Alone in the Darkness
Chapter two..the distance
Lain Mizuki
A/N: Enjoy
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Life returned to normal soon enough. But, still. He left a deep scar there. My life, my love. Everything that mattered to me. Was scattered. I can't find the missing pieces. I can't find the right pieces.
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Whispers could be heard all over the place, people were pointing, smiling, giggling. I was not amoung them.....
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A boy asked me out again today. That's the third time this week. I have rejected them all. It always begins so simple like this. But, it never ends this simple.
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Don't you think it's simpler, if everyone was the same? I would like that. Then, there will be no diffrence, no indivituality. I can't see love, then no one can. It's all such a blur to me. It's only a game. I believe in that.
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During lunch time, someone sat beside me, he wasn't eating, same as me. He was browsing through the lunch tables. I smiled, probably looking for his girlfriend. I went back to my book, he tapped on my shoulders.
"Hi."
I looked back at him in surprise and confusion. What was he doing?
"Hello, I guess." I said.
He smiled, a strand of his dark blue hair fell into his face. He smiled, and blew it into the air.
"What's your name?"
"Does it really matter?" I snapped back. I won't let anyone trick me again.
"Are you alright?"
"Better then you." I picked up my black bag and headed for the library, no one bothers me there.
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It's people like that who makes me feel the worst, I wish I could take love and try it once more. But I cannot. I don't want to risk letting my heart being taken again. I don't want to be lied to. Is it my fault? I do not know. My mind went back to my book...
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"Hello again." The boy came up to me again.
"Can I help you?" I glared.
"Yes you can."
"I was just trying to be nice. I don't want to help you." I walked away quickly. I turned around, his head was down. But, that does not effect me.
"Wait." He chased me down the crowded halls. I lost him through the mountains of people.
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I was sitting in Math class. He showed up in my face once more.
"Hello students, please welcome a new student, this is..." I drifted off, I looked into his deep blue eyes. So dark, so mysterious. So..diffrent.
I snapped back to reality right away, I couldn't let myself fall in love so carelessly.
"Would you sit behind the girl wearing the black t-shirt?" The math teacher pointed at the desk behind me.
He followed the directions and sat behind me.
"Hi." He whispered.
I did not reply, I didn't reply him during the entire eighty minutes. I just sat there, paying attention to what I was suppose to be.
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"Why won't you talk to me?"
"Because."
"Because what?"
A girl poked him,"She doesn't talk to anyone, she doesn't like anyone. In fact, she hates everyone. Everyone gets rejected. But, I'm sure, I'll talk to you." With a wink, the girl left.
The boy looked mad and confused. He stormed away.
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I put my heavy books away, a face appeared on my mirror. Again, it was him.
"Please, talk to me?"
"Why? Do you want to be rejected too?"
"No, I want to get to know you. I want to be your..friend."
"Why bother."
"Because, I think...you're diffrent."
I didn't answer to that, I locked up my locker and quickly walked away.
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Diffrent, no one said something like that about me. Everyone thought I was crazy, weird..lonley...I have to admit, I am lonley...
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"Do you want to go for ice-cream?" Guess who that is.
"No."
"I would!" A girl popped in his face. He pushed her away.
I stopped in my tracks. I turned around to face him, I never realized. But, he is a lot taller then me.
"Will you?"
"I don't understand you, you have a lot of girls chasing you around, take one of them. It'll get all of us happy. Okay?"
"No, I'm not happy. At least get to know me?"
"Thanks, but I think I'm booked till death."
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Even I had to say, I was mean to him. But, maybe he would finally understand, where I'm coming from.
--
Again, he showed up. I just do not understand it..
"Hey there."
I ignored him, he stared me in the eye, I looked back, his dark blue eyes tried to say something to me. I shook my head, telling myself no.
"Let me buy you lunch. How's that?" He asked gently. I could hear my stomach grumbling. Even though I was hungry, I still will not.
"No thank you."
"I know you like italian! Let's go for pizza..how's that?"
"How do you know?"
"I do, because I want to get to know you. I know a lot other things too. Like, your favorite color is white, because, you think it's simple. I know that you love to laugh, and tell jokes. But, you don't anymore.."
"How come you still call me 'hey you'. Don't you know my name?" I asked.
"Because, I want you to tell me.." He stopped. I did too.
"So, pizza?"
"Maybe." I walked away with a tiny smile.
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Chapter two..the distance
Lain Mizuki
A/N: Enjoy
--
Life returned to normal soon enough. But, still. He left a deep scar there. My life, my love. Everything that mattered to me. Was scattered. I can't find the missing pieces. I can't find the right pieces.
--
Whispers could be heard all over the place, people were pointing, smiling, giggling. I was not amoung them.....
--
A boy asked me out again today. That's the third time this week. I have rejected them all. It always begins so simple like this. But, it never ends this simple.
--
Don't you think it's simpler, if everyone was the same? I would like that. Then, there will be no diffrence, no indivituality. I can't see love, then no one can. It's all such a blur to me. It's only a game. I believe in that.
--
During lunch time, someone sat beside me, he wasn't eating, same as me. He was browsing through the lunch tables. I smiled, probably looking for his girlfriend. I went back to my book, he tapped on my shoulders.
"Hi."
I looked back at him in surprise and confusion. What was he doing?
"Hello, I guess." I said.
He smiled, a strand of his dark blue hair fell into his face. He smiled, and blew it into the air.
"What's your name?"
"Does it really matter?" I snapped back. I won't let anyone trick me again.
"Are you alright?"
"Better then you." I picked up my black bag and headed for the library, no one bothers me there.
--
It's people like that who makes me feel the worst, I wish I could take love and try it once more. But I cannot. I don't want to risk letting my heart being taken again. I don't want to be lied to. Is it my fault? I do not know. My mind went back to my book...
--
"Hello again." The boy came up to me again.
"Can I help you?" I glared.
"Yes you can."
"I was just trying to be nice. I don't want to help you." I walked away quickly. I turned around, his head was down. But, that does not effect me.
"Wait." He chased me down the crowded halls. I lost him through the mountains of people.
--
I was sitting in Math class. He showed up in my face once more.
"Hello students, please welcome a new student, this is..." I drifted off, I looked into his deep blue eyes. So dark, so mysterious. So..diffrent.
I snapped back to reality right away, I couldn't let myself fall in love so carelessly.
"Would you sit behind the girl wearing the black t-shirt?" The math teacher pointed at the desk behind me.
He followed the directions and sat behind me.
"Hi." He whispered.
I did not reply, I didn't reply him during the entire eighty minutes. I just sat there, paying attention to what I was suppose to be.
--
"Why won't you talk to me?"
"Because."
"Because what?"
A girl poked him,"She doesn't talk to anyone, she doesn't like anyone. In fact, she hates everyone. Everyone gets rejected. But, I'm sure, I'll talk to you." With a wink, the girl left.
The boy looked mad and confused. He stormed away.
--
I put my heavy books away, a face appeared on my mirror. Again, it was him.
"Please, talk to me?"
"Why? Do you want to be rejected too?"
"No, I want to get to know you. I want to be your..friend."
"Why bother."
"Because, I think...you're diffrent."
I didn't answer to that, I locked up my locker and quickly walked away.
--
Diffrent, no one said something like that about me. Everyone thought I was crazy, weird..lonley...I have to admit, I am lonley...
--
"Do you want to go for ice-cream?" Guess who that is.
"No."
"I would!" A girl popped in his face. He pushed her away.
I stopped in my tracks. I turned around to face him, I never realized. But, he is a lot taller then me.
"Will you?"
"I don't understand you, you have a lot of girls chasing you around, take one of them. It'll get all of us happy. Okay?"
"No, I'm not happy. At least get to know me?"
"Thanks, but I think I'm booked till death."
--
Even I had to say, I was mean to him. But, maybe he would finally understand, where I'm coming from.
--
Again, he showed up. I just do not understand it..
"Hey there."
I ignored him, he stared me in the eye, I looked back, his dark blue eyes tried to say something to me. I shook my head, telling myself no.
"Let me buy you lunch. How's that?" He asked gently. I could hear my stomach grumbling. Even though I was hungry, I still will not.
"No thank you."
"I know you like italian! Let's go for pizza..how's that?"
"How do you know?"
"I do, because I want to get to know you. I know a lot other things too. Like, your favorite color is white, because, you think it's simple. I know that you love to laugh, and tell jokes. But, you don't anymore.."
"How come you still call me 'hey you'. Don't you know my name?" I asked.
"Because, I want you to tell me.." He stopped. I did too.
"So, pizza?"
"Maybe." I walked away with a tiny smile.
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