When i write a story i try not to bash because to me the story seems un-real..I try to make it look gh style lol .


As the warm water overtook her life, her mind was finally free. She would no longer deal with the struggles and the name calling. She wouldnt have to hear whispers about her everywhere she went because she wouldnt be there anymore. She was drowning in a sea of fear, lies and betrayal. The water was her first real friend because it wouldnt judge her, it wouldnt make her feel like crap and it was always there. This was her suicide.

Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread

Memories seemed to flood threw her mind. When it was just her against the world. How she had changed in the last couple of years. She had relied on Jason so much that she couldnt stand on her own two feet anymore. The need to love him made her weak and pathetic. Yes, without Jason she was nothing. She couldnt breath if he wasnt around, she couldnt see if he didnt lead her the way. It was like he controlled every single aspect of her life.

He wasnt her Jason because the Jason she knew wouldnt throw her away like yesturdays trash. If he really had cared enough he would have faught for her. If he really loved her enough secrets wouldnt have been in the equation. Honesty was something that was secure in their relationship. No matter how bad things got or how it hurt the other the truth would always be told. Maybe thats what drove her to revenge - the fact that he couldnt be honest with her anymore.

He chose to keep a secret that changed her life. It hurt to know he was having a baby with another women because all she dreamt of was having a family with him. Getting married and growing old together. That turned out really well because in the end she was left with nothing while Elizabeth got everything she ever wanted. But it really didnt matter anymore because Sam McCall wouldnt be stuck in the shadows.


As the tears cascaded down her delicate face, she had cried for the child she never had.

Getting up she whiped the remains of her tears away and looked ahead to a better life. Robin Scorpio was going to have a happy life it killed her. Determined to have a talk with Patrick, she went in her car and drove to General Hospital.

Getting off the elevator she searched for any sign of Patrick finding none she signed and went over to ask Epiphany. Walking over she realized Elizabeth wasnt her today. Yea they used to be friends but her sudden attitude made her just want to slap her. She walked all high and mighty whenever she was here, acting like she was better than everyone. God, how she wanted to knock her off her nausiating pedestal. She thought no one could touch her just because she jumping Jasons bones. Oh yes, she was going to get what was coming to her and pretty soon.

Breaking her from her thoughts Epiphany looked at her slightly annoyed, that anyone did anything but there Job.

"Did you come here to stare into space or ask a question" Ephiphany asked.

" Did you see Patrick?" She asked hopefully because she needed to set some things straight with him.

"Do i look like i care where he went? But if you must knew hes in the cafeteria, thinking about your earlier scare. It suprises me you know, because i never knew he had feelings." Epiphany told her, meaning every word.

Not saying a word Robin, left to go to the cafeteria. Bracing herself a big discussion. How would it go between them? Would it be just another one of those fights where no matter what she said he was always right?

You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be But we lost it All of the memories, so close to me Just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending

Spotting him she sat down in the vacant chair. Neither knowing what to say or how to start. Getting up the courage he told her how he felt about adding another life to the equation.

"Robin, I'm not ready to be a parent, at least not yet, and you -- you just said the same thing, so this is -- this is really the best thing that could have happened right now. Right?"

She signed, knowing he would never change his mind. By the sudden outburst of maybe a baby and the only thing he can think about was how it might screw up his swinging single life. They were never going to be on the same page. She would pull, he would push. She would want he wouldnt. Were there too many wrongs for the relationship to make a right?

Giving up, she told him the only thing he would want her to say " Right" Without much emotion or certainty.


She yet dreamt of the other man. She woke up to a cold sweat. The guilt eating her inside. She dreamt of the perfect life, only Lucky wasnt in the picture, Jason was. She couldnt stop thinking about him, it was like he was her pill and she couldnt get enough. Many nights she would picture Jason holding her instead of her husband. Him being there when Jake said daddy for the first time. Elizabeth wanted to be with him so badly, she wanted him to only have eyes for her and when she looked in his eyes she would see love for her.

Weighing each option, what was she to chose? Lucky or Jason?

Lucky would always be safe, he would protect her at all cost and she cared about him. He was her husband and he made a commitment for better or worse to stick together. He was the only father Cam new and Jake knew him as Daddy and not one of mommys husbands. He would always be there.

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they (So are they)
But they don't know me Do they even know you? (Even know you)
All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do (All the shit that you do)

But Jason, she could feel every emotion in her body screaming pick Jason. Yes he was Jakes father, and the only man she had eyes for. He was the one she loved and always thought about a life with. But his job, made it so hard for her. She would have to spend the rest of her life looking over her shoulder. She wouldnt get to experience life because the threat would always be there.

Whats a girl to do?

As she heard the front door open, she saw Lucky coming in not bothering to look at her. She hurt him so badly, but she couldnt change back time and she wouldnt. She made a decision, one she hoped brought her happiness.

As Lucky sat down, she shocked the hell out the both of them

"Lucky, i wanna be with Jason"


Carly sighed, she had to find her husband, she would die trying. She knew one person that would help her get Jax back, she didnt like it very much but if it meant finding Jax she would do anything.

Waiting for the elevator to open, she emidiately went to the closed door and knocked with frustration, dislike and hope. She was going to convince him to find Jax even if it mean black mail.

Opening the door, he looked slightly annoyed. Did she know when to give up? Honestly, this women was the like the energizer bunny, she just kept going and going.

"What do you want?" Jerry asked her.

"Me and you are gonna take a little trip, and your gonna help me find Jax." Carly told him with determination. Not knowing if it would be worth it in the end.