And hey! Welcome back! Chapter 2 is here! :3
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It really makes me want to finish this story, along with my other fic 'Gone'. And so I'll try and update the two on a rotating schedule!
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Things not what they used to be
He had felt wrong for a while, seeing Penny with other people, who was he kidding, it still did, that'd been what sent him over the edge.
~Flashback~: As Leonard had walked out to go and grab his mail, he had seen a man quietly tiptoe out of her apartment, he winked at Leonard, and mouthed something about Penny to him, but he didn't see what the words were, the veil of seething rage was already covering his eyes. He waited until the man was out of sight before barging into Penny's apartment. The place had been a tip, with clothes scattered around, chairs knocked over and empty bottles littered everywhere. He viewed the whole room, before his eyes settled on her, making a cup of coffee. She must have heard him because she spun around, inquiring for a 'Danny'. Obviously the man she had slept with the previous night.
'Oh, Leonard, it's just you. Hi, what're you doing here?' She asked, seemingly genuinely intrigued.
His voice barely came out at over a whisper, but not because he was nervous of the woman standing in front of him, but because he knew that if he had tried to speak normally he would've screamed bloody murder. With clenched teeth he replied:
'It's been less than three weeks, Penny. And you're already sleeping around.' You know, just because I couldn't give you everything physically, I'll be the only one for a while that didn't just use you.'
Her eyes became thin, and her lips turned into a vicious snarl.
'Danny and I are very close, and I plan on seeing him for a very long time!' Her voice became gradually higher, and Leonard saw her become shakier, just one retort and he would've made his point.
'Is that why he just walked out of here, trying not to alert you? Is that why he winked at me as he left? Is that why you seemed almost shocked when you heard the door open?' He didn't wait for a response, he had no tolerance left to deal with immaturity, and he couldn't take another second of heartbreak from the woman he loved either.
~Flashback end~
Leonard winced, slightly from the pressure being applied to his gut, but mainly because of the regret of what he had said to Penny, maybe, just maybe if he had waited, they could've made up, but his pride had gotten the better of him, and he had ran, ran from the hellish realm of the living.
Missing one inside of me
Without Penny, Leonard knew that a part of him had died before even before he'd lifted the blade to his body. They had become inseparable at one point, and as much as everyone else had hated it, Penny had taken great pleasure in just embracing Leonard, sometimes for hours. He hadn't been just vying for one night with her, he was in it for the long haul, and he had tried to show her many a time that he had meant it.
He once again remembered their first Christmas together. After they had exchanged gifts, Penny had wanted to bake cookies with Leonard, and after they had put them in the oven they'd decided to watch Christmas TV, to try and pass the time. The bliss had been beautiful, until they'd heard the explosion from the other side of the room, in unison they had jumped from the couch to see what had happened, and after seeing the remainder of the cookies all over the oven door they had collapsed in one another's arms, in fits of hysterical laughter and tears.
Leonard laughed to himself. It was the first time he had in weeks, for just a moment everything that had happened was forgotten, as the 'Ghost of Christmas Past' had just delivered an enjoyable haunting. But the warmth within him soon seeped out as more of reality hit him. It was too late now, he had already killed himself, and that meant he lost all the perks that had come with life, including the best one, Penny.
Deathly lost this can't be real
Can't stand this Hell I feel;
Leonard knew very well that what he was doing was irreversible, but he had seen no other way out. He didn't expect anyone else to understand, why would they? It was just a girl. He just hoped that maybe they'd see the truth when they found his note.
Leonard let himself wander within his thoughts, as if they were a never-ending labyrinth of confusion and newfound anger. He found himself feeling more and more ashamed at his actions, and how selfish they'd been. He was going to leave everyone he'd ever cared about behind, Sheldon wouldn't have a personal whipping boy 24/7, Howard and Raj wouldn't have as much normality when visiting 4A, and Penny, oh sweet Penny, she'd be left probably thinking this was because of her, and even though that was the excuse to do it, so many things had happened, she was realising him from his torture right? But the guilt still crashed over him, leaving him almost in tears. Without consideration for his six best friends, he decided to leave them, confused as to why. His breath was becoming shallower. 'Not long now' He thought to himself.
But Leonard didn't want to die, there was so much he needed to say, so much he wanted to do.
But he couldn't do anything about it anymore.
Emptiness is filling me
As blood oozed from his wound, Leonard's world was becoming black around him, but the loss of the ruby liquid from his stomach was being replaced by a hollow and helpless feeling that had already swarmed the majority of Leonard's brain.
To the point of agony
Leonard could still hear voices, concerned but calm voices, no doubt doctors, and he could also still see the bright lights, but this time they were the hanging bulbs on the hospitals ceiling. The scientific part of Leonard wondered how he could've survived this long; the loss of blood should've been too great for a man as physically unable as Leonard. But the dreamer inside of him knew that it was her keeping him alive, whether or not it was right, was another story, but the thought of her dimmed the excruciating pain, and kept him away from the brink of crying out.
Growing darkness taking dawn
An aura of weakness fell around Leonard. Blackness crept around the corner of his eyes, leaving the world fuzzy to his partial vision. He could make out a faint feeling upon his face, no doubt it was anaesthetic. He felt his breathing become slower, less shallow, and calmer.
I was me, but now he's gone
But, as he gave into the drugs that were being pumped around his body, Leonard couldn't help but feel that he'd never wake up.
He screamed Penny's name into the universe, but no one heard him. He was gone.
Aww yus, ending it on a cliffhanger :3 Leaving you hanging around! I'm sorry! I promise I'll be back soon with the next update! :D
