Okay everyone! This story here may seem a little bit angst. Probably because that's the way the song goes to me. Well, it does sound kind of bittersweet. Plus, I love this song! I hope this one's better than the first one! Enjoy!
Song: Red
Artist: Taylor Swift
Position: Sadly, it wasn't on the year end charts. It was somewhere on the weekly charts though.
Pairing: Honestly, I imagined this for Mikan and Natsume. However, it does work for any pairing. As long there's a boy in it.
Point Of View: Again, I imagined it with Mikan, but it could work with all characters. As long as it's a boy the person's paired with.
Red
A year. It's been a year since I last saw him. Still, I can't forget about him. My heart hurts every time I think of him. It's like he's still right there next to me. Like it feels so real.
Then, he disappears right when I try to touch him. Like glass shattering on the ground, I feel the pain in me.
I always see flashbacks of my memories with him. Like the time we rode his new Maserati down the empty streets of Japan. I would sing my favorite song while looking at him drive.
Who knew it wasn't going to last forever. That he would be gone so quickly. It was like everything in my world turned blue when I lost him.
Everytime we touched, I knew that he was everything in the world that I ever wanted. Who cares if I didn't have anything else? I would still have him.
Now, he's gone. What else in the world is there for me? Nothing. Nothing can replace him. He was special.
Sometimes, I even get the thought of killing myself. Then I wouldn't have to live in this misery. Still, I know he would be disappointed in me. I must make him proud.
Right now, it's autumn. My favorite season. You know why? Because it's the season I met him. It's also the season of our greatest memories. Sadly, it was also the season he left me.
Just like that, it turns to winter. Where everything loses its colors and becomes a depressing white. Just like the winter after he was gone.
Now I'm lonely and cold. It's like my world turned grey full of loneliness. How I wish he would come back and bring color into my world again.
Forgetting him is sure hard. I wonder when the day would come that I will. It could take forever. Or I might never forget him. He took my heart with him when he left. Now, forgetting him would be like trying to know a stranger I never met in my life.
Once in a while, I would hear his voice echoing in my mind. I would break down and sit there all day. Then when it was gone, I hoped it was still there so I wouldn't forget his voice. It wasn't like I was going to forget his voice anytime soon.
Maybe, the flashbacks and echos aren't that bad after all. I just wished I could go back to relive it. To somehow stop him from going away. If only I could.
Reality is sure cruel though. They throw him in my brain spinning and I can't get him out. It's like it's trying to shove reality in my face. Like I must except that he's gone.
I know he expects the same for me. He hopes that I could forget him and move on with my life. The problem is, where do I move on to? Is there a place for me other than him? If there is, I doubt I will ever find it.
I want to go back in time. To the time where he made my life lively. It was full of colors. Especially the color red. The color that represents his love. My favorite color since he came into my life. I wish he could make my world like that once again.
His love lasted long. However, when it was gone, it left faster than the wind could blow. All his kisses were passionate. So passionate that it could feel like a sin. As they end so quickly and suddenly. Like how we would always get interrupted or walked in on. I was always angry at the person who did. I wished I could kiss him longer. I can still feel the touch of his soft lips on mines.
I kind of wished I never wasted the time to fight with him. Maybe I would have been able to spend more time with him. The fights never got us anywhere. It was like solving a crossword puzzle. Then realizing that you're never going to find an answer for it since there are none.
Do I regret loving him? Of course I don't. He was my first crush. First love. First kiss. First everything. How could I regret that? He taught me how to love. He helped me see the world in a whole different direction when I needed it. He's the reason why I see the world the way it is today. I mean in a good way. If only he never left. Regretting that would be like wishing that I never fell in love or ever finding love. Since all the love was inside of him. The strongest love I could probably ever find.
My love for him would always change. But in a good way. Every second I would come to love him better and better. It was as fast as trying to change your mind when you're already free falling. It was also strong since you know that you can't. Like how you can't break our bond of love. If he was still here with me, he would love me very much.
Oh, how I wish he was still here with me right now. When people hear my story, they probably think there is still hope. However, I know there is none.
My love had died.
I'm pretty sure people thought he broke with her for another girl. You people are all wrong. He died, which makes the story more tragic. Hope this one is better than the first one. I can imagine the pain she's in though. :'( Please continue with giving me pairings and songs! Thanks!
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By the way, thanks for reviewing Vermilion Steps. I know it wasn't so detailed cause I had no idea what to write.
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