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APOV
Chapter 2

Jasper whipped around at the sound of her voice and I saw what she had meant.

Crisscrossed across the back of Jasper's arms and his back were scars, all of different sizes. The biggest one went from the top of his shoulder blade diagonally down and ended about the middle of his back. All of the scars were fairly old looking, but I could see why he might be a little self-conscious about it.

"Jasper, what happened to you?" I re-asked Bella's earlier question.

"Nothing, I don't talk about it." His jaw was set. He climbed out of the pool and took the towel Esme offered him with a nod of his head. He quickly dried himself off and grabbed his shirt from where it lay at his feet. He hung the towel over the pool fence and walked around the side of the house to the front. Moments later we heard his Ducati speed off down the street.

I looked around at everyone else, Emmett was looking ashamed of himself, Rosalie and Bella were looking horrified, Edward looked stunned and Carlisle and Esme looked shocked.

"I should go." I said, getting out of the pool.

"Please, sweetheart," said Esme "take some food for the both of you?"

I couldn't deny my wonderful, caring, adoptive mother anything. "Sure mum."

She quickly wrapped some food up while I slipped my dress over my head. Esme passed the food to me and I gave her a quick hug, "Bye Mum." I whispered to her, "Bye everyone." I said to everyone else. There was murmured good byes all round. I started around the side to the front when I heard Emmett call out to me. I stopped so he could talk.

"Ali, tell Jasper I'm sorry, would you? He obviously wouldn't be too happy with me, and I guess it is my fault." I'd never seen Emmett look this down. He looked like he had just committed a federal offense or something. Actually, worse, Emmett probably wouldn't care about breaking some silly law. But he still looked very ashamed of himself, and I didn't like seeing my big brother this way.

"Sure Em." I have him a hug and then hurried to my Porsche. I hoped Jasper had gone home; otherwise I have no idea where to look for him. I drove as fast as I could and made it home in record time. When I saw that Jasper's Ducati was in our shared garage, I breathed a sigh of relief.

I unlocked the door to our apartment and walked inside, dropping my house and car keys into a little bowl on a table beside the door. As I had expected there was loud music coming from Jaspers room. So I went up and banged on the locked door.

"Jasper? Can I come in?" I tried the door handle softly, it was locked.

"I'd rather you didn't." he said. I pulled out one of the many bobby pins holding my hair up, and began to jimmy the lock. Finally, I heard it click and I opened the door. Jasper was lying on his back on the bed staring blankly at the ceiling.

I moved slowly to the bed in the middle of the room, and eased myself onto it. I sat cross-legged on the side and looked at Jasper.

"Jasper, what happened?" I asked. He sat up, I thought he was going to tell me to get out and mind my own business, but instead he looked at me.

"I'm afraid you'll think I'm stupid for being embarrassed by it." He said at last.

I held my right hand up, "I promise not to think anything until you tell me to." I promised. I could see the debate going on in his head. Finally, he realized that he'd have to tell me sooner or later, and that it might as well be sooner.

He sighed. "Well, you know how I was adopted right?"

"Yeah, like me."

"Yeah, but unlike you, I didn't like my foster family at all. Or my 'siblings'. Anyway, I was sixteen and my brothers and sisters hated me, and I them. They always treated me like I was a waste of space and used to tell me I should jump off a cliff and all that. Mike told me one weekend that I should just go die, because then everyone would be much happier."

I shuddered, Mike was a year older than Jasper, and I had dated him for a few months until I realized how arrogant and self-centered he was. Jasper went on,

"So I tried to kill myself… I jumped out a window and fell into a glass table on our patio."

I just sat there, that was so horrible!

"I just felt weak afterwards for trying to take the easy way out and for letting him get to me." He sighed "Feel free to think I'm stupid now." Jasper stated. He hung his head.

I moved closer to him, and lifted his head up, looking into his blue eyes. "I don't think, you're stupid." I said.

"Alice, would you mind just leaving me alone for a while please?" I nodded and gave him a quick hug before leaving his room and shutting the door quietly. I ambled slowly into my room and lay down on my bed. I though about what Jasper had said. I knew from experience that Mike wasn't a nice guy, but for him to tell someone to just go die, was harsh, even for him.

Jasper had said that this had happened when he was sixteen, I had met him when he was fifteen…I jerked into a sitting position. I began to connect the dots, the long absence from school, the strange behavior, ignoring everyone, and how his siblings suddenly began to avoid him… he had tried to kill himself and I hadn't even noticed! I catapulted myself off my bed and straight back into Jaspers room, not bothering to knock, I wanted answers.


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