When I woke, the sun was blindingly shining into the room. The tray was gone. I checked the grandfather clock standing in a corner and found that it was already four o clock. I wondered when my savior, Evan, would return. Thinking of his face, I somehow felt a longing growing in my chest. It wasn't so much that I missed him, though I did, it was more of a desire. I imagined him holding me like he did last night and my eyes drooped to a half lidded state.

I jumped when the door opened and turned my head quickly, causing a sharp pain. I saw Evan and smiled contentedly, my savior was back.

"How are you little angel Fai?" he sung softly. I got up from the bed and stumbled to hold onto him. "You're back," I said rather stupidly. "Were you bored? Did you get food?" concern was layered in his voice. "I rested like you said and ate some soup." he grinned and let me hang on to him as he sat down on the bed. "You're really light, you know. I told father about finding you on the beach and he said that if you were strong enough, I could bring you down to dinner. We are priests so it won't be fancy. He sounded really interested, though, when I told him about what you looked like."

I wanted to make Evans father like me and I wanted to do what Evan wanted. "Yes I will go," I said with as much alacrity I could muster. "That's good," he said in a sighing sort of voice.

A/N~ So I wonder if anyone caught the hint about the hand. If not…well I'll tell you later. Also…poor fai gets raped in the next chapter. *Cries profusely * well at least kurogane'll be there soon. YAY KUROFAI FOREVER!