Hello there again guys! I got bored at school today so I decided to make the second chapter of my 07-Ghost fanfic! Yeay! xDDDD Anyway, thank you so much for reviewing, favoriting (if such a word exists xDDD) and following my story! Here's to everyone!
Me: *runs to the kitchen to find the Eyefishes I've prepared for everyone and finds the casserole empty*
Noooo! Where did all the Eyesfishes go? This can't be! I promised to shower everyone with Eyefishes today!
Frau: Hey, shorty! Looking for something? *burps*
Me: *star eyes and points a finger at Frau* Aha! So you were the culprit! And why are you calling me shorty?
Frau: Hey, don't blame me! You made Labrador angry with me so I wasn't able to get any Eyefishes! And it's not like I was the one who ate your Eyefishes!
Me: You don't sound so credible, you know that?! And I'll ask you again! Why on earth are you calling me shorty?
Frau: Oh come on! I'm a bishop and you don't believe me?
Me: Well, yeah, you're a bishop and yet you read porn? Lot's of it if I may add?
Frau: *covers my mouth* Shhhhh… people might hear you!
Me: Argggh! Get lost Frau!
Aww, sorry guys. Seems like Frau ate all the Eyefishes I've prepared for you. *sigh* Anyway, just a minor alteration in my story form the actual plot. So, in my story, Bastian was never a traitor. He was never an ally of Ayanami or anyone for that matter. And Ayanami's first attack happened after the Bishop's exam, not before. Also, the flashback on Frau's past just minutes after he lost her happened 5 years ago. I really want Bastian to be a father figure to Frau and I had a scene there where Bastian hugged him and I was thinking that it would really look a bit weird cause Frau was like waaaaay much taller than him. I was actually thinking of the kid Frau when I wrote that flashback so just imagine that 5 years ago, Frau was not yet taller than Bastian. xDDDD He was still uhmmm... pretty much in his post adolescent stage or something like that but I hope you get what I mean. xDDD
Kapitel 2
"What did you say…? The girl who almost made Frau quit from being a bishop?", Teito asked, not believing what the bishop has told him.
"That's right Teito-kun." Labrador replied.
"Was there actually a girl who was capable of doing that? I mean, Frau… Frau is…"
"Teito-kun," Castor placed his hand on Teito's shoulder. "Frau may appear to be a sinful playboy judging from his usual habit of flirting with almost every girl he sees and keeping a lot of porn stored up in the church's library but…"
"But what Castor-san?"
"No matter how unbelievable it may sound, in reality, there's only one woman in Frau's life." Labrador added.
"…only one? Frau has only loved one woman in all of his life?" Teito couldn't believe it. No matter how many times he convinced himself to believe, it just doesn't make sense. Even if it did come from Castor's and Labrador's lips, it just doesn't seem right.
Frau was never an ideal bishop. He was too carefree and laid back to be a bishop, not to mention his love for everything erotic and… scantily clad. But his pure determination and resolve to help those who were influenced and possessed by the Kor made it all possible for him to become a bishop no matter what excuses the church made up for denying his application. Indeed, being a bishop was not just strength alone, nor was it attitude alone; it was a combination of both. Frau may not have the ideal attitude, but the steadfastness of his feelings was enough for the church to admit him as a bishop. Too enough maybe, considering the fact that he erased the other examinees' darkness when he took the bishop's exam. And he also had Assistant Archbishop Bastian to keep him in check. Being one of the 7 Ghost, being Zehel was of course, another thing.
But the mere thought of Frau truly loving only one woman in the world was so ridiculous and totally too good to be true.
"That can't be right Castor-san. I mean…you know how Frau is, right? Sure, I may be able to believe it if you say that he has loved someone but… Frau only loving one girl? That's…that's so absurd. That's so unbelievable", Teito said as he brushed aside Castor's hand which was resting on his shoulder. He turned to look at the serene view below them as he let out a big sigh.
"That can't be true… that can't be…" Teito whispered to himself.
"Hmmmm…" Castor cleared his throat loudly and slowly approached Teito.
"What has gotten into you, Teito-kun?" he slapped Teito's back with a force which rivals Frau's and sent Teito crawling to the ground.
"Uwaaaah! What are you doing Castor-san", Teito asked with confusion written all over his face. He couldn't quite understand why Castor suddenly acted Frau-like.
"Hohoho. Teito-kun, could it be?" Castor playfully teased the gloomy kid.
"Flowers, flowers, could it be?" Labrador echoed.
"Could it be… what?!" Teito yelled, irritated with how the two bishops teased him. Until now, he thought that the only teasing he could experience in the church was from the retard excuse of a bishop in the person of none other than Frau. He didn't think that the other two would be just as worse.
Somewhere in a cliff near the church…
"So my intuitions were right. You were here all along. Teito-kun got worried when he couldn't find you during dinner." Bastian slowly went towards Frau who was sitting near the precipice of a cliff. Frau had downcast eyes and was wearing his casual clothes. In his hand was a red rose which he held tightly close to his chest.
"Oh, it's just you" answered Frau without even looking at Bastian.
A moment of silence ensued between the two of them when Frau suddenly spoke.
"She… she loved the color red. She loved the color red so much that just seeing a red rose the first thing in the morning would already make her smile." Frau was talking to himself. His usual cheerful voice was now replaced with gloom and sadness.
Bastian proceeded to sit beside him. "I know Frau. I know". He placed a comforting hand on Frau's head and disheveled his hair like he always did to him when Frau was still a kid.
"She wanted to see a world filled with red roses. She said that it was her dream to be like a rose in this forsaken world. She wanted to be a rose that, despite its thorns, would still be able to bring happiness and joy. And I was supposed to make that dream come true. I was supposed to stand beside her as she filled this filthy world with bliss which only she can give. I… we were…" Frau's statement was cut short as a soft sob slowly escaped from his lips and a tear glistened from his eyes.
"You-you're crying Frau?" Bastian asked. He couldn't believe what he was seeing. The last time he saw Frau cried was when she died. Since then, not tear was seen from Frau's eyes. But tonight, he was actually crying.
"I am not crying!" Frau yelled as he wiped his eye and shoved Bastian's hand aside.
"Yes, you are Frau! I knew you since you were a kid. Do you really think that you can actually hide something from me?"
"That's what I hated the most about you." Frau went back to sitting beside Bastian as he studied the rose he was holding.
"You don't have to hold it in, you know. Crying doesn't make a man weak. They say that everyone can make you smile, but only the most important can make you cry so, don't fight back your tears. Let it out freely. Let it all out. It just shows how much you care for her, right? You'll feel much better afterwards" Bastian gave a reassuring smile to his beloved student.
"I…I… I let her die…" Frau's sobbed between words. After hearing what his teacher has to say, he finally found the courage to let it all out. He didn't mind if anyone would see him in that state. He didn't care what people might think after seeing the perverted bishop wail like a little baby. He just has to release what was inside of him. It was filling and suffocating his chest for days now.
"That's right Frau. It takes a lot of courage to fight in a battle where victory is uncertain but it takes a hundred times more courage for a man to cry and release the pent up feelings inside"
"It was my entire fault. If it weren't for me, she wouldn't have died. I should have been the one to die that day, not her. She was supposed to live and make her dreams come true. Because of me… it was because of me that she wouldn't be able to see the wonderful red roses anymore. Because of me, she wouldn't be able to become a rose and fill the world with happiness. It was all because of me. I thought that I was more than ready to offer my life and die for her but… it was she who died for me… What kind of man lets his woman die while he saves himself? I'm worse than scum. I'm the lowliest trash on earth."
Without warning, Bastian grabbed the collar of Frau's trench coat and pinned him to the ground.
"What are you talking about? Have you forgotten what I told you that day?
-Flashback-
Frau stood near the precipice of the cliff and looked down below. He kept on shouting her name over and over again but no one answered him. Feeling tired and emotionally injured inside, he dropped to his knees and cried. His body shook to his sobs and he punched the hard cold ground underneath him. The torrential rain made it even worse.
"Frau…" Bastian carefully approached his student in hope of comforting him even just for a bit.
"Frau, it's not your fault."
Frau turned to look at him with piercing eyes.
"Not my fault? Well, what do you know? You're not the one who just lost someone he loves! You're not the one who failed to protect the most important person in his life! You're not the one who's currently going through all of this! It's me! I was the one who just lost someone I love! I was the one who failed to protect the most important person in my life! I was the one who's currently going through all of this! So, don't you fucking tell me that it's my fault! Don't you fucking tell me that you understand! Cause in reality, you don't!"
sfx: ~slap~
"Don't you dare talk to me like that Frau! Believe it or not, I know what you're going through right now! I'm not so cold as to not understand how you feel! You're not the only one who has lost somebody. Everyone! Everyone in this world has experienced losing somebody they love at some point. Death is an inevitable part of life! No one is exempted from dying! No one can live forever in the make-believe bliss of this filthy world. It just so happen that her time has come. It just so happens that she was called back to heaven. Maybe… maybe her wishes were all fulfilled. That's why. So Frau, please. Stop acting like that. Don't endure your pain alone. That's why you have me, right? Share with me even just a portion of the burden you're carrying. And don't keep it stored up. Let it out, share it with me. I'm here for you. Come here, my dear child."
Bastian spread his arms wide open to welcome his beloved student. No matter how tough or strong Frau might be, he knew that his student needed him at a time like this not as a teacher or mentor, but as a second father. Someone who wouldn't mind seeing him cry. Someone who would understand the burden and pain that he's carrying. Someone who would be there for him. That was what Frau needed at the moment.
"So… her last wish was to save me?" Frau stood up with a river of tears welling up in his eyes.
"Who knows? But there's one thing I'm certain Frau."
"One thing? What is it?"
"That she loves you unconditionally." Bastian replied with a gentle voice.
"
I…I love her too. More than my own life."
"
Yes. I know that"
The pain was too much to bear alone. Too much that it's slowly killing him inside. In the end, Frau gave in to the intense feeling of sadness he felt inside him. He buried himself in his teacher's arms. That moment, he didn't care about pride or shame anymore. He just needed someone to turn to. He needed someone he can share his pain with.
"That's right child. I'll always be here for you"
"Thank you." Frau said with a bit of hesitation. It was the first time he said something like that to his teacher.
"And Frau?"
"Yes?"
"I've heard that you were planning to quit from being a bishop so that you could marry her. Was it true?"
Frau removed himself from his teacher's embrace but he avoided his eyes.
"Wh-who told you?"
"Who told me doesn't matter Frau. Look at me."
Frau looked at his teacher directly in the eyes.
"Yes. It's true."
"Oh, really?"
"A-are you gonna tie me up the tree again?"
"…tie you up the tree again?"
Bastian slapped Frau in the back and laughed loudly.
"What are you talking about Frau?" Bastian said as he wiped the tears in his eyes from his laughing fit. "Why would I want to tie you up the tree?"
"Cause I uhmm… I was planning to quit because of her?"
"Hahahaha! Why would I tie you up the tree because you want to marry her? It's your decision Frau."
"Really?"
"Really! And I kind of understand that. She was beautiful. Not just plain beautiful, but dazzling beautiful. Almost every guy who sees her falls head over heels for her. And not only that. She has a big heart. A heart which could never turn down anyone who asks for help. Someone who, despite her shortcomings, can still smile and say that in her little way, she can help change the world. Someone who wouldn't mind to offer her life to save others. Like a majestic rose petal that blooms among the thorns and like a sun that gives light and warmth to everyone she touches. Yes. That was the kind of woman you fell in love with."
"…"
"Come on now! At least say anything. Man, I really brought you up well, didn't I?" Bastian remarked as he landed another hit on Frau.
"Ouch! Hey, you didn't have to do that, you know!" Frau said with a bit of annoyance evident in his voice.
"And you know Frau," Bastian suddenly took a more serious tone which made Frau paid more attention to what he would have to say "Maybe this was destiny's way of telling you that the path you should take is that of becoming a bishop. And not just any bishop, but a great and respected bishop. If she had lived, then I'm sure you would have quit and married her. But destiny took her away so you may be able to see the right path planned for you. That's why, you really have to do your best from now on."
"Who knows? But there's one thing I'm sure of."
"Oh?"
"That she will be the only woman I'll ever love."
-End of Flashback-
Frau slowly removed his teacher's grip from his collar and looked up.
"I haven't forgotten."
"Really? Then why are you acting like this again?"
"Because… because…"
Frau sobbed like an infant again but Bastian paid no mind to it.
"Go on Frau."
"I dreamed about her last time. I dreamed that we had a family together. I dreamed about us having children. I dreamed that we lived in marital bliss. She… was smiling in my dream. And it made me remember the regret and guilt of not being able to save her that day."
Near the Church's Gate…
"Oh? Teito-kun, is that you? What are you still doing here this late at night?" Castor said as he walked towards Teito.
"I-I'm waiting for Frau."
"Is that so?"
"Yeah."
"Well Teito-kun, I didn't mean to be rude or anything but I guess that you should just head back to your room and retire for the night."
"Huh? Why's that?"
"Frau doesn't usually come home on a night like this."
"How many years has it been?" Teito asked, unaware that his question caught Castor off guard.
"What do you mean Teito-kun?"
"How many years has it been since she died?"
"I guess there's no point in hiding it from you anymore, huh?" Castor let out a big sigh as he sat beside Teito.
"It has been more or less five years since she died Teito-kun."
"And those five years have been very painful for Frau, huh?"
"Yes. It has been very painful for him."
"Is that reason why he never touched this locket anymore?" Teito opened the locket and once more, apologetically stared at the picture in it.
"Maybe or maybe not. I'm not really sure Teito-kun" Castor replied.
"Ahh. Maybe that's why."
"Let's go back now Teito-kun. You need to get some rest too you know."
"Alright. Let's go Mikage."
"Burupya!"
Meanwhile in Labrador's bedroom…
In the dead of the night Labrador was unusually having nightmares.
~~~Mixed Voices and Blurry Images~~~
"Frau!"
"Damn you, Ayanami!"
"It was never yours to begin with Zehel!"
"Frau!"
"Castor-san, this child…"
"No, please don't! Believe me!"
"Forget all about him. You have me now! You don't need him anymore!"
"Frau!"
"This child is not his!"
"Kill him! You wanted him dead, right?"
"This child is yours!"
"Frau!"
"Be careful now!"
"Someday, you'll know Teito-kun!"
"I will never forgive you Ayanami!"
"Frau!"
"So, killing Mikage was not enough that you still want to go after her?"
"…isn't it Zehel? Or should I say Frau?"
"It was mine! Since the beginning of time! It was never yours!"
"You're wrong!"
"Frau!"
"Why? Why did this have to happen?"
"No!" Labrador suddenly awoke from his deep slumber panting as if he's been running for miles.
"Frau. Something crucial is going to happen that will decide Frau's fate. Something will happen that will change Frau. Is it for the better? Or for the worse?" Labrador thought to himself as he stood up to get a glass of water.
At the same time at the Black Hawk's Airship…
"Oh? Aya-tan, you're still awake? And why do you have that strange look on your face as if you've been drugged? Something good happened?" Hyuuga playfully asked his captain while doing his nightly rounds of the airship's controls.
"You guessed right." Ayanami replied with a smirk.
"Really? Mind telling me what is it Aya-tan?"
"It's a little bit faint, but… just now, I felt her."
Somewhere in the secluded area of the 6th district, a figure filled with pure warm red sings a long forgotten lullaby to a delicate child sleeping on its lap.
hoshi ni yuki ni kioku ni
kimi no ashiato sagasu
doka towa no yasuragi
koko wa yume no tochuu de
So, that's it! Please don't forget to tell me what you think, alright? The review button is just below xDDD And for those who are really confused about every thing, especially why Ayanami suddenly popped up, well, read the summary. The summary pretty much "summarizes" the whole plot of the story and where it's leading to.
Till next time guys! Thanks again!
