buckys POV

"look at what i have become, an assassin that has killed a lot of people, how am i supposed to be back to normal? People will never look at me the same, they will always look at me like a killer." when i said that steve looked at me with and said " its not your fault that you killed all those people, its HYDRA's fault, they brainwashed you and made you kill them, so dont blame yourself"

when he said that i just nodded and walked away towards the living room" look i have no place to go, so can i stay here?" i asked him

" sure, you can stay as long as you need to, you can sleep on the couch." he said to me

i nodded and sat down " so what all do you remember" he asked me

"i remember me and you on a train and then i fell off and you were there screaming, and i also remember me and you talking to each other" i said looking at him.

"well i guess thats a good start, see you in the morning" he said walking towards his room. the rest of the night i barely got any sleep because all these memories came flooding into my mind.

i woke up to the sound of something in the kitchen. i got up and walked in the kitchen to see that Steve was making something " what are you making" i asked him

"breakfast" he replied " do you want any coffee?" he asked me

"sure" i replied, i couldn't really remember because all of my memories about my past were erased so i couldn't remember what i liked. when Steve was done cooking me and him sat down at the table and ate in an awkward silence

" so.. what do you wanna do today " steve asked me.

i shrugged my shoulders " i don't know, i was actually hoping to just stay here today" i told him right when his phone started ringing

" hello " he said "okay i will be there" then hung up the phone " well it looks like i have to go on a mission" he said to me

" how long will you be gone " i asked him

"i should be back tonight" he said to me

"what if hydra finds me" i asked him worrying. Steve walked over to me and put a hand on my shoulder " trust me they're not going to find you." i just nodded and said okay

" see you later" he said and went walked out the door and closed it behind him. i sighed and got up and walked into the living room and sat in silence trying to remember things.

Steve has been gone for a few hours now so i just decided to watch tv, but then i heard a noise from the back of the apartment, so i went to go see what it was and then someone jumped out of a closet and tried to tackle but instead i turned around real quick and punched him taking him to the ground. " WHO ARE YOU " i yelled at him

" who are you" i asked again but he still didnt answer

he was shaking and said " HYDRA, i..im a hydra agent"

" why are you here" i asked him and he didn't answer me so i yelled at him "WHY ARE YOU HERE"

"they sent me here to get you" he said trembling in fear

" How did they know i was here" i asked him and he looked at me with a fearful look and said " they have been following you for a while, they were waiting for the perfect time to get you. they seen Captain america leave so they sent me in to get you." he told me. i made him stand up and stay where he was. i went to the front window and looked outside there was a black car that pulled up as soon as i looked out the window. i kept watching and they walked up to the door with their guns ready. i heard them outside the door. so i quietly went to the window near the back of the apartment and climbed out it before they came in. i went on the roof and stayed up there util they left. when i went back down in the house they were gone. i stood by the door with my gun in my hand util steve came in the door. i was about to attack him when i noticed it was him.

" woah, whats going on Bucky" he asked me

" its hydra they found me, they came here today but i got out before they could get me." steve looked at me and said

"well, we are going to have to keep a good look out for them" he said

i looked at Steve and said "if they come here again i'm gonna kill them" i was starting to feel my anger rise in me but i soon calmed down so i wouldn't get out of control

" why didn't you kill them when they were here" steve asked me

" i don't know" i said.

" so what did you do while i was away on a mission" he asked me trying to change the subject.

" i just sat around and watched some tv" i said

" did you remember anything" he asked me

" no." i said, the next i know i heard a loud noise and a lot of people wearing black suits and holding guns came in and said " stop where you are and get down on the ground" i looked at Steve and he nodded at me. i punched this guy in the face and took his gun and Steve was fighting these others guys with his shield. i shot the last guy in the leg and he fell to ground.

" we need to get out of here now" i said in a serious tone.

" i know a place we can go. Its in New York." Steve said to me.

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