Glee story I've been working on for awhile. Warnings: Slash, sexy time, self-harm. Enjoy and PLEASE REVIEW!


"I'm not thirsty, Sebastian," Blaine said softly.

"Hey," I said smacking his shoulder gently, "No being depressed. This trip is about you remembering who you were before all of these happened. Were you depressed before?"

"No."

"Okay, then I'm about to go in there and buy enough food so we don't have to stop for food or drinks until we get to the concert. Would you like Twinkies and Pepsi for the rest of the day or would you like to come and pick out what you want?"

Watching Blaine roll his eyes playfully at me before jumping out of the car I couldn't help but start laughing at him. I continued to laugh as he started to do this puppy dog pout.

"Come on," I said pushing him forward, "Get in there and get something to eat."

Blaine stuck his tongue out at me before going into the store. Shaking my head I stuck my hands in my pockets and made my way in the store as well. Once inside I looked around and saw that Blaine was already in the back of the store.

Walking to him I saw that his arms were already overflowing with drinks. I rushed forward and grabbed a few bottles before they fell. When I had moved everything so I was holding most of it I looked up at Blaine and saw him smiling.

I quickly covered up the gasp that threatened to fall from my lips when I saw that smile. Blaine always did that to me though. His smile made me feel amazing, but being around him was even better.

My heart sped up, my palms got sweaty, and it was difficult for me to find the right thing to say. That itself was odd for me. Talking was one of the things that I was really good at until Blaine came along.

"How are we supposed to get food?" I asked looking at the drinks.

"We'll pay for this then come back and get more," Blaine said like I was stupid.

"Of course, what was I thinking assuming that this would only take one trip?"

"I know. Silly little boy."

Laughing slightly I shook my head before following him to the register. I had to say that I liked this side of Blaine. He seemed so carefree and laidback. It was the complete opposite of the guy I thought he was.

As I paid for everything I watched Blaine bounce on his feet. Taking the bags in my arms I motioned for Blaine to continue shopping while I went to put the bags in the car.

When I was outside and away from Blaine I let myself deflate. Asking him to come to the concert with me seemed like a good idea at the time. Now I realized how stupid I was being.

"Sebastian," Blaine said walking up to me, "Are you okay?"

"What?" I asked looking up at him.

"You look like someone just kicked your puppy. Is something wrong?"

"Come on, Blaine, I'm fine."

"No, you're not Sebastian. You're doing all these nice things for me. Why won't you let me help you?"

Sighing I slipped off my sunglasses and stared at Blaine trying to figure out what I was supposed to say. Telling Blaine that I had a huge crush on him that was just getting bigger didn't seem like the best idea.

"Is it about me?" Blaine asked softly.

"Blaine," I said sighing.

"It is. What did I do? Come on, do you not like this side of me or something? Please, tell me what I did wrong, Sebastian."

"Nothing."

"Then what…"

Before Blaine could finish his sentence I was pushing him against the car and attaching my lips to his. Keeping my lips against his for a moment I went to pull back only to feel his hands run up my arms and thread in my hair.

Feeling his lips gently start to move against mine I moaned softly. The kiss was gentle and innocent for a few moments, but soon I felt myself running a tongue over his lower lip.

I expected him to pull away fully and say that all of this was a mistake while insisting that I take him back to Lima. Having his mouth open slowly instead I instantly snaked my tongue in.

The kiss continued until I felt like my lungs were going to explode. When I pulled back I saw that Blaine had a happy smile on his face. I loved that look on his face and that I was the one that put it there.

"Have you ever been told that you're an amazing kisser?" Blaine said his eyes still closed.

"No," I said honestly, "But it's nice to hear."

"You're the best I've…Oh no."

"What's wrong, Blaine?"

"Kurt."

Slowly it clicked in my mind that Blaine was talking about his boyfriend. I quickly took a step back to give him some room. I expected him to start to freak out and scream, maybe hit me, but he didn't.

Instead Blaine reached forward and threaded his hand in my hair again. His lips were once again on mine though this time he was adding more passion and heat to the kiss.

"Why is that different with you?" Blaine asked pulling back again.

"What's different with me?" I asked confused.

"The kisses. God, I love Kurt. I love him with all of my heart, but when I'm kissing you it's like every single one of our kisses rolled into one. I don't get why."

Smiling to myself I moved so my hands were resting on Blaine's hips. It felt amazing just to be able to touch him so innocently. I wanted so much more than this though.

Blaine slipped his hands around my shoulders and moved so he was pressed up against me. Closing my eyes I soaked in the extra warmth before moving away from him completely.

"What is it?" Blaine asked cocking his head to the side, "I thought you liked me too."

"I do," I said calmly, "That's not the problem."

"If this is about Kurt…"

"It's not about him. I really don't care about him. Blaine, I know for a fact that I could fall for you. I mean, I could fall in love with you. Everything was fine when I just thought that this wasn't going to go anywhere, but I know that's not true anymore."

"You like me that much?"

"I do."

A wide grin formed on Blaine's lips as he gently cupped the side of my face. Smiling back slightly I kissed his palm before slowly turning around and making my way back into the store.

Blaine followed me the smile never leaving his lips. Clearing my throat I started to pick up some random food hoping to distract myself from my feelings. Blaine was smiling though, maybe he wanted me as much as I wanted him.

I knew that I came off as a bastard, my nickname wasn't Lucifer for nothing, but I wanted to be different with him. In some ways I already was. Letting people know what I was feeling was a big no-no in my life.

The one thing that my family had taught me was how a person could destroy another. Loving Blaine could be the best thing feeling in the world, but I knew that it wouldn't last.

When Blaine was by my side with his arms filled with food I went and paid once more. We made our way back to the car and loaded the backseat up. Once everything was in the car I slipped into the drivers seat and started the car.

We drove in silence for almost half an hour before I felt something on my knee. Glancing down I saw that it was Blaine's hand. Swallowing roughly I tried to figure out what to say, but nothing came to mind.

"What are you afraid of?" Blaine asked softly.

"Who says I'm afraid of anything?" I said letting my mask fall into place.

"I say it. I also say that you don't have to hide from me, Sebastian. Tell me what's going on in that mind of yours."

"Nothing."

"You can admit to liking me, maybe even loving me in the future, but now you're shutting down? How does that make sense?"

"It doesn't. Love never make sense. It also doesn't last. I've seen love fall apart more often then I should have. I've watched people who are supposed to be in love do everything possible to hurt each other. I can't let myself get that far, Blaine. I won't let myself turn into my parents."

"Your parents? Tell me about them."

Shaking my head I wondered what I was doing. Blaine didn't have to know anything about my home situation. No matter what happened he was still going to be with Kurt in the end.

"Please Sebastian," Blaine said squeezing my knee.

"My parents were in love for years," I said softly, "They were supportive and everything. The perfect couple. Until my dad found out about my moms affair. He did everything in his power to hurt her. That was thirteen years ago. I've watched them try to break each other ever since."

"Sebastian."

"I won't let that happen to me, Blaine. I won't let myself hurt someone I love even if that means I'm alone for the rest of my life."

"Stop the car."

"Blaine…"

"Now."

Pulling the car over to the side of the road I watched Blaine get out of the car and walk around it until he was at the drivers door. He opened it roughly before pulling me until I undid my seatbelt and got out.

I had no idea what to expect when I was standing in front of Blaine. It was almost like I was waiting for him to explode and hit me. I doubted I would put up a fight after I hurt him the way I did.

Blaine didn't say anything as I pushed me into the car door and latched his mouth to mine. I almost instantly let out a soft moan loving the feeling of him against me. I had never felt more at home then I was now.

Breaking the kiss Blaine kissed up to my ear and sucked it into his mouth. I let myself get completely lost in the feeling of his lips on me. The only thought in my head was how I never wanted this to end.

"I think I'm falling in love with you," Blaine whispered in my ear, "I've thought that since I saw you at Dalton. God, if I hadn't been dating Kurt I would have jumped you. I wouldn't have even cared about the other Warblers."

"You're dating Kurt now," I said trying to catch my breath.

"Not for long."

"Blaine…"

"I left Dalton because I thought that Kurt was my soul mate. I thought we'd be together forever. Dreamt of our future. Now though…"

"Now?"

"I see you. Every time I see you. And not just dating in high school. I mean, the whole nine yards."

"The whole nine yards? Like what?"

"Our children."

Freezing I pushed Blaine away from me and stared at him. We were only sixteen years old and he was thinking about all of that. How was that supposed to make me feel when I took into account the fact that he's with Kurt, even though he's going to break up with him soon.

"I'm sorry," Blaine said softly, "I shouldn't…"

"Don't," I said holding my hand up, "You see us that far into the future?"

"I do."

"Blaine, I've never been in a relationship before. I've had one night stands and all of that, but never a relationship. I want to try with you. I'm going to mess up though, a lot. I don't want to hurt you."

"We'll take it slow and I'll help you. You just have to trust me, Seb. Let me help you and talk to me."

"There's a lot to tell."

"We have three days together. Just the two of us. It'll be fun."