HI ALL

IN A WORD, WOW!

SOME MAJOR REACTIONS TO THIS STORYLINE...WHICH IS WHAT I WANTED.

I HAVE BEEN READING TWO STORIES IN THE LAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. ONE IS "Broken" BY SUNNY1983 AND THE OTHER IS "don't look back, please turn around" BY DC OLIVER.

THE FIRST CHAPTER OF BROKEN HAD OVER 100 REVIEWS AND THERE WAS SOME MAJOR DEBATES GOING ON WITH THE REVIEWS. SOME LOVED IT, SOME HATED IT BUT EVERYONE WAS HOOKED AND SOME SAID THEY WOULD STOP READING AND THEN THE SAME REVIEWS CAME BACK A FEW CHAPTERS LATER WITH COMMENTS SUCH AS "loved it" WHICH IS WHAT I WANT. I WANT A STORY THAT IS OUT OF OUR COMFORT ZONES. I LOVE FIFTY SHADES YOU ALL KNOW I DO BUT I WANTED SOMETHING THAT WILL CAUSE A REACTION, WHICH IT DID.

NEVER LOOK BACK, PLEASE TURN AROUND IS ONE OF THE BEST STORIES ON FANFICTION AT THE MOMENT, WHY? BECAUSE EVERYONE LOVES TO HATE IT. IT IS FILLED WITH SO MUCH ANGST AND HURT THAT I SWORE I WOULD NOT READ ANY MORE...BUT EVERY TIME ITS UPDATED I CANT HELP MY SELF. I NEED, NOT WANT, BUT NEED TO READ IT AND I THINK THAT IS A SIGN OF A GREAT STORY,SOMETHING THAT CONSUMES YOU AND MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE THERE.

I ALWAYS SAID I WOULD NEVER DO A CHEAT FIC, AND I WONT, BUT THIS IS AS CLOSE AS I CAN GET WITHOUT CROSSING THAT LINE.

KEEP THE REVIEWS COMING, GOOD OR BAD AND IF YOU DONT WANT TO READ IT THEN MY STORY RECOMMENDATION FOR THIS WEEK IS..

"What If" BY DESKTOP DRAGON. ITS NEW AND ITS IN THE FIFTY SHADES/CROSSFIRE CROSSOVER SECTION OR IF YOU NEED THE LINK ITS ON MY FAVS LIST.

ALSO I HAVE STARTED A PINTREST FOR THIS STORY AND THE LINK IS ON MY PROFILE

NOW ON WITH THE STORY.

THANKS FOR ALL THE REVIEWS, I LOVE ALL OF THEM, GOOD OR BAD.

NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE UP TOMORROW AND THE FIRST HALF WILL BE CHRISTIANS POV AND THE SECOND HALF ELLIES POV

CHEERS LORNA X

ANAS POV, CHRISTIANS OFFICE, GREY HOUSE, SEATTLE, WASHINGTON.

1 WEEK LATER ANAS POV.

"Christian I have a meeting in less than a hour, baby we can't go again" I laugh as he once again tries to lower the zipper on my dress.

We have just finished lunch in his office which included pulled pork sandwiches, curly fries, cherry coke and sex on top of his desk. All in all, a great lunch break.

"Anaaaaaaaaaaaaaa why must you tease me so much?" He crosses his arms and pouts like a child.

"How am I teasing you?"

"Because you're you and you look like that, and now I know that you are panty less and I just want you so much...you sure I can't talk you into round two?" He starts nuzzling that spot behind my ear and I almost cave...but then I remember my meeting. I have been trying to convince Boyce Fox out of retirement for five years and today will be my last chance to see him face to face because he is going traveling in South America with his wife for three months.

"I'll tell you what Mr Grey" I hop up on his desk and pull him to me by his tie "I will call Mia and see if she will pick Bella up from school when she gets Olivia. Teddy has practice until 8 and Pheebs is having a sleep over tonight with Ava...what's say you and I...spend a little time getting freaky at Escala?"

"You have your self a date Mrs Grey but you also have yourself a spanking for denying me right now" I kiss him and then grab my purse.

"Laters Baby" I say to him and I smack his ass as I go to leave his office only to bump straight into Taylor outside the door.

"Oh sorry Jason, didn't see you, I'm just leaving so his highness is all yours" I joke but he doesn't even smile. Something's wrong. I can tell by his eyes.

"Actually Ana I need to have a word with you too" I instantly start to panic.

"Are the children ok?"

"Yes they are fine I assure you, this isn't about them" he takes me by the arm and leads me back In to Christians office.

"What's wrong?" He says as he rounds his desk.

"Um Christian, Ana ...take a seat I need to discuss something...well something with you"

He takes a seat on one of the arm chairs and Christian pulls me down to his side on the sofa. Jason rubs the back if his head and doesn't say anything.

"For fucks sake Jason what's wrong?" Christian spits out.

"Boss...there is a lady downstairs from the Manhattan department of social services to see you...I asked her what it was about and she gave me the gist of it...sir you need to speak to her...and keep Ana with you" he says.

What in the world?

"Jason just tell me what she wants"

"Christian...I'm talking now as your friend and not your body guard. Just listen to the woman. I have told Andrea to push your next meeting back and Ana I know you have a meeting with Boyce in fifty minutes so I will send the lady up now. She is called Carmella Anderson...just...I'll send her in" I know he wants to say something else but he keeps it in.

Less than a minute later a tall red head in a neat cream suit walks in. She is in her mid thirties and has her hair up in a tight bun. She is a very pretty woman and I think she is the first woman in ten years to not drool over my husband on sight.

"Mr Grey, Mrs Grey thank you for seeing me at such short notice" she shakes our hands and I motion for her to take a seat.

"We are both very busy people Miss Anderson so if you would be so kind as to get to the point" Christian tells her and I squeeze his hand to calm him. He hates the unknown.

When I woke up this morning, not in a million lifetimes did I expect to hear, what I hear next.

"I will only take up a short amount of your time Mr Grey. I have come straight from the airport and my flight home leaves in two hours so time is of the essence. Last week a very good friend of mine who works at Mount Sinai Hospital called me about a patient of his that died, a young woman who I believe you know Mr Grey"

"Who is it?" I ask and fear grips my heart.

"Her name was Lelia Williams" I gasp and Christian stiffens beside me. I haven't heard that name in about 13 years. She was only a little older that me and last I heard she was living in Chicago with a boyfriend.

"How did she die?" Christian asks

"She had a heart attack. Years of poor living, ill health and a minor drug and alcohol problem put too much pressure on her heart and it gave out. Dr Jensen did everything he could but it was too late"

"I am sad that she died Miss Anderson but I have not seen or spoke to Miss Williams in over 13 years. I fail to see why I should be informed of her death"

Miss Anderson straightens her spine and takes a big breath.

"Mr Grey...Mrs Grey...Lelia had a daughter. She has no other family and at this moment in time she is in the care of Social services. After her mother died Dr Jensen called me and I went and picked the girl up. I have known her for many years because she has been on our radar a few times. Before I took her to the group home I had organised we went back to the apartment, if you can even call it that, she shared with her mother and she picked up some clothes and personal belongings. While we were there I told her to grab any paper work such as her birth certificate, medial records that type of thing...when I looked everything over I saw that on her birth certificate that you are listed as her father Mr Grey"

The air leaves my lungs. Blood rushes to my ears and I feel faint.

Christian has another child. Oh my god.

He stands up beside me and goes on the defensive.

"Miss Anderson I assure you I never fathered a CHILD with Miss Williams! You are out of your fucking mind and I don't know what type of game you are playing but get the fuck out of my office right now" he points to the door and to her credit, she stays in her seat.

"Mr Grey I know that this will have come as a shock to you but after speaking to the girl she confirmed that her mother told her from an early age that you were her father...also she has a shocking resemblance to you. Obviously a DNA test would confirm it but..."

"GET OUT NOW!" He roars and this time she flinches.

"Christian SHUT UP!" I scream and he looks like I have just slapped him.

"Ana.."

"I said shut up Christian. Sit down...now Christian!" He glares at me for half a minute and then sits down.

"Miss Anderson...how old is the girl?" If she is less than 14 that means we were together and he possibly cheated on me. A thought that rips my heart in two.

"She has just turned 16 Mrs Grey...look this is so far out of my Job description and my boss doesn't even know that I am here. I could get fired for this because it goes against protocol but i promised Dr Jensen I would do everything I can for her, and that included telling you of her existence. Like i said I've known her for a few years and I feel this trip is best for her"

"What exactly do you want us to do with this information, Miss Anderson?' I ask her as I sit next to a now mute and white faced Christian.

"Mrs Grey from here on in that is up to you and Mr Grey. Unless we find a more permanent place for her by this Friday she will be placed in care as a ward of the state until she is 18..." She shifts around in her chair uncomfortably and then looks at us both.

"I told her I was going to call you and tell you about her and she told me not to. I didn't promise her because I knew I would not be able to keep it. She knows who you are and she wants nothing from you. When I told her that she could potentially have a new life with you and your family her words were...well let's just say colourful. The only reason I am here is because I know what the care system is like. Especially in the area of New York where she will be placed. It will swallow her up and spit her out. If she makes it to 18 with out getting hooked on drugs or selling her body it will be a miracle. The chances of her going to college are slim to none, even though she is a straight A student who has more musical talent in her little finger than most of today's chart toppers have in their whole bodies. I would never forgive myself if I had not informed you both...people who have the chance to alter that girls life for the better, that she existed" she stands up and places a file on the table In Front of us.

"In there are all my contact details and a short summary of the girl and her life so far... I have also included a picture. Like I said before, I could be fired for this and if I am, so be it. I have now done everything in my power to help her...the rest is up to you and her... Thank you for seeing me" she turns and leaves and just as she gets to the door Christian speaks.

"What is her name?" He whispers. She turns and smiles and I can see that she thinks a lot of the girl.

"Her full name, according to her birth certificate is Ella Lelia Grey, but she tells people to call her Ellie...she's a sweet girl Mr Grey...under her angry exterior and teenage attitude is a girl that anyone would be proud to call their daughter. I know I would be" with that she leaves shutting the door behind her.

Christian is sitting still as a statue on the sofa. I walk over and flip open the file finding a picture of an older version of my Phoebe. She is a beautiful girl. She has brown hair with bits of copper flecks. Her eyelashes fan out over her face and her eyes are a combination of grey and silver.

I dont need a DNA test to confirm in my heart what I know is true.

This girl, a female version of my husband, is his daughter.

"She's a beautifull girl, Christian. She looks just like you" I say softly while looking at the picture

"I don't care if she looks like fucking Grace Kelly, Anastasia. Throw the file in the bin and lets forget the last hour of our lives" he growls at me while pouring himself a whiskey.

He has done a lot of things in his life that has shocked me but not on the scale of this. This could be his child! How can he be so cruel to her? She's just a child! A child who has lost her mother.

"Christian she is your daughter! How can you just forget about her exisistance?"

"Phoebe Grace Grey, is my daughter! Isobel Katherine Grey, is my daughter and that..that..Girl! is nothing to do with me, or us or our family so just drop it Anastasia!"

"You heartless bastard!" I whisper at him and his head whips around to face me. He looks murderous.

"What did you just call me?" he asks menacingly but its been a long time since he scared me.

"I called you a heartless bastard. That girl, that CHILD has lost her mother and has no one and you just want to forget that she is alive?"

"What the fuck do you want me do Ana? Huh? If and its a big If, but If she is mine that means that I got another woman pregnant! another woman carried my child, now can you stand there and tell me that you are ok with that? That eventually it won't rip us apart because once again I have fucked up" he screams and throws his glass agaist the wall shattering it. Thank god the office is soundproof.

He is at his breaking point and I know that I have to be calm about this so I lower my voice and walk over to him taking his hand in mine.

"Does it gut me that you may have another child? Yes. I always loved the fact that I gave you your first child...but...She is just a girl Christian and if she is your's...we can't turn our backs on her"

He wraps me up in his arms and to my shock he starts crying. I lead him back over to the sofa and wrap my arms around him.

"I am so sorry Anastasia...please don't leave me baby, I know I have fucked up but I will make it right I swear, Don't be angry with me"

"Christian I'm not angry with you. If she would have been 13 or 14 and you cheated on me then I would be at home right now burning your clothes and throwing you out...but she was concieved years before i came on the scene. I know you had a past Christian but it's not that girls fault"

"Anastasia she can't be mine. She said that her name on the birth certificate named me as the father. My team would have picked up on that. They do regular checks for documents put in my name" he looks determined as he stands up and buzzes Andrea telling her to send in Barney.

I hope he is right but when I look at her picture again my heart sinks. She's the spitting image of Christian. How the fuck did Lelia manage to keep a child a secret from him? At the time she went on the rampage and held me at gun point she would have had a toddler. Where was the baby while she was slashing my Audis A3s tires?

Christians office door opens and Barney and Taylor walk in. Barney looks rumpled and I can already tell that he has had an ear full from Taylor. I have always liked Barney because he reminds me of me when I was in high school. Scruffy, uncoordinated and nerdy. Poor Barney.

"How the fuck can a woman list ME as her child's father and you not find out about it? Don't you do checks for documents in my name? " Christian sits at his desk while he calmly talks to Barney but everyone in the room right now knows Christian and we all know that when he is talking quietly, that's when he is most angry.

"Yes Sir I do but I have never done a birth registry check and nothing has ever pinged up with your name on any next of kin documents. The search is to check for corporate espionage, fraud and things of that nature. When Welch and I do the checks neither of us even thought to look at things of that nature" he adjusts his glasses and fidgets with his tie. Which now I look at it looks like he has just knotted around his neck.

"But you both do checks on my ex subs so tell me how in the EVER LOVING FUCK COULD IT ESCAPE YOU IDIOTS THAT ONE OF THEM HAD A GOD DAMN TEENAGER THAT SHE CLAIMS IS MINE!" He slams his fist down on the desk and Barney flinches. "Get out of my office and get out of my sight!" He snarls at Barney who quickly walks out the door.

"You obviously have something to say about this cluster fuck so just say it" Christian tells Taylor coldly. Of all of his employees Taylor is the most devoted that is why Christian is not screaming at him because he respects Jason Taylor too much.

"Miss Anderson didn't want to tell me why she was demanding a meeting with you but I told her that unless I knew, she wasn't getting in. She didn't say anything but she showed me a photo copy of the birth certificate. While you were talking to her Barney and I found out as much as possible about Miss Williams and the girl. It wasn't hard to get information on the girl because she has a record as long as my arm. She even spent a few weeks in juvenile detention last year" he pulls out a piece of paper from his jacket pocket and starts to read off what he has found out

"Ella Lelia Grey born on August 14th, age 16. She was born in Alabama, registered parents Lillian Lelia Williams and...Christian Trevelyan Grey. Multiple addresses over the years but mostly in the states of Illinois and New York. I know miss Anderson gave you a file with more details but a DNA test should be simple because like I said she has a record and I have your DNA on file for security purposes. I have a friend in the FBI who is discreet and will be able to get a result by tonight with your permission, Sir" we both look at Christian who has stayed silent throughout Taylor's whole speech.

If the results are negative then we go on our merry way but I know Christian will offer financial assistance to Ellie...but if they are positive...Christian has a daughter, I have a step daughter and our kids have a half sibling. That's life changing.

"I...I don't know what to do" Christian says softly and then looks at me "Anastasia you decide. If you want to do the DNA test and then contact Miss Anderson and go from there I am ok with that...but I am also ok with burning the file and never thinking of this situation again. Nothing is worth me losing you and our children and this...girl, will put a strain on our family so like I said. It's up to you, Anastasia" I know he is talking bull shit. I know him and even though he is saying that he will happily walk away I know that it would eat him up with guilt until he caved and did what he could for this girl anyway.

"Do it Taylor" I tell him and he nods and leaves. I walk over to Christian and sit on his lap. I don't blame him for any of this. He slept with other women before me and I knew this. The fact that one time out of probably thousands of times he had sex resulted in a child is not his fault. I know he was religious with birth control and condoms with his subs but just like when I got caught with Teddy, nothing is 100%

"What are we going to do if she's mine Ana?"

"We will cross that bridge when we get to it, Christian. But either way I want to help her. If she's not yours then the least we can do is make sure she is treated right and she gets fostered or adopted by nice people...if she is yours then we go to New York and meet with Miss Anderson and try to work something out. Ellie's welfare is the bigger priority" I say and then kiss his lips.

"Come on let's go home" I stand up and get my purse.

"Ana you have your meeting with Boyce in ten minutes. Go get your author signed up and then we will go" he tells me but I don't want to leave him.

"Come with me, bring your laptop and you can work from my office while I talk to Boyce. He won't mind and I don't want to leave you right now"

"I'm a big boy Anastasia, I will be ok for half an hour"

"Christian we are a team and even though you are trying to hide it I can see that you are in turmoil right now. We are in this together no matter what, ok?"

"God I'm so fucking lucky to have you"

"Yes you are, now come on" I grab my purse and Ellie's file off the table. I tuck the file into my purse and then Hold out the picture to Christian but he just shakes his head without looking at it.

I know he is holding back because he is afraid. Afraid to care, afraid to not care and afraid that I will leave him, which I never would. If he had cheated on me then, yes, I would leave his ass so fast he would not have time to think. I could never forgive him for cheating. Hard limit.

But this was while I was in my second year of college. I had not even heard of him then so no matter what, I will stand by his side.

I just hope he stays calm long enough for us to figure this out, but knowing Christian, he won't.