Previously...

Once she was is his room, Damon wasn't there, only neat and tidy bed and some books nearby. Well, everything just left like before, but something caught her attention. It slipped between the drawer, so she took it. She opened the envelope and read it. She couldn't believe what she read, her eyes started burning.


Soon she checked on his dresser. It was all gone, there was nothing left there

Did he plan it without telling everyone?

The night after he compelled her to forget, he went to the bar and met his buddy, Alaric, there.

"Man, you can't just show up like that, I might have a heart attack"

"Come on, it's the fun part to be a vampire.."

"Well, and I'm not"

"You want me to turn you?"

"You're an ass!"

Damon just smirked and ordered some drink.

"Come on, I'll treat you tonight.." He announced to Ric.

"O-kay, what's the occasion this time?"

"Nothing, I just wanna do it, why? " he offered a glass to Ric "You should drink this before I changed my mind"

"Ok, hey, I want to thank you for saving Elena, if you weren't there, I had no idea what would have happened"

"Sure, to Elena then"

"to the bright future of her"

and they drank it.

Few minutes later, Damon started to drunk, but Ric stayed sober as possible 'cauze he knew Damon would be in this condition.

"You wanna know a very funny thing, Ric? I, Damon Salvatore, is in love with the woman I can never have. When I loved Katherine, I gave everything to her, but I was so young, so naive, sooo stupid and I died trying to save her, turns out..." He grabbed his 12th glass "You know the rest, I spend hundred years to find her and she wasn't even there for the whole time, she didn't want me, she said it was always Stefan, Stefan and Stefan, why am I not good enough? Why?"

" Damon, you should go back, you drink enough, come on, let's take you home"

"No, no, no, shhh, I'm not finish yet... And then she came, she made me care, I hate being care! She..she made me want to be a better man, but I can't! 'Cauze that's not who I am! I'm bad and I like it, but she... she ruined everything! Why should she care? I don't want to care!"

Ric listened to him and he knew who was he talking about.

"Being care is not in me, it's Stefan, just like father that cared about him allll the time, the golden boy who always gets everything! But you know what, I don't mind being the bad guy as long as she stays safe, I don't care if she hates me in the end, I'd die for her but I can't see them playing two love birds right in front of my eyes, it hurts my undead heart, you know.." he said as he hit his chest. "It hurts too much but I'll handle it anyway, as long as she's safe, I'd do anything, she'd be the death of me, but shhh... you can' t tell this to anyone, this is between you and me, okaaii... " He put the glass down and continued but this time it was like a whisper

"Am I not enough? Don't I deserve a happy ending? I want to move on but I can't, because I care about her too much and I know it's killing me, what should I do?"

Alaric just realized that Damon Salvatore, the big bad ass vampire was sobbing right in front of him. If this was not the most painful one, he wouldn't be like this, he thought. Somehow Ric understand what he felt, being in love with the girl who's in love with his brother, that must be hard for Damon, but he was always the selfless one.

"You should go home, Damon"

Alaric knew he was so drunk but he never thought that he would tell him something like that. He knew that Damon cared for Elena and he could see it from the moment Damon forbid her to come when they have to rescue Stefan from the tomb vamps.

"Rite, I will go home now, I will try to move on..."


Present...

She panicked and ran downstairs, hoping that she'd find him before it's too late.

"Where you goin'?" it was Ric who just came.

"Uhh, out, I need to find Damon, do you have any idea where he might be?"

"No, Elena, I don't" he paused. "Let him go, Elena, maybe it's best for him"

"Why, he should stay here, he can't just go like that!"

"Don't you think he tried to? Isn't it obvious that he also loves you?" Elena frozen hearing that, her real mother also told her the same but she never thought that it was real.

"You have Stefan, Elena, let him move on. He can't stand to watch the woman he loves, loves someone else who is still his brother. He's got enough pain..."

"So if you really care about him, you should let him go, you know it's best for him"

She couldn't stand to hear it, all he said was true. She's been torturing him for all this time and she didn't even care. She forced him to watch them acting like a happy couple in the world right in front of him and now he couldn't stand it anymore. How could she be so stupid?

"Unless, you sure about who you choose"

Why do I feel like I can't breath? Why do I feel this pain when he's not here? But why should I care?

Because deep down inside, you know who you really love, that's why it hurts knowing that he will let you go, forever


So, that's the 2nd part of the story, and the next one we'll have extra childhood story of the brothers, please let me know what's on your mind about this chapter!

I do really hope you enjoy it! :)

Thank you!