Chapter 2.
I walked along the street to Allison's apartment. I had 150 dollars in my pocket right now. I had to go shopping tomorrow morning we were running low on food at the house. Wait it was morning. Guess I'm not sleeping tonight. I pursed my lips and climbed the stairs up to the apartment. I couldn't stay at Allison's long I needed to be home before my dad woke up. I rapped on the door and Allison opened it up smiling.
"Hey girl" she said giggling there were about 30 to 45 people there. I new about half of them from work.
"Hey" I said
She hugged me and let the through the door. I walked in and she wrapped her hand around my lower back and said "hey everybody this is Emily. She is my girl so treat her good, I think most of you no her but get her a drink she has had a hard night." she laughed and winked at me
I laughed lightly and smiled back. Some guy walked up to me and handed over a clear liquid in a red plastic cup. I shrugged not caring what I was about to swallow. For all I no I could have pills in my drink and wake up next to a big fat hairy old man, it wouldn't bother me. No one cares about me anyways. I downed the drink and immediately asked the boy standing next to me for another. He obeyed and walked off to get me one. I looked around the room. There were so many people in here I was surprised we didn't fall through the floor and into another persons apartment. I smiled at the thought and began to walk in the direction of the bath room. I had been here many times before but I new I would be stopped to be talked to everyone so I tried to walk extra fast to get there. Turns out you can't walk really fast in knee high boots with a bunch of people around you because one of them is lame enough to stick their foot out and trip you. And that's what happened I was tripped I fell hard to the ground hitting my chin on the hard floor. I lay there for a minute taking in what was supposed to be a fist full of pain but only getting an inch of it. After living with my dad for so long u become a mute to a most the pain you feel. The reason I still cry when my dad lamp at my head but only catches the side of my ear cutting it to pieces is that I don't have anyone in this life that I feel like love me. It feels like I'm all alone in this world and no one is there to catch me if I fall, and that's how I felt now. I was tripped and I no one was there to catch me. I pushed myself back up to a standing position and looked around. Everyone had noticed me fall but no one had bothered to help me up. I shook my head sadly and began making my way back through the sea of people. 25 percent of the people would wake up with a stranger, 25 percent would pass out not knowing what had happened, but wake up with a really bad hangover not knowing how they got there, 25 percent wont make it home in time to get in bed before their parents catch them so they will get in loads of trouble for being out so late and the other 25 percent will stay here all night and puke all over the house. I have been there all before. Why am I even taking the time to notice what the other people will do? I sighed, I really just wanted to go home and lay in my bed. I finally stepped into the bathroom and saw a couple making out on the toilet seat.
"Get out I got to pee." I said not caring if I was being rude or not
They groaned and got up the guy took the girls hand and led her away, probably towards a bed room. I shut the door behind them and locked it. I looked myself over in the mirror. I looked ok, my chin wasn't scratched or anything but it was throbbing. I smiled at the pretty reflection in the mirror. I used to be a girl in pig tails and overalls. Now I have pink hair and miniskirts. I stayed in the bathroom a few more minutes looking around, dreading when I would have to go back out side and make a show out of who I was. I didn't want to be like this, I wanted to be like myself not some Barbie.
"Hurry up in there, other girls have to purge too!" I heard some girl scream as she banged on the door
I threw my hair behind my shoulders and opened the door letting a girl with black straight hair and about 5'5 walk in. she was very pretty but didn't look very strong I could take her. I shook my head to clear it. Why was I thinking about fighting this girl? She didn't do anything to me. My god I'm turning into my father. I walked out of the bathroom and smiled big for everyone as I headed towards the kitchen. Rap music was blasting from the stereo. Some of the girls had random guys they probably had never met before out in the middle of the room grinding on them. I looked away in disgust. I was such I hypocrite, here I am selling myself to strange guys and all they are is dancing. I pursed my lips in disgust at my new theory. I walked over to the fridge and opened it pulling out a beer. I popped the top and downed half the drink before I stopped to take a breath. A guy walked up to me rapping his arm around my waist.
"Hey sweets" he said winking at me. I giggled,
"Hello Eric and how are you tonight?"
"Fine, fine. How are you dear?" Eric said smiling
"I'm ok." I smiled back. I had known Eric since I was little he was one of my best friends, he had always been there when I needed him.
"What are you doing here Eric? If you get caught I'm not covering for you by saying you slept at my house." I said smirking, he grinned
"Parents out of town. They think I'm at the house with Jessica." He said referring to his older sister.
"Where is Jess anyways?" I asked
"Spending the night with her boyfriend probably getting knocked up" he said shrugging. I laughed
"Probably"
He grabbed me by the hand, "Come on I want a dance" I sighed I new this was coming.
"Alright but one dance Eric." I said letting him pull me onto the makeshift dance floor.
He grabbed both my hands and began to spin me I laughed and did as instructed. He pulled me closer and put his hands on my hips, I rocked my hips against him and he smiled big. I giggled at the sight. The rap song went off and a slow one came on. I pressed my lips into a tight line he smiled at me.
"One more dance?" he asked
"Alright fine but no more." I said smiling
He rapped his arms around my waist and I rapped mine around his neck swaying with him. I sighed and rested my head against his shoulder, he rested his head on mine. I smiled to myself and kept swaying to the beat of the music. This lasted for about another 3 minutes when the song cut off and another rap song came on. I grabbed his hand and yanked him away before he could ask for another dance. We walked over to the couch and sat down there was 3 other kids there 2 boys and 1 girl. I smiled at them and they all smiled back, well the girl smiled back the boys grinned.
"I'm Chris, this is Tiffany and this is James." He said pointing each one out.
Chris was tall and had shaggy blonde hair with green eyes and looked about 19. Tiffany had long black hair and looked about 18 she was very pretty with chocolate brown eyes, and James had black hair also and looked about 19 with green eyes.
I looked over at Eric his shaggy brown hair was falling in his face and his blue eyes were staring at me. Eric put all these boys to shame, he was so gorgeous.
I looked back over at the 3 other people sitting across from us. James had his arm draped around Tiffany and Chris leaned forward and pulled out a bag from the pocket of his leather jacket. He dumped the white powder on the table and I smiled anxiously at him.
"You want to share?" I asked him referring to the cocaine he was now straitening into lines with a razor blade.
He looked up and smiled. "You do coke?" I smiled back
"Well you would think so when I just asked for it." He laughed and nodded.
"Alright is your friend going to do it to?" he asked
I looked over at Eric.
"You want to play?" I said grinning, he grinned back
"Of course."
Chris nodded and kept straitening out the lines creating 10 lines out of the huge pile of coke.
"We each get 2 as you can see. I got first then you can go next." He said referring to me.
"My name is Emily and this is Eric." I said pointing to Eric
"Alright Emily well you go after me then Eric can go." Chris leaned down and held one nostril and snorted the first line up. He leaned forward again and did the same to the other line. He pulled back up and smiled shaking his head a little. I smiled back and leaned forward. I held one nostril and snorted up the first line not stopping to take a breath and did the second. I leaned back up and shook pulled my head back snorting up the rest that was stuck. I could feel it going down my throat and a tingling feeling spread through out my body. I pulled my head back down and giggled.
"Your turn Eric." He smiled at me and did the same as me and Chris. After we were done with ours we looked over at Tiffany and James. They were making out on the couch and didn't seem to care what was going on around them.
"Well there are 4 lines left and 3 of us so we each get a line and Emily you can have the last one since you're the girl." He said winking at me
I grinned and leaned forward snorting up my 2. I pulled back up and let the now liquid run down my throat. I felt my head go light and rubbed at my eyes trying to focus on Eric now snorting up his line. Chris was next. I pulled at Eric's arm. "Come lets go home, you can spend the night at my house." I said my words slurring. He nodded and pulled me up.
"You leaving so soon?" Chris asked smiling
I reached down and grabbed my beer "yup see you later thanks for the coke" I took a drink of my beer and stumbled over to the door. Eric was trying to keep me from falling. I laughed, "Maybe we should stay and enjoy the party?" I said.
"Nope we are going straight home and we aren't going to your house we are going to mine. Your dad would kill you if he caught you sneaking back in that house."
I shrugged "So." He shook his head in disgust. I took another drink of my beer. He grabbed my hand and helped me down the stairs of the apartment. I fell twice.
"I'm going to be bruised tomorrow." I said laughing as I got up from another fall.
"I can see that Emily." He smiled
We made our way down the street. It was like another mile till we got to Eric's house.
"Where's your car Eric?" I asked
"I new I would be messed up tonight so I didn't drive it but turns out I didn't get messed up as much as I thought." He said his words a slur, I giggled.
Eric was 16 and drove an old Chevy truck. It wasn't very much but it was something. We walked in silence for a while and finally we were walking up his drive way. Eric lived in a red brick house it had 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. It was a pretty nice house. Eric helped me up the steps to the door and led me through the house to his bedroom. He opened his door and I walked to his bed and laved down rubbing my head.
"Eric I'm so messed up." I said laughing
"I can see that babe." He said looking at me smiling, I laughed harder.
I got up and stumbled up to Eric and kissed him deeply on the lips, rapping my arms around his neck. He kissed me back pushing me towards his bed. I and Eric have had sex many times before but we never dated for some odd reason. He laid me down on the bed and began to take off his pants. I smiled and pushed him back.
"You got a condom Eric?" he sighed "I just used my last one." I groaned.
"Oh well. You can still sleep with me." I rolled over and he rapped his arms around me stroking my back. I smiled to myself and drifted off to sleep in the arms of the man I love.
