This chapter is gonna be sad because there is gonna be a shocking secret uncovered and i wonder what?!
i don't know you'll have to read it for your self mwuahahaha.
K peoples moving on with this chapter...
So I Don't Own Twilight or Any of the Characters, it's all Stephenie Meyers.
BPOV-
I awoke from the nights rest to that stupid alarm.
I try ed to look at it with my sleepy haze, I growled viciously at it.
"5:30 a.m., Are you serious!" I slapped at it viciously until I heard it fall hard to the floor with a loud thump.
"Great only thing waking me up, and it brakes" I sat up way too fast for my liking "Whoa light headed" I sat down, feeling a little woozy from last night.
"Flashback"
'I came home slightly irritated 'Pshaw it was like this 'Edward' character had effects on me'
I slammed my backpack slightly too hard causing the plate and the knife to crash and hit the floor.
"Oh great 2nd day and I break something, My clumsy traits are acting up" I inwardly sneered.
I eyed the biggest piece of porcelain warily, 'that would feel so good cut-shh! stop...thinking like that is why your here in the first place!'
I sobbed a bit thinking about that horrible moment in my past, I shook my head and cleared my thoughts.
Positive thinking Bella. I straightened up my posture, breathed in and out, and put on the the best 'thinking positive' smile i could.
I picked up the pieces one by one putting them in the trash can.
When it came back to getting the knife I stood there warily just starring at it.
I gave in and reached for it, putting it directly to my wrist to slowly steady it right on my last scar.
I gave a sharp intake of breath when the pain came and sighed with the great relief it gave me.
I reached for the nearest towel and wrapped it around my cut carefully and put the knife in the sink, then washed it with my one free hand.
Realization crept up into my head in that instant "Oh no, I just did something I wasn't supposed to do"
I sobbed hopelessly, turned the tap off and dragged myself up to my room.
As i lay ed there crying there, in my bed, with loud sobs i was thinking 'Oh no what would Rene think if she knew'.
To think I even promised her I would try my best at a new fresh life.
So i just cried and cried until they turned into quiet tearless sobs and I fell asleep.'
"End of Flashback"
I shook my head to clear my thoughts 'From now on try your best to not come close to sharp objects' I lectured to myself.
"Uhggg!" I said loudly, remembering I had to go to school today, getting off my comfortable bed to get dressed.
When I was done I did a quick intake in the mirror once making sure the sleeve covered my wrist enough.
I took a deep breath in and out, I hopelessly looked down at my wrist and noticed it had healed a bit.
I gently took a quick caress, my breath hitched a little when i noticed the sting it caused.
So i decided to get the gauze wrap and put it around my wrist carefully 'That should cover it up, I'll just say I slipped trying to get ot of my car or something'.
Hopefully that would remind everyone of my clumsiness.
I walked down the stairs warily feeling a little light headed.
I walked straight to the door, with a granola bar in my hand.
"Well here goes nothing" i said as I opened the door and walked out...
'O.M.G could that be...' I blinked mindlessly, I saw the one face I thought I would never see again.
I know right short update & sadness going on right?
WRONG! because to your greatest relief or dismay this is probably the most angsty I'll get or else
I'll depress myself and everyone too much so...
Reviews are better then Painful Flashbacks.
