This is set in coa after jace and clary have the fight about jace wanting to be togeather only not telling anyone and right before her dream about simon and the dark wings covered in dripping blood. once again leave me some reviews please! let me know if you like my work. lemon i think will be the next one i will have a cog song fic next.
I'm dying to catch my breath
Oh why don't i ever learn
I've lost all my trust though i've surely tried to
Turn it around
Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
When you hold me in your embrace
i watched as jace closed the door with a slam. for the second time. what was i thinking why wouldnt he understand i wasnt trying to mean i was just trying to get him to understand that i didnt find it sick only that others if they ever found out would find it sick. how i wanted him, why couldnt he see that. my heart was pounding in my chest. come back out here jace see that im crying here for you to come back i screamed in my head. sure at first i tried to just forget about my feelings for jace, hell i am dating simon. shit well i was dating simon.i looked down at my phone one more time to see if i had put the phone on sleep mode but nope it was on loud why wasnt he calling me. this was all my fault. why did i have to want jace so badly. why couldnt he just come back out in to the room and hold me one more time. tell me that he wanted me one more time. i would try this time with a different approch and just tell him how much i want it to be just the two of us.
oh jace why cant you see the look on my face now. tears were streaming down like a waterfall now. i felt like my heart was bleading out through my eyes. come back i screamed in my head at the door. my eyes had not left the door hoping he would come back and i wanted to see him as soon as it opened. and then it happened!
Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don't tear me down
You've opened the door now
Don't let it close
the first thing i saw was his golden eyes a shining sunlight hair. my hart skipped a beat at the sight of him he was in just a towle and is hair was wet. he looked like and angel.
"clary" he looked at me with anger and worry "whats wrong, why are you crying"
he rushed to my side then. i couldnt hold anything back anymore i just flung my hands around his shoulders and sobbed on his chest.
"ja...ce I I'm so sorrry" i could barly get the words out i was crying so hard " I wa want nothiiing mmore then ittt to...be be us...please bebelive me" i sobbed harder would he hate me for being so indesisive.
"oh clary" he said and rapped his arms around me a brought me to the bed " i do belive you, and i want nothing but you as well."
as we sat there on the bed i couldnt stop crying i had finaly said what i need to to say. he just sat there is silence gently rubbing my shoulder when my sobs seemed to stop a little. and he would say over and over
"its ok clary ...calm down please"
when i finaly calmed down alittle i looked up to his golden eyes and saw that he had a tear in his eyes as well but was trying to not let it show. i also noticed at that moment when i looked up at him is body seemed to tense and my gaze. why did he think i couldnt see the realy him why did he try to hide it from me.
"jace" i said as calmly as i could " why are you crying"
"clary" he said in a soft voice and leaned over and gave me a gentle kiss on the mouth. for the second time to night my heart jumped for joy.
I'm here on the edge again
I wish I could let it go
I know that I'm only one step away
From turning around
Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
When you hold me in your embrace
as soon as his lips touched mine the world just seemed to fall away and all i could think about was him and his hand on my shoulder and his lips his soft sexy lips. i thought i was going to slip of the edge of the world i was in such pure bliss right now. i wanted so badly to just pull away. i knew that if i let this contenued i would pay for it in the morning when i had to go back to reality. but i didnt want to but i just couldnt do it.
as soon as that thought ran through my mind as if he could read it he stoped and pulled slightly away . he put his forhead up against mine and said one simple word.
"clary"
his voice was strained i could tell he wanted to cry now just as much as i did. why did this have to be happening to us . all we both wanted was to be togeather. how could that be if we were if we were i couldnt even think the word sister and brother in the same sentance.
he pulled away slightly to look me straight in the eye he grabed me with much more force and knocked me back onto the be to were i was know laying down he laid down with me. and just stroked my hair.
Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don't tear it down
What's left of me
Make my heart a better place
I've tried many times but nothing was real
Make it fade away
Don't tear me down
I want to believe that this is for real
Save me from my fear
Don't tear me down
as we lay there togeather on his bed. looking into each others eyes both of are hands lost in the other ones curls. time just seemed to stand still. both of us had seemed to calm down though you could tell by our eyes that we had tears streaming up behind out eyes. he leaned down over me and swiped a stray bang away from my eyes i closed my eyes enjoying his touch. and hurd his lips in my ear say.
"Clary sleep im not going anywere tonight. you look exsausted, prolly because all of that crying you did!"
i could tell he was smiling so i smiled back. and got into a more comfortable possestion curled up next to him laying on his chest. he rapped his arm around me and kissed my forhead. with that my heart skipped a beat. with my eyes still closed i just had to ask him one question befor i fell asleep witch wasnt to far off.
"jace please tell me why you were crying"
his body tightened again. but answered " i was crying clary because it pains me to see you so hurt. and knowing that i sort of made you cry. well ...clary that just tore me apart. now hush and sleep"
and with that i fell into a restless sleep filled with dreams!
