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Cyanide- Chapter 2

The days after I got raped were positively hellish. It seems my rapists were smarter this time around or at least learned from the mistakes of their predecessors and didn't keep the pictures they took as blackmail material. Who cares at this point? Moving on I'll start with what happened the next day, as my memory is a bit unclear it might not be as gruesomely detailed as I would like however, it'll still serve its purpose though and I suppose that's all that really matters.

The next day I stayed in bed too sore and bruised to really do anything, there was also the fact that I looked like I had been attacked, which I had been. I got up from Yuki's bed, it had never been OURS, and hobbled over to the mirror. I was naked from the bath I took yesterday since I had been too sore to bother putting on clothes that would only irritate me. I looked in the mirror and winced at my reflection, I had a lovely set of bruises starting from the side of my face going down my neck and chest along with my sides- their shades of black and blue were especially vivid against my pale skin and hair. There were dark handprints on my waist and thighs while my legs remained mostly untouched with the exception of scrapes.

I turned around and looked over my shoulders at the mirror and gasped, my entire back was raw and scrapped and my but and thighs were almost completely bruised, there were some places where the skin was broken. I turned away from the mirror before moving to the phone, my hand hovered over it for a few seconds before I sighed and picked it up.

I called my workplace; the phone rang a bit before my manager, K, answered, "Hello?"

I answered back quietly, "Hi, K. It's Shuichi."

"Shuichi! Where are you? Get your ass over here! Everyone's waiting for you."

"That's why I called, I won't be coming in today. I'm not feeling well."

"Nonsense. Don't make me come over there. Get your lazy ass up."

"I'm not feeling well today K," I whispered, "Please don't make me come to work today."

"OK," I could hear the frown in his voice, "I'll pick you up for work tomorrow."

"Alright, thank you K."

I hung up the phone and laid back down on the bed, Yuki had let me sleep in the bedroom last night, when I had first woken up I didn't see him and he wasn't here now. I sighed and rolled over to my side, closing my eyes and letting sleep take me. I woke up later and got up to go to the bathroom to clean myself up again. After I got out of the shower I brushed my teeth and went into the kitchen to get something to eat. I started when I found Yuki at the kitchen table smoking a cigarette,

"It's about time you got up," he said, "I was just about to wake you, the doctor is on his way over, you need to get checked. Did that occur to you?"

I shook my head mutely.

Yuki looked up to the ceiling before sighing.

"Are you hungry?"

I nodded slowly. Yuki gestured to the croissants on the table and walked over to the fridge, taking out a cup from the cupboard above it, and poured a glass of juice before moving back to the table and placing it in front of me. I took a croissant and started eating, taking a sip of the juice.

I was on my third or fourth croissant when the doctor came in.

"Shuichi Shindou?"

I nodded.

"I understand you got sexually assaulted?"

I nodded again.

"Well I'd do a kit, however, I take it you took a shower and didn't go to any police stations after the incident last night?"

I nodded again.

"Very well. There's nothing I can do to help identify the attackers then but I can take blood tests to make sure you're safe and to help determine which steps to take if you're not. Do you understand me?"

I gave the doctor a funny look, 'Did he think I was stupid?', and once again nodded.

"Okay then Shuichi, hold out your arm for me and I'll take some blood."

I held out my arm, an elastic band was secured to it, and I was told to make a fist making my veins pop out. The doctor put the needle in my arm and blood dripped into the tube connected to the needle.

"Alright," he said when he was done taking my blood, "Let's do what we can about those wounds."

The doctor pulled out a couple of tubs and creams along with some bandages.

"Ok. Let's have you lay on your back and I'll apply these. Will it be more comfortable for you to go to your bedroom and lay down or the couch?"

I looked at Yuki questioningly, it was his bedroom after all and he had made that abundantly clear; it was sort of sad that I had to ask him for permission to use his room after I had just been raped but I didn't realize that at the time.

"The bedroom." Yuki answered the doctor.

I painfully moved from the kitchen to the bedroom again and laid down on my back wincing as my body touched the sheets. I was a giant bruise.

The doctor took some of the balm out of the container, spreading it on his gloved hands before rubbing it into my chest. I hissed out in pain, and flinched causing another hiss as my back rubbed against the sheets. The doctor finished my front excluding my face and had me sit up so he could do my back. He opened another container and it was gently spread over my back before he wrapped bandages around my torso. The doctor did my thighs next.

I laid down on my front while he did my thigh then tensed as a cool hand rested on my butt cheek. I flinched again.

"Okay Shuichi, I'm going to do your anus now. There's going to be some cream that I'm going to rub inside since it looks like you got torn, the cream will also prevent infections."

I laid perfectly still thinking that I'd be ok with it but as soon as that hand started heading downwards I panicked.

"No, get away from me!"

I scrambled away from the doctor and crouched at the headboard of the bed ignoring the pain shooting through me from the movements.

"Shuichi," the doctor started, "I'm not going to hurt you…"

I shook my head, "Don't touch me!"

Yuki got impatient and snapped at me, "Shuichi, get on the bed right now. You're acting stupid."

I trembled and looked at them both before laying down on the bed. When the doctor touched me again I trembled. He got a finger in before I started crying and moved away.

"No, don't touch me."

Yuki finally got impatient before he asked the doctor if he had an extra pair of gloves. When the doctor gave them to him he put them on before growling, "Lie down Shuichi."

I laid down and he put one hand on the small of my back and started applying the ointment with the other. I cried harder. The doctor left the room the room to give us some privacy. Yuki held me down against the bed while he smoothed the ointment inside me and I cried, when he was done Yuki brushed against my prostrate. I gasped and arched moaning in pain as the intense feeling swept through me. Yuki took off the gloves, throwing them in the garbage before picking up the first container the doctor used to treat my injuries and scooping some out. He held my chin in one hand before carefully spreading the gunk on with the other. When he was done he gave me an unreadable look and opened his mouth to say something before he shook his head and walked out of the room.

I tried to curl in on myself but it was too painful so I just stretched out and went back to sleep. It was all I felt like doing and nothing bad ever happened when I did.

I woke up the next day to Yuki swearing, I looked up at him in askance and he narrowed his eyes at me before throwing a newspaper on the bed and storming out of the room.

I picked up the paper and read the headline: "Lead of Bad Luck Shindou Shuichi cheating on writer Yuki Eiri with various people. Is their relationship on the rocks?" My face drained of all blood as I looked at the pictures of myself having sex with people that raped me and looking like I was enjoying it.

Nausea raced through me and I ran to the bathroom before collapsing before the toilet bowl and heaving up bile.

When I got back to Yuki's room he was sitting on the bed reading the newspaper. Tears came to my eyes and I shook my head, "No," I whispered, "I didn't cheat. I love you, wouldn't cheat." I shook my head again.

Yuki looked up from scrutinizing the paper, "These pictures are photoshopped."

"I wouldn't cheat on you."

Yuki looked me directly in my eyes and narrowed his, his mouth twisting, "I know. You wouldn't be here if I thought you had."

I got the silent warning and nodded, "I- " A knock on the door interrupted what I was going to say.

Yuki looked at me and raised an eyebrow, "Well?"

I shook my head, "Nothing." I put on a huge terrycloth robe and went to open the door. I was surprised to see K on the other side.

K took one look at me before pushing me inside the doorway out of view, stepping inside, and closing the door.

"What the fuck Shuichi?" K held a paper in his hand sporting similar trash to the one Yuki had made me read, 'Great,' I thought, 'Front page news, this won't be going away for a while.'

K took my chin in his hand and examined the bruises on my face closely, his brow furrowed, "Did Yuki…?"

I shook my head, "Yuki didn't do this."

"Then what's going on?" K snapped, "Why do you look like you've been crying and why is this in the paper?"

My lip trembled and I looked at K for a moment before shrugging of the robe. He gasped seeing the bruises and turned me around, "Who?" he snarled lifting up his gun.

I shrugged, "The guys you saw in the paper. I don't know who they are"

"Which ones?" K's voice was brisk and business like.

"The guys you saw in the paper," my voice was flat, "All four of them."

K sighed and ran his fingers through his blonde hair, pulling it out of its long ponytail.

"I'll see what I can do to take care of this, you just stay here and rest a bit more. I'll pick you up for work tomorrow and bring you some make-up."

I nodded and leaned against the wall, suddenly feeling really tired.

K brushed his hand against the unbruised side of my face to get my attention, "Will you be alright here? Is there anything you want or need?"

I nodded, "I'll be fine." I smiled wryly, "I don't need anything and I don't think you could do anything about what I want either. Thanks though, I appreciate it."

I walked to my couch and curled up on it looking at K through my bangs, "You can see yourself out right? I'm really tired."

K looked at me for a moment longer before nodding, turning the bottom lock and closing the door behind himself with a quiet click.

I stared after him for a bit before closing my eyes and falling asleep. I ached inside and not just physically.

The next day, I think, if I could pinpoint a specific time- though it's all relative to the way you look at it- heralded the beginning of the end. I was a really naïve boy back then when all of it happened but I learnt, yes I definitely learnt. And I really do have everyone to thank because in the end…I'll get what I want. I think it's a worthy cause to suffer for to get my end result.

A/N: That's all for chapter 2. If anyone would like to beta let me know, there aren't much perks but you will get to see this story before anyone else does.