It's so strange, just standing here and not caring about anything…. I don't like it. I want to be worrying about Callie or freezing my heart with the words Callum wrote to me, not sitting here cold. I see now what I have to live for and now I want to go back. But I ended it, I gave up and theres no way I can go back so shut up about it Sephy. JUST SHUT UP!

It's your fault you're in all this shit, even though you thought this would end it all. And now you're crying because you realise how much you did have to live for, how much you had. You think you killed her don't you? Don't be so bloody stupid you don't have the guts to do something like that, all your life you've lived in the past, regretting things you said or didn't say. Did or didn't do.

Well I hope you don't regret the fact your arms gave way before Callie could, she's stronger than you ever were. And thanks to you she will have to be. Have to grow up never fitting in, not one colour a sort of mixture, a left over splash of paint on an artists pallet.

Now she'll think she was nothing to her parents either, one hung for what he raping your mother and the other too weak to face up to what she had chosen to do. You know what I think? I think Callie would be better of dead.

What, does that hurt? To know how much pain and suffering you'll cause her in the future, unless of course she takes the easy way out. Unless of course she turns out like her mother. Some role model you are.

Don't you try to hide your dreams from me, I know the one you keep disappearing into. The ones when Callie Rose was never conceived, when she was just an image on a fine summer's day. Because then you'd be with Callum and none of this would ever had happened, you could be free. You make me sick.

I just wanted what was best for her and maybe what was best for her was never being born. Maybe never even being thought about because then she would never feel pain. Never cry so hard she wouldn't be able to hide it, never feel trapped as her fears drag hard on her heels. Never feel betrayal. But I guess it's too late to stop her from feeling that now, isn't it?