Derek was anxious to get to his & Penelope's home. He was only two minutes away but he kept calling the house phone & Pen's cell phone, but of course no answer he was panicking and he knew he should slow down but he just had to get home.
Pulling up.. He thought about what he was expecting. That some crazed unsub had kidnapped her? Or that she just decided that he had hurt her for the last time. Neither scenario appealed to him. Loosing her means loosing everything.
Putting his key in the lock, he barelled thru the door.
The living room was completely empty, and the whole house was errily quiet. His heart started racing.
"Baby girl" derek called out willing his voice to sound normal.
No answer.
After looking in the kitchen, laundry room, and down stairs bathroom coming up with nothing he headed up stairs calling out for her once again.
"Pen... Baby... Please tell me your home!"
No answer.
He glanced into the three bedrooms in the begining of the long hallway, that seemed even longer today.
Reaching the end of the hall, he rested his fore head against the master suites door, he and Pen shared... He did something he found himself doing a lot when it came to his girl. He prayed to god. He prayed to god his girl was on the other side of this door.
His heart completely sank. Penelope was not in their room. He tried telling himself this doesnt mean anything she could just be at a friends, or the store or something.
But he knew that wasnt the case. He could just feel it. There was a different ora in the house. A lonely one.
His cell phone rang on his work belt and he all but dropped it trying to answer it as quickly as possible not even looking to see who it was.
"BABY GIRL!" he exclaimed to the caller.
"Derek, it's Hotch. I'm guessing Penelope's not home either?" hotch asked sounded rather sad for his fellow agent. But not surprised.
Derek didnt think his heart could take anymore disapointment. He just kept pacing his house rubbing his bald head back and fourth.
"What do you mean either Hotch? And no she's not here and neither is her car."
"Derek, Penelope's resignation is in my hand as we speak. I knew she wasnt feeling well but I didnt thjnk things were this bad. Whats going on Derek?" Hotch demanded.
"Wha... What do you mean her resignation? That cant be right Hotch! Cant you deny it? Yeah, Hotch deny it make sure it falls thru and make her come back to me!" derek was shocked by the new revelation he wasnt thinking straight. He made his way back to their bed room needing to find something of hers he could hold. Something that had her sweet smell lingering on it.
"Derek, i dont have that authority and you know it. She went over my head. Im going to talk to Strauss see what she knows. You look around your home for any sign of where she could have gone. Oh... And Derek? ...be prepared to tell me what you've done to upset my best tech analzyst!" Hotch hung up eager for answers from Strauss before Derek had the chance to respond.
Derek quickly realized Pen's belongings were not in their usual spots. He went towards their bed to grab her pillow when he noticed a piece a paper with something shiny on top of it.
He realized the shiny thing was the promise ring he had bought for his baby girl back when he was to big of a coward to propose to her.
Seeing she left the ring behind brought tears to his eyes.
He sat down on the bed, tears streeming down his handsome face, and began reading the letter.
Derek,
Im sorry handsome. Im sorry I couldn't make you happy. Im sorry I frustrate you. Im sorry that up until today, you've been settling for less by being with me. Im just sorry for everything. I had to leave because your to good of a man to just flat out tell me, that i've failed you. Don't worry about me hot stuff... I'll be okay. Remember I was living all by my lonesome before the man snatched me up. Please don't waste your time looking for me... I made it pretty much impossible. I sent each team member a letter via email, i'll miss all of you so much. You the most but don't tell the team i said that;) I just want you to know that me leaving, has nothing to do with not loving you.
I still and probaly always will love you to pieces Der. But I have a big reason to try and move on. I hope you move on also and find that woman that can make you happy. I pray you stay safe and have a wonderful life.
Yours truly,
PG
Derek was in complete shock. Tears flew freely down his face, his whole body was shaking.
He made the love of his life feel that way? She had it all wrong, he needed her more than he needed his next breath. The thought of never seeing his girl again was not an option in his world.
He had so much planned for their future. Marriage, babies, design their own home, and so much more. But now he royaly fucked up. He waited to damn long to show his girl how much she means to him and now he's lost her.
"No!" Derek stated out loud.
"I'll find her! I'll bring her home! I won't loose my girl!" he reassured himself.
He started searching their bedroom for any clues of where she went.
He was only fooling himself. If his baby girl didn't want to be found, she wouldn't be. That's what scares him the most.
A/n: want more? Tell me wat u would like to see happen next. Thanks for all your beautiful reviews! P.s. I havent forgotten about my other two stories, no worries;) i just HAD to write this one down, it wouldnt leave me alone! Lol ill have some updates on the other stories as well as this one, by the weeks end! Thank you!
