NOTE: Takes place right after last chapter. Is it bad I cried while writing this?


I lay in bed alone.

Let me clarify, I lay in my dead best friends bed, while my wife who cheated on me is in my bed.

I can't believe I just did that. I just had sex with her, I mauled her.

I just… I don't even know what happened. Something inside of me just snapped. It snapped and I had sex with her.

I can hear her crying.

God why do I do this to her? Why do I do this to myself?

"Calliope?"

I jump, looking to the voice.

She's in my room.

She's here, crying.

God she's beautiful, her eyes are red, her nose is pink, it makes her eyes pop. Crying makes her eyes turn a shade lighter anyways.

She moves into bed with me.

I move away, as if she is about to put a bug on me.

"Just," she hick ups, "please hold me. Just for tonight. Just please hold me," she whimpers.

I can't do this. I can't turn away. I just, I can't let her cry all alone.

"Okay," I whisper.

With that one word she rushes at me. She wraps her arms around my waist and burys her head into my shoulder.

I can feel her shake with tears, I can feel the wetness of her tears soaking my shirt.

I can't help it.

I wrap my arms around her, holding her close.

"You hate me. I'm so sorry I made you hate me," she mumbles.

I can feel my heart break, real pain in my chest.

"I don't hate you Arizona," I whisper before pressing a kiss to the side of her forehead.

"I hate me,"

The tears come faster and harder now. I don't know what to do. My wife, my strong Arizona who is always 'awesome' and perky isn't here anymore.

"I'm so sorry," she sobs into me, her grip tightening, as if it could take away all she's done.

"Shh, close your eyes baby," I whisper, running my fingers through her hair.

I wait for a long time, just running my fingers through her hair.

She's stopped crying. She's breathing normally.

I sigh, she's asleep.

"I love you," she whispers, turning her head and meeting my eyes.

I can't lie to her. I can't do it right now.

"I love you too," I whisper.

She nods, places a kiss on my neck then gets out of the bed.

She disappears without another word, back to our bed, leaving me alone once more.