IM NOT THAT GIRL I USE TO BE
I DON'T OWN ANY TWILIGHT CHARACTERS OR PAST EVENTS JUST THE PLOT OF THIS STORY… THANK YOU STEPHENIE FOR CREATING A MASTER PIECE ….
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Chapter 2 – The Story of Emmett's Heart
Bella's P.O.V
I was just tired, maybe it was nerves maybe it was all this stress of school that had finally come and gone, or Charlie's death or maybe the ideas in my head that Rosalie and Edward had something going on I just couldn't shake this feeling.
"You guys?" I said wearily hoping that maybe they'd shed some light on this situations that they brought forth. Jasper looked at me from the doorway and Alice smiled
"Yes? Bella." They both said in unison it's like they were truly meant for each other when they did things I smiled when they looked at me and I sat up after my slight moment of debate in my next set of words to come out of my mouth but I was set and I knew Alice had already seen what I was going to ask so I straightened myself out and sighed briefly and looked at them both
"What's happening with Rosalie and Edward?" I sighed as I finished the sentence knowing that I was setting myself up for tears or maybe another set of holes in myself.
Back story
When I had left forks I had ultimately left myself open and hurt. You see I was dating Edward Cullen, Alice and Jaspers "adopted" brother, when I was dating him something had happened between me and jasper I had cut myself on something and jasper who was still new to the family had flipped my blood is more appeasing to vampires then I really thought. So after that scene with his family and jasper it was clear to Edward that it was unsafe for me to be in his families home and in his families lives I felt seriously hurt when I discovered his way to do this was to leave. I felt holes when that happened and that's when Charlie was really there for me – thinking about Charlie made me sigh- when Edward left, my dad's friend Billy's son Jacob came into my life and helped show me that I could live without Edward and I smiled for that brief time and one day, I decided to cliff day. I remember that day as if it were yesterday I jumped, Alice showed and told me that Edward was going to kill himself, that's when panicked me and Alice, ran to his aid and then he gave me the ultimatum when we returned because he knew what I wanted I wanted to join him I wanted forever I wanted eternity by his side and for some stubborn reason he wouldn't allow it, he wouldn't allow me my happiness with him. Stubborn vampire! When few months came by and I was still thinking about it I did the stupid thing and admit my feelings for Jacob of course I knew I liked Jacob but I didn't Love Jacob as I loved Edward I still don't love Jacob in that manner. Never will he is a brother to me always will be. But when they began to fight over me and grow jealous of each other and there "time" spent with me that's when I ended contact with them both. I regret the decision but, ultimately I knew it was for the better I knew that splitting myself from both of them would give me wounds that I might never heal from but healing had eventually happened I eventually grew up.
Thinking about that I looked up briefly and was met with Alice and Jaspers gaze Alice was smiling and she reached to grab my hand and I looked down at it and looked back up smiling I knew she was going to expel some bad news she always held my hand when she needed to tell me bad news.
"Alice, please, I need to know" I looked pleadingly to both of them struggling not to get annoyed with there stalling, for vampires there sure slow and delivering important information I let my mind and my frustration get to me knowing jasper would sense it and he just smiled and came to sit on the other side of me watching Alice's face. They both weren't mind readers like there
Brother Edward but it was like they were mentally communicating without needing words, it was love that kept them like that… I envied it.
"Alice, Darling, you need to tell Bella its only fair we tell our sister everything" Jasper said looking to his wife with the look of true adoration and appreciation and then finally the look of honesty and true understanding that my needs were important as well. When I was dating Edward his mom and dad considered me there daughter they were so welcoming and warm to me and they promised that if Edward ever did anything to hurt or mislead me that they would always take me in regardless and they would always love me. I thanked them for that always. I watched for the few brief moments before I saw Alice sigh softly and begin to find the words to explain.
"Bella, you got to understand that this is what we know from Emmett because it is something that happened to him that we weren't there for ok!" she paused and I nodded my head and thought Emmett? And she saw my questioning look on my face and she sighed again I guess she really hated discussing this she made her face get scrunched up and I knew she was disgusted but I needed to know
"Ok where to start," she breathed and she looked at Jasper as if he had the story written across his face or as if the history of that year or the years that this happened was printed across the strands of his blonde hair and I feel like she is filtering the story to my own emotions and I look between them and sigh
"Please don't filter for the sake of my emotions and heart I know im under stress and im tired, but I deserve the truth I deserve to know what's going on" I stressed the fact that the truth was what I needed and deserved and Jasper nodded in agreement.
"ok, well when you left, of course Edward was a wreck he was back to his moody emotional self brooding and closed up. Esme tried everything so when august finally came for all of us to disappear to college only me and jasper left. Rosalie and Emmett were going to stay behind to help out Esme with Edward and I knew there was something fishy for Rosalie wanting to help out and I couldn't quite put my finger on it just yet. Ya know me being a psychic and all" she winked at me and looked at me as I watched her expression filled face she continued on "we came home for Christmas like all normal college kids do and Esme and Carlisle were gone they had made a note saying they had left they couldn't handle of what was going on in the house and they would explain when they came home in a few weeks" I watched Alice she's never been this cryptic before and she pressed on "well I was paying attention to my classes that semester I was barely keeping tabs on my family because I thought I didn't need to with Edward being there to read minds and knowing the surroundings around them. I never knew I just when we got further into the house we discovered that Emmett was gone as well I flipped open my cell phone immediately and called him because I saw Rosalie's car in the Drive way Emmett's Jeep and both of Edwards Car but I didn't understand what was happening. So I called Emmett he didn't answer I called again and then sent a text asking where he was. Within 3 mins I got a reply back saying "Canada house" I had told Jasper to stay just in case Esme and Carlisle came home before I did. I took off in my Porsche speeding straight to our Canada house not stopping to hunt or anything I reached the house and Emmett was out side waiting for me he looked a mess I swear I'd never seen my brother in such a mess it was terrible" she took a momentary pause as if she needed to Alice has talked for way longer without so much as blinking I thought and slightly giggled and she looked at me tilted head I smiled
"I was thinking about how when you speak you forget to blink it makes me laugh" I said simply as she smiled back at me and I asked "continue please Alice"
"Well, Ok, Emmett invited me we sat down he asked me about campus and how we were enjoying our time at this school and how we liked it and asked how we enjoyed our time away from our family I smiled and answered these questions all the while wondering why he was asking me and why he was small talking me this was not the brother I knew. I looked concerned and he knew it I stopped his last question about my finals I had just taken and put my hand on his and asked him "Emmett dear brother are you alright" he started to look as if he were going to loose it he put his head in his hands and began to tell me his story "so, you know Bella left and Edward was all depressed then you guys left and we didn't leave for college because Rose and me decided to take a break from the school thing and do something else?" I nodded I remember them discussing this "well when she did that I didn't know that the something else would end up in me divorcing her for it" his words rang in my ears as if it was on repeat I had never ever thought about this ever happening DIVORCE nearly shouted for the whole nation of Canada to hear Emmett's face looked even paler than our faces our and he pulled me down because I had shot up "Alice, please please don't shout, let me tell you the rest of the story" I looked down into his paler face and sat and watched him as he finished his story "well, I came home one weekend early from hunting with Carlisle, because Edward stopped eating all together for months at a time remember ?" I nodded to him and he continued "so of course the Girls had gone the week before so me and Carlisle left we had got our feel so we decided to go home early I just wanted to get back to her," when he said her instead of Rosalie I knew there was something wrong so he continued and listened too "we got within earshot of the house you know how we can hear like 2 miles away from the house and I heard it, I heard her moans, the shouting the moaning I ran faster then I ever thought I could I reached the house and I ran upstairs ALICE it was in my bed, with him, with him of all people she wasn't even into him at the beginning but I guess when im gone he gives her the most attention and feeds her these lines or gives her attention or something but they were in that position she was on top of him and I just I lost it… I ran back out of the house cussing obscenities I came here then I decided I needed to do something I needed to not be so idle so I went to Texas A&M to go back to school so I wouldn't be tempted to go kill both of them" he paused I saw what looked like the rawest Emmett emotion I had ever seen in my life I wanted to reach out and hug him or do something but I just held his hand scared that if I moved he would get mad or angry or strike out do something rash so I just sat there I couldn't read his future he was all over the place so I just waited for him to finish "it wasn't until that spring break that I was served they took forever to find me they had a currier deliver to my dorm room and I hunted that night, and I mean I hunted I had to skip classes for a few days until my eyes were golden again. Sister I failed at keeping her happy" I saw the sadness and I knew that if jasper were here he wouldn't have been able to keep himself from going nuts his face read of all his emotions and I could tell he was struggling to just keep one of them in check at a time. "I signed the papers had them expedited so that way the quicker I was out of her life the faster I would be able to feel normal" I watched him sigh and I looked at him and felt myself wrap my arms around him and comfort him after that I called jasper and told him I think he was best that he was up here and within hours he was here with us and we left back to school when he left for A&M"
Alice finished and I watched her eyes looking away from us I could tell she had venom pooling in them she wanted to make her brother be happy I wanted to see Emmett to tell him that I knew how he felt I never fully healed from Edward and knowing that he was doing that with Rosalie made me sick. I right then asked my next question
"Did they get married?" Alice looked at me and looked at jasper and she sighed
"Last Week, that's why there not coming to Charlie's funeral" as soon as she said last week I felt myself give over to the feeling and vomited over the edge of my bed and with a quick movement from jasper it actually had made into the trash can. I looked up after my lil human moment and I could swear jasper was actually laughing
"What's So funny?" I watched his grin turn into a wide smile
"It's just your hilarious, you feel bad for Emmett and repulsed by Rosalie and Edward on top of all this grief over Charlie yet I don't know how your able to hold that emotion all in one and the vomit just made me want to laugh it was classic im sorry Bella" he frowned with his apology and I smiled
"Jasper, I just, GAH want to hit them over the head, but them being thick headed vampires would never ever feel it and it would hurt me" I smiled and laughed.
After a few moments they excused themselves for a few moments surely giving me some much needed human moments I stood at my window remembering about the last time Edward came in my room and thought about the idea of him and rose and felt sorry for Emmett and thought about what Alice had said earlier and knew he was in town. I went downstairs to grab my phone knowing that Alice and Jasper weren't in the house I guess Alice had seen my future and left with jasper to go do something or hunt I dialed the familiar Cullen house and smiled when Esme answered
"Cullen Residence" her voice was soft and familiar I missed it
"Hello, Esme, its Bella Swan, I I I was wondering if Emmett was around I needed help with something and Alice and Jasperrrr seemed to have disappeared" I felt my voice stutter as I asked her I felt like I was asking a cute boy for his number I felt utterly stupid.
"Bella, oh dear honey its good to hear from you its been ages, I will tell him he's upstairs I bet he already heard it oh yes he did he's on his way over" she sounded just as motherly as before and she added to her words "don't be a stranger honey come by we miss you and I would love to catch up with my daughter" I smiled when she called me her daughter
"Yes, Esme, send my love to Carlisle I miss you both dearly" with that we both hung up. I set my phone on the counter and began to make myself a simple salad out of the things that were in the fridge that looked fresh. Charlie at least did have the Fridge stalked I was impressed, with my father again the thought of him not coming home tonight sent me into tears. And that's when I heard the doorbell.
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