A/N: Hello again! I'm quite pleased with the reviews that I've gotten so far, and I hope that this chapter lives up to your expectations. Please enjoy :)


'Bzzt, bzzt' "Check yes Juliet are you with me? Rain is falling..."

My phone's alarm started going off, We the Kings began playing one of my favorite songs, "Check Yes Juliet". Still half alseep, I sat up somewhat tangled in my covers and crawled to the end of my bed with my eyes closed, reached through the bars of the frame to the floor where I kept my phone on it's charger.

"Good morning sleepy head!" My mom burst through my door and opened my curtains.

"Mooo-ooom! I keep those closed for a reason!" I winced as ultra-bright sunlight pour through the uncovered window. My room only had one window and I kept my curtains down all the time, effectively making my room the darkest in the house. Just the way I like it. 'She is waayy too perky for this hour...' I thought to myself as she finally left my room to find something, leaving my door open. I got up to close it and heard my mother begin singing. 'Sometimes, I swear we aren't related...' I sighed.

*SLAM*

I closed my locker door after grabbing my algebra books and was greeted by Oliver's grining face.

"What do you want donut?" I asked, playfully calling him by the nickname I'd given him, "Oooh, that makes me want a donut..." I absentmindedly thought aloud while turning to walk to my class.

"Heeyy, anytime you say, I'm all yours!" He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively at me.

"Eeww, Oliver! I thought we settled this you having a crush on me thing," I said turning a corner.

Oliver struggled to keep up with my pace. "Maybe you did, but- but I haven't... I still- I still-"

"Still what?" I stopped abruptly and turned to face him. I hadn't realized how closely he was following me and stepped backwards to avoid him falling over me.

"Lilly, I still love you!" He blurted out.

Stunned, I took another step backwards. He followed and reached for my hand hanging by my side but I jerked it away.

"No. No, you can't love me; we're fourteen, you can't say you love me. You don't know what it means!" I pulled away from him and began rasing my voice when he started protesting.

"I do know what it means!" He stepped towards me again.

"No you don't!" I shrieked, not caring that people were starting to stare at us. I turned and ran from him. 'To hell with algebra, nobody'll miss me anyway,' I thought as I ran to the school exit. 'Plus, it's my last class. I'll just- just call it an early out...'

.:xXx:.

As soon as I got home I got on my computer. My mom wasn't home yet so I could do what I wanted. But what I wanted right now was for my life to be simple, to not have my best friend in love with me.

I logged into my instant messenger and noticed somebody had added me. I read the name and realized it was a girl that I had homeroom with. I accepted and almost instantly she sent me a message.

Beth_D: hey

lilz4u: whats up?

Beth_D: not much. hangin at the library before i go home.

lilz4u: awesome...

lilz4u: so how you been?

Beth_D: not good. i hate my life.

lilz4u: oh... sorry to hear that :(

Beth_D: yea...

Beth_D: can i tell you a secret

I laughed at the irony here. Of course I can, I've been keeping one of my own for a looooong time.

lilz4u: sure! i'm good at keepin em

Beth_D: i just figured out i'm bi

My eyes widened. "Okay, that's plain creepy." I thought to myself as I sat back in my chair. "So... Do I tell her? I mean, it's not like it'll ruin things between us, we barely know each other..." I thought a moment more, debating myself before making a descision.

lilz4u: that's cool.

Beth_D: yea, you're the first i told

lilz4u: then i'm honored.

lilz4u: guess what?

Beth_D: wat?

lilz4u: i am too

There. I admitted to liking girls, I'd said it. Well, not literally, but typing that and sending it to someone was as close as it got to those feelings being truly acknowledged to someone other than myself. My God, if only I hadn't sent that. My mother was a total homophobe. She made me stop watching Ellen because she was a lesbian. My God-fearing mother ranted for over an hour after I'd turned the channel, telling me how homosexuality was a sin, that gays were going to hell. Since then, I didn't talk about my feelings to anyone but the pages in my diary.

Beth_D: ever had a gf?

lilz4u: no

lilz4u: but there's a girl i know that i like. she's really amazing. her name's kylie.

Beth_D: cool

Just then I heard the front door open and close. I glanced at the clock and noticed the time. "Shit! I was on too long, Mom's gonna kill me if she finds this." I instant messaged Beth_D telling her bye and closed the window as soon as my mom walked into the room.

"Heeeeeey Mom... How was work?" I asked, hoping she'd just go to her room. No such luck.

"Oh sweetie, it was work: tiring as usual. But I need to get on the computer and-" Beth_D IM'ed me back saying she'd talk to me later. "What's this?"

"Oh, um, it's nothing! I was just talking to somebody from school. That's all..." I tried to get at the mouse to close the box before she could read the previous messages, but she swatted my hand away.

"No no, I want to read it..." my mom said, pushing me out of my seat and clicking on the button 'see previous messages'.

"Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck." I thought to myself. "There's no stopping her now. She's gonna find out..." Sighing, I went and sat on the couch to await my mother's wrath.

Several minutes went by. Those were the longest minutes of my life, I swear I felt my ears burning. Then I heard my mom speak. I swear, as long as live, I will never forget what she said:

"Are you trying to ruin you life, Lillian?"


A/N: Weeeeelll? I did my best at somewhat of a cliffer... See that little button down there? The one that says "review"? Yeah, click that one and tell me what you think, please, tell me if it needs more depth or life to the characters or just flames.

And those words there, the ones saying "are you trying to ruin your life?" Yeah that and the IM conversation actually happened. So if you think this is boring, blame my life, because that's where the inspiration is coming from. My life and what I want it to turn out to be, y'know?

Anyway, I won't keep you waiting for the next chapter, I've already written it. It's just a matter of finding time where I can type it out.

Until next time.