Bella
Cold hands. Red eyes. The cold hands holding me tight. Sharp teeth snapping in my face, the red eyes dilated, one hand forces my head to one side, my body's in chills, he's too strong like a cement block around me.
Suddenly hot hands are replacing the cool ones, but there is no relief as they slide under my shirt.
"Bells?" Jacob asks in a husky voice.
His long frame is pressed against my back. I feel stirring of him against my thigh.
When I had first met Jake, I had been stunned by his height, now it just seemed ridiculous how his erection would press into my thigh.
My stomach knots as I chew my lip, maybe if I pretend I'm still asleep…
"I know you're awake, you breathing is too shallow." His voice sounds hurt.
I turn over slowly taking his hands from beneath my shirt and placing them back by his side.
"I can't. Please." My voice is a whisper. It's hoarse from the terror of the nightmare that I don't tell my husband about.
"I thought you wanted a baby. Bella, babies aren't miracles, they take…" Once again his hot hands were trying to excite me… and failed.
"I don't know what I want." My voice is too quiet for him to hear, as I pull further away from him in our shared bed.
"What did you say Bells?" There is genuine concern in Jake's voice.
I shut my eyes, fighting against his hurt, and slight bitterness. But I've tried to force myself too many times. And tonight I just can't.
"No baby tonight Jake." I hope my voice has enough finality.
Hearing Jake take a deep breath in, I feel his body turn away from me. I feel relief at the cool air suddenly on my skin, replacing his hot russet skin. Suddenly I can breathe again.
A/N : Soon we will be heading from out of the darkness and into the light.
Special thank you to those who put me on alert. The chapters are short, but the updates will be quick.
