Saying Goodbye

She woke up to find him gone. Was it all a dream? Had Aaron actually visited her? Was she so lonely she'd dreamed up her former boss and friend? Had she really had sex with him?

She got up feeling lonelier than ever and sorted out her toilette. She then bundled herself up into a blanker and sat on the sofa drinking a coffee. Due to what happened with Jeremy she was too afraid to go out. Doyle's spies could be anywhere and they all knew her face.

Her face was the one thing she wouldn't change. She'd never been a fan of cosmetic surgery and she liked her face anyway. She'd just disguise it if she were to go out.

She heard a key in the door and her chest tightened. Who the hell was trying to get into her home? She picked up a weapon to defend herself. What if this was one of Doyle's spies? What if they'd found her? She picked up a lamp ready to hit whoever cam through the door.

She was ready to swing as Hotch came through the door and looked at her startled. Her eyes widened when she saw him as well and numbly put down the lamp. Oh god, she'd almost hit Hotch in the head with a lamp. He shut his eyes and thought about what a big mistake he'd just made.

Of course Emily was going to be jumpy. Doyle was still out there and wanted to kill her. He had spies everywhere. How was she to know he wasn't a spy until he entered the apartment? He slapped a hand to his head. He'd only gone to get his head shaved and them breakfast.

"Breakfast," he said showing the pastries.

"Thanks," she smiled as he placed them down on the counter while she locked her front door.

She then joined him and he gave her a pain au chocolat while he gave himself a Danish. "Knew you liked chocolate. So I picked up this for you on the way back from the barbers," he informed her.

"Thanks. Been so long since someone took care of me." He smiled back. "So your hair?"

"I decided this would be cooler for me in the desert. I was advised people who go into the desert usually do."

She smiled. "I understand. Looks good."

"Thanks," he answered stroking it. "I'll be growing it back out over there though. Just didn't want it to be too hot when I entered."

"Well take care of it. Remember your sunscreen."

"I will," he smiled at her caring nature.

"So what are you doing over there anyway?"

"They want me to head an investigative task force."

"Cool. How long will you be there?"

"As long as it takes."

"The BAU will be strange without you."

He smiled slightly and added, "It's a little strange without you."

She smiled back slightly. God she wished this was all over soon. She missed her family so much and apart from yesterday and today she'd felt so alone. She would miss him when he left but she wasn't going to stand in the way of his job.

Too soon after finishing their pastries he said, "Well, I've got to go. I have a plane to catch."

She nodded feeling a lump in her throat. He saw how affected she was and kissed her forehead. "Take care of yourself. We will find him and he will pay."

She nodded and watched him leave her life hopefully only for a while. Every day that passed she was losing hope that her ex would be found and she would be able to live her life again not someone else's. She was sick of hiding. God she just wanted her life back.

She just went back to playing online scrabble with cheetobreath apologising for missing yesterday's game. She wouldn't tell anyone Aaron had come to visit. They both knew it had to be left a secret at least for the moment. The visit coming out in the open would reveal her true identity and hiding place.