Chapter 2: With me
"You're staying here" Edward stated later that evening.
Bella lifted her head up from where it was resting on his chest and shook her head "But I never stay when we-"
Edward brought a gentle finger to her lips "Bella" he said softly "Do you really think we're going to keep going at this? I'm sure as hell not going to put you through that...and its not healthy for you either."
Her eyes prickled with tears "This is my fault" she whispered softly "I'm sorry"
"Hey" he said strongly "Look at me. This was not your fault. It wasn't your fault at all okay? I don't want to hear you say that again. Got it?"
Bella sniffled, pushing back her tears and nodded "Okay" she whispered
"Did you already go to the hospital and everything?" he asked gently, stroking her hair
Bella nodded against his chest "Yeah" She breathed out "It-I wish you were there but I thought you'd be so angry...and I was so embarrassed"
"I'm not mad at you Bella" he shook his head, placing a kiss to her hair "And there's nothing to be embarrassed about okay? What did they say..." he asked, subtly asking if there was any damage
"I'm fine for the most part. There was no extensive damage...and I'm free of STD's and all that" She said quietly
"Come on. Lets get to bed" Edward said after a few minutes, sitting up and slipping the covers over them. "You want me to sleep in the guest room tonight love?" he asked softly, seeing how scared she looked.
Bella shook her head and hugged him tightly, resting her head on his chest over his heart. "No." she said simply
He rested an arm around her shoulders and gently rubbed the skin there, hoping to lull her into a deep sleep, sighing when it didn't work and she was still wide awake almost an hour later. "Bella" Edward whispered, noticing the blank look she had in her eyes. She had been staring into nothing for the past hour, her hand rubbing gentle circles on his abdomen.
"Sleep Edward" she whispered hoarsely
"You need to sleep okay? Will you at least try?" he asked
"I cant" She shook her head "I just...I cant close my eyes. When I do, I-" She choked
"What's wrong love?"
"I feel him on me. I feel like...like its happening all over again. I don't want to feel that. I feel gross. I feel him breathing on me and oh god" She cried and he waited for her to calm down again, not knowing even remotely what to say to her
"I just feel like everything is falling apart" She whispered after a few minutes. "Like my whole life just...stopped and nothings going to be the same anymore. I want my life back Edward. I want it back"
"Bella" Edward said softly "Its okay to feel that way...what you've been through...its-" he paused trying to find the right words "unrelateable. for anyone, so its okay to feel out of place or scared but you know at the end of the day that I'm here for you. We are not giong to change. I will always be here for you, thats not going to change alright?"
"I don't know what i'd do without you Edward..." she breathed out
"Likewise sweetheart" He laughed breathily "Now. Close your eyes and just think of me...think of us. Pick a day...a memory, anything. Your favorite one" he said softly
Bella looked slightly hesitant for a few minutes but did as he asked, closing her eyes "I don't have just one favorite memory of you Edward" she whispered, opening them again a few seconds later
"Thats okay" he crooned "Start with the day you met me." he suggested
She nodded, closing her eyes again and picturing that very first time they set eyes on each other.
"Ugh" She groaned in pain as the nurse led her over to a gurney "Can I please go home now. I'm fine" she insisted, knowing what was wrong already. She was clumsy...this happened all the time
"I'm sorry dear, you might have a concussion" one of the nurses said "Just wait for the doctor to look at you okay? He should be in here in a few minutes"
"Great" Bella muttered, hating that she was in the ER for something so minor. ER doctors also had a tendency to be young medical interns who didn't know half of what they were doing and couldn't take blood properly. She probably still had the bruise from the last time one of them tried to draw blood from her.
About 20 minutes later, just as she was about to doze off she heard a voice. It was one of the most beautiful voices she had heard...so melodic...and caring.
"Try not to go to sleep, i'd like to check you out first" the voice said
Groaning in annoyance she opened her eyes to see a pair of amused green orbs staring back at her. "I know its tough, but you're probably okay. Just bear with me" he said with a small smile
Bella nodded, entranced by his abnormally god-like handsome features -----
"God-like handsome features Bella?" Edward laughed incredulously.
Bella blushed furiously, not knowing she had been speaking out loud "I siad that out loud?" she asked hesitantly
"You've been whispering the entire story. But its good. Please go on" he encouraged "I promise I wont interrupt again. I like hearing it"
---gorgeous. His bronze mussed hair looked like he had just rolled out of bed that morning, but it was perfect...he was tall and lean with gorgeous emerald eyes and perfect lips. He was an adonis of sorts.
"Miss Swan" she heard her name being called out, breaking her from her reverie
"Yes, I'm sorry" She said, trying to control her blush at being caught staring at him
"You alright? I might have misjudged...maybe you do need a head CT" he said slightly amused
"No no, I'm fine" she said quickly "I was just...distracted"
"Okay, follow my finger with your eyes for me" he said, moving his finger around to check her vision before writing something on the chart.
"Can you tell me your full name?" he asked
"Isabella Marie Swan" she answered
"Birthdate?"
"December 8, 19-"
Edward chuckled softly when her words started slurring and her breathing evened out a few seconds later. "Goodnight my love" he whispered, kissing her forehead and closing his eyes as well.
Edward groaned, craning his neck and stretching it trying to find a more comfortable position for it. He felt completely stiff, he hadn't moved all night because he was afraid of waking Bella. Groaning in pain, he opened his eyes slowly and looked down at her, surprised to find her staring back up at him with sad watery eyes.
"Hey....baby. What's wrong?" he whispered, forgetting about the pain he was feeling when he saw her.
Bella shrugged, her unshed tears cascading down her face as her lower lip trembled.
"Bella" He murmured "What is it?" he asked "Did you have a nightmare?"
She shook her head, her silent tears turning into quiet sobs "I'm really sorry Edward" she whimpered, pleading with her eyes.
Edward shook his head "No" he said gently "You don't have to be sorry sweetheart"
"I do" She choked "I love you so much"
He pressed a palm against her hair and held it to his chest "Bella listen to me. I love you
more than you know okay? So you don't have to be sorry, you don't have to feel guilty. I don't want you to. I am utterly and ridiculously in love with you. More than a person should be" he chuckled softly "There's nothing to be sorry about" he said simply
"I'm bleeding" he heard her whisper a few minutes later "Its why I woke up. They said everything was okay when I left...i don't get it."
"You're not supposed to be on your period?" he asked
"No" she breathed out "Not for another 3 weeks"
"Did they give you Emergency contraception?" He asked, cringing at how clinical he sounded
Bella nodded "Yeah. Plan B"
"Irregular bleeding is a side effect." he said softly "But I can take a look and make sure if you want" he rubbed her back gently
Bella's head snapped up to his "Edward..." she whispered while shaking her head "You...you-"
"Bella its me" he interrupted her "I would honestly like to, just to make sure they didn't miss anything. You know I don't trust anyone but myself" he smiled softly at her "But I understand if you're uncomfortable. Please don't let me push you okay? I want you to do whatever is best for you."
Bella smiled sadly at him "You're the best. you know that?" she whispered
"I've been told before" he joked playfully
"I don't mind you checking me out...but not now okay?" she asked quietly before hooking her arms through his and laying her head on his chest "Right now, i just want to lay here with my perfect fiance" she said making Edward crack a real smile
"Perfect huh?" he mumbled
"The most perfect" she whispered as his arms came around her
"I'm going to remember this when I forget to put the toilet seat back down or something" he joked
A/N: I dont exactly know where i'm going with this story yet...but its coming along :) Review with any ideas please!
