Dear Diary,
After I broke up with him, Eddie seemed like it didn't matter. Like I didn't matter. I'm starting to get depressed. I feel like I shouldn't be alive or something. Like no body cares about me. I did date this guy a month after Eddie, but after a week he started to pressure me…for things I'm just not ready for…. I don't know what to do. Now it seems like Mia is coming on to Eddie. I wish you could tell me what to do….
-Rose
I set down my diary as the door bell rang. I invited Natalie over to hang out to get my mind off things. We went into the lounge with Lissa to watch movies. We watched The Vow, 21 Jump Street, and Magic Mike. We call these our 'Tatum Night', they usually make us get ourselves together…I mean, those abs.
After they left I called Mia to see what was going on with Eddie.
"Hey, Rose?"
"Mia, do you talk to Eddie?"
"Sometimes, why?"
"Do you think he cared that we broke up?"
"Rose, your really just need to get over that."
"I can't if youre trying to get with him!" I started to raise my voice.
"Excuse me? Youre the one who broke up with him, you cant control him anymore, Rose!"
"What the hell, Mia! You are such a slut." I slammed my phone shut, surprised at my own words. I don't know whats going on with me, I barely cuss, never at my friends.
I can't take this anymore, Im losing my friends and lost the best guy in my life…. I went into my bathroom and grabbed my razor. I slightly pulled down the top of my pants and made seventeen streaks across my thigh, letting out a breath of relief as I did.
Ive been cutting since seventh grade. I cant help it…I fell relieved after it. Like it solved all my problems. Though I know it didn't, it occupies me for a little while. I took another deep breath then stood up. I walked to my room, to my bed and fell asleep, not feeling so horrible.
When I woke up the top of my leg was sore. I jumped in the shower to get ready for school. It's January seventh and we are just getting back from Christmas break. I put on my dark skinny jeans with a school sweatshirt. This school has a dress code: polos, sweatshirts, khakis, and jeans only. It really sucks.
When I got to school I see Mia hanging onto Eddies arm. She looks at me and winks, turns to him and kissed him on the cheek. I so don't need her shit.
"Hey Kelsey!" Natalie calls down the hall.
"Yeah?" I ask.
"Sooo, me and some friends are going to the mall on Friday, wanna come?"
"Uhmm, sure. Who's going?"
"Me, Jesse, Lissa, and this guy Adrian. He is sooo hot. Youll totally fall for him." She said with a wink.
"Oh, great…" I told her as the bell rang and she ran off. "Just what I need…" I mumbled to myself.
I know its short, but I don't have readers right now so im just letting these few chapters, It will get MUCH more interesting with Adrian in the picture. I promise ;) KEEP READING AND REVIEWWWW!
