Thank ya chickas, for the favourites! Here's the second chapter! This one has more dilouge R&R!
BELLA'S POV
God, my head hurts. It's like someone knocking it over and over again. It's very annoying. I tried to open my eyes, only to find white. Well, I must be dead now. Yay.
"Bella?" A very hot voice asked. Huh? I mustered a very weird noise.
"You're awake," He said. No shit sherlock, "Can you open your eyes." I tried and found golden eyes peering down at me.
"You're Alice's dad." I said. My own voice sounded weird, tottally not mine. He chukled.
"Why yes I am. Do you know why you're here?" He said. His name tag said Carlisle.
"Uhh..I have a hangover?" I said unsure.
"Well yes, but you tried to committ suicide." Ohhhh...yeahh.
"Who found me?" I whispered already knowing the answer.
"Your dad." Ouch. Poor Charlie.
"Is he here? Dose mom know? What about Phil?" I said in a rush making my head feel like shit.
"Slow down. He's in the lunch room with your mom and her husband." Oh no, oh no, oh no.
"No, no, no, no, no, NO!" I said. trying to get out. Carlisle pushed me down gently.
"No, I have to get out of here!" I yelled about to cry. He looked taken aback.
"Why?"
"You don't understand! I can't see him! He he he..." I said breathing really fast. I felt my eyes widening. I cant be here.
"Bella." Carlisle said.
"Get me out of here! He hits me! He hurts me!" I yelled. Carlisle's eyes widen. He went over to a window and took out his cell phone. I couldnt hear him and wanted to go what he was saying.
"Don't tell."I whispered. He seemed to hear me. He hung up.
"It's okay. It's taken care of." He said. I really don't like how he said that. The door opened and I thought it was Phil, but it was Emmett and Alice. Oh no!
"What are they doing here? How many people know?" I asked Carlisle. I searched his face for answers.
"Its okay Bella. It's gonna be alright." Alice said softly. No it's not.
"We're here to bring you to safety." Emmett said smiling.
"I don't need to be rescued or your smapthy." I quite a bit snottish. I need to shut them out. Carlisle untached alll the medical stuff off of me and Emmett picked me up.
"Hey!" I said. We walked outside to a huge Jeep. Emmett strapped me in so many seat belts, I lost count. We drove in silecne. We drove in the woods and came apon a goregous victorian home. Emmett drove into the garge and unbuckled me. I felt so naked, so exposed. I was only in that ugly hospital gown. We went into their house. Oh no, they know. Oh God. Oh God oh God oh God. I saw Edward and this woman, I assume his mother. Caremle hair and same pale skin and golden eyes.
"Oh!" She said as she rushed me.
"Hello Bella, Im Emse. Lets get you settled in. Emmett carried me up two flights of stairs into a little medicial room. I felt Edwards eyes boring into my back, well he's probably staring at my scars. Edward hooked me up just like when I was in the hospital. It was very uncomfortable. I saw Jasper and Roaslie in the door frame. i cast my eyes away from Roaslie. Every Cullen minus Carlisle was in this room. Gah!
"Can I talk to Bella alone?" I heard Rosalie said. I looked up. She avoided eye contact. Everyone left and Jasper seemed hestaint. But fainlly he left.
"Bella, Im so so sorry. I said somethings I shouldn't have and I've been rude and spitful." She said. Whoa, didn't see that one coming. I just stared at her,
"I know that I seem vain because of my beauty, " I snorted, "but Im sorry. I feel like this is my fault." Finally she makes sense.
"I don't know what to say, really." I mustered. What could I say? I've never done this before.
"I 've never done this before." I said.
"That makes two of us." Roaslie said. We chuckled.
"I understand where you're coming from it's just, I've had people hurt me before and I guess I did it on habit." I confessed.
"Its okay Bella, I know excalty where you're coming from." Roaslie smiled. I couldn't help but smile back. Just then Carlisle came in.
"Hello Bella, how are you feeling?" He said, holding my file.
"Fine, I geuss." We were alone now.
"According to your file, you've done this alot haven't you?" He asked. I nodded meekly.
"Hey, it's okay." He smiled.
"May I ask why?" Well..
"That's fine, you don't have to, but I suggest a therapist." He said, writing something down.
"What about Phil?" I asked staring to get scared.
"Well, we really couldn't do anything because we don't have evidence."
"He knows where I live, he could do anything!" I yelled.
"It's okay Bella-" I inturrpted. I started to hypervenalate.
"No no no no no no no no. He's gonne get me! He's gonna get me!" I screamed. Jasper suddenly came in the room and took my hand.
"Bella, shhh. It's gonna be fine." He said. I suddenly became calm. We looked at each other for about 5 mintues. I was looking in answer that I know he couldn't give me.
"Your parents are on their way now. They think that I put you here because I have more advanced hospital equitment." Carlisle said. I nodded.
"Bella!" I heard my mom yell. She and Charlie busted in, tearry eyed. I hate seeing them cry.
"Oh Bella!" Mom said. She hugged me and then Charlie did too.
"Im okay Mom." I said.
"It was good that Charlie found you."
"Yeah." Jasper looked at me.
"Bella, I didn't know what to do. I was so scared you were die." Charlie broke on the last word.
"Can we please not.." I said. I didn't want to be reminded that I caused my parents to cry. Phil was standing in the back smiling innocently at me. I inwardly shuddered. My parents stayed for a little longer then fainlly left.
"See you tomorrow Bella." Charlie said.
"Bye." Charlie thinks that I need to be here over night for observation. Not that I mind.
"Um, when can I get up from this bed?" I asked no one in particular.
"Now, if you wish." Carlisle said. I slowly swung my feet on one side and sat up careful not to become dizzy. I surely got up and felt fine. Jasper kinda helped me down the stairs. When, we got down to the livingroom, it was anything but awkward.
I really felt weclomed. We really had a great time. Emmett and Edward argued over nothing, Alice and Roaslie talked about everything,
and Jasper was really nice and friendly to me.
By 6:00, I was really sleepy. I yawned.
"Sleepy Bell?" Emmett. I nodded. Alice led me up to a guest room and gave me some clothes.
"Here, these should fit." She said.
"Thank you Alice, for everything." I said. She smiled.
"No problem Bella. Night." I climbed into the bed and just thought. Do they really care? No, they don't. Their just doing this because they feel sorry. They feel sorry for the little weak girl.
A cutter.
That's all I'm ever gonna be. I don't feel loved. I feel like nobody cares. I'm worthless and insignificant. I hate myself. I want my scars to go away! I'm so broken, I can't think at all. I feel like I'm on fire and I can't put it out. Im in too deep. All the depression is beinging to control me. I weclomed it.
I feel so ugly, who would want to love someone who cuts herself and has scars on her body.
No one.
God, I hate my life. I want it to be over. I'm gonna have to do it again. Soon. I burried myself in insults till I feel asleep.
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EDWARD'S POV
"You guys, she wants to do it agian." I said. Jasper's head snapped up.
"What?" He said.
" Do they really care? No, they don't. Their just doing this because they feel sorry. They feel sorry for the little weak girl. A 's all I'm ever gonna be. I don't feel loved. I feel like nobody cares. I'm worthless and insignificant. I hate myself. I want my scars to go away! I'm so broken, I can't think at all. I feel like I'm on fire and I can't put it out. Im in too deep. All the depression is beinging to control me. I feel so ugly, who would want to love someone who cuts herself and has scars on her body." I recited what she had thought.
"That's terrible!" Esme said.
Why? Jasper thought. This is really hard for him, her being his singer and all.
"We have to help her." Jasper whispered. He's in a heap of pain. It's so so sad.
"How?" Emmett asked, "She dosen't even think we care! It's tourture!" No one answered him. It's ture. We barley know her and yet, we don't know how to help her.
"Why dosen't she like her step-father?" Rose asked.
"I don't know, she hasn't though of him yet." I said. We looked ar Carlisle.
"Im sorry, but it's confedenial." He said.
"My ass it's confedenail!" Jasper said.
"I don't hink I should be the one to tell you. Give her time." He said. He and Esme walked out the room. slowly everyone did too.
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JASPER'S POV
I want to help her so much. To tell her it isn't over. Giver her hope and faith. But I just don't know how! I want to hold her, never let her go. I want to be her founation and her walls. I love her so much, I don't want to see her break. I want to fight her fight. She deserves to be loved and whorshiped. Hold on Bella, I'm coming
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Well?:) It's kinda short but oh well! Haha, R&R
