A few weeks later
The last few weeks were hard on Stella. The kids knew by now what was going on. They kids seemed to cope with it. Sienna was now living with them ans was getting no more therapy.´She was takeing morphine when the pain was bad. Stella had taken a leave of absence and Nathan and Chloe were now in Kindergarden the whole day. Even the bigger children came home later now, because they were going to stay at the afternoon programm of the school. Mac came by twice a day to look after Stella and Sienna and sometimes he came home at noon and did not return to work.
Stella and Sienna are talking on the couch. "It is so unfair Sienna. Mom and you. Dad died to early too." "Stella listen to me. We were your family and we still are your family. You cannot prevent bad things from happaning. I am happy that I survived all my cancer diagnosis since 1996. I had a good and happy life. There is nothing I can do Stella. I want you to remember me as a happy laughing woman. I want you to remember me as your laughing sister." Mac entered the house during the last few sentences. He had worked part-time today.
"Sienna you cannot give up. You have to fight." Stella is crying and had tears streaming down her face. Mac sits down on the armrest next to her and pulls her into a hug. He kisses her temple. " Stella it is too late to fight. I just want to enjoy the rest of the time with you."
Stella was still crying into Mac´s chest. He knows that it is hard on Stella but that it must be hard on Sienna too.
"Mac please do something." "Sweetheart your sister is right. There is nothing she can do." She was crying even more now. Stella soon cries herself to sleep and Mac carried her to bed.
He then sat down on the couch with Sienna. "I am worried about her Mac. I have hardly ever seen her like that." "I know I have seen her like that when your parents, our friend Aiden and our dog died. She just never showed it in public."
"The last times I have seen her like that were when our grandparents died in 1975, 1983, 1981 and 1979. She also was a mess when our dogs died in 1970, 1977 and 1985. But it was never as bas as now. I am really worried Mac. Why did she never show it?"
"She only cries when we are at home and the kids cannot see it."
"I see but Mac I am really worried about her. I want her to be happy. I want her to somehow be able to enjoy the rest of my time." "Sienna I know that you want her to enjoy the rest of the time and that you want her to be happy. But I know that it will not be easy for her and that she will cry many more tears. You are the rest of the family. She needs time."
"I know. Mac I need you to promise me that you will never leave her and that you will be there for her when I am leaving and when I am gone."
"Sienna I would never leave her. I love Stella. Do not worry she will not be alone. I will always be here at her side. I promise you that." "Thank you Mac."
"Mac why is there music plaing?" "I always turn music on when Stella is out of it or is not feeling well. It calms her down. She needs it." "I see. Se never did that at home." "I came up with that idea shortly after our wedding. We were working on a case in July 1987 when we were shot at. Stella worked patrol before joining the CSI. She was upset and rattled. That is when I came up with the idea. I always did since then. It always helped. It is always Beethoven. She likes that music." "I know. Poor Stella. I hope she will recover." "I will do anything in my power to make that happen Sienna." "I know Mac."
Around three in the afternoon Mac goes to check Stella. He enters the bedroom and sees her sitting in the bed looking at a picture of the family. It was taken at Chloe´s baptism in January 2007. On it were Mac, Stella all the six children and Sienna. She looked up at him as he sat down on the bed. She held it to her chest. Mac moved closer to her and pulled her into his chest. She cried and he just let her. When her tears subsided she asked. "Where are the kids?" "Danny and Lindsey have the kids. I figured it would be better that way." "In this situation it is hard to have them hear. I do not want the kids to see everything." "I know." She pulled back from his chest and theys kissed. He then helped her out of bed and he helped her freshen up.
A few minutes öater they walked into the livingroom together, Mac leading her. One arm around her shoulder and the other holding her hands. "Hey Sienna!" "Hey Stella! Are you feeling better?" "A little thanks to Mac´s music." Mac and Stella sit down on the couch across from Sienna. Mac and Sienna hoped that Stella would be able to cope with it.
