Entry 2

Math was hard today. When I came home Sempai helped me understand. He is so kind. Unfortunately we had an accident and he got hurt again. Why is he always getting hurt? He is so strong to be able to walk away from those attacks, but why does Naru-Sempai always misunderstand the situation? I guess that it was my fault too. If I hadn't have screamed no one would have known what had happened. I don't mind when he does it. It is just that it happened so suddenly. I think that I have come up with my thank you gift for Sempai. I will not scream again! Even in the most compromising situation I will not scream, no matter what!

Who am I kidding… I don't have enough control over myself to stop. I am always causing Sempai pain. Maybe I should leave. No! I can't. Sempai needs me. Even if it is just to cook. I will willing serve him even if he were dragged down into the depths of hell. I will not scream when he touches me again! I won't! He is the one that is sacrificing his time studying to help me understand this stuff and get good marks. I owe it to him.

Good night Sempai. I love you