Welcome! I'll start with replying to the reviews:

Hunter: I totally get what your saying. When she met the Volturi, she was WAY younger and because everyone totally ignored her, she thought there must be something wrong with her. But, in the present time of the story, she knows that her family favored one child. She doesn't understand why so she tries to make it seem like she doesn't care anymore and telling herself things like she's more beautiful, when in reality, she's insecure, confused, and hurt because of the crazy amount of neglect she's received from her family, not that she's fishing for compliments. I won't say she's not full of herself when it comes to her gift though…

I'll also try to describe people in that way, thanks for the tip. I actually like that a lot better then the 'I have..' or 'I am..' Thanks for the amazing review! -Allie

Alcevolturiswife: I'm glad you liked the story. I'll try to keep as great as I can. -Allie

ON TO THE STORY!

P.S. Jessica is known as Nicole at her school. Most call her either Nick or Nicky or Nicole.

Gazing at the picture before her, she couldn't believe she never recognized those hypnotic crimson eyes. Someone in the Volturi is owner of these beautiful orbs that come alive in her mind. She had to meet this boy…


The painting I created wasn't one of the dull, depressed ones that Seth goes on about. The boy in my picture was near a shimmering blue lake that would match his eyes. He was looking off in the distance with a grin. He was waiting for someone. Someone he loved, so I assumed his sister or maybe a girlfriend.

Jealousy tugged at my stomach. I wanted to slap myself across the face for being jealous of a drawing's love life.

He's not even real! I yell to my thoughts.

But, no matter how many times I tell myself that this guy isn't real, It always feels like a lie.

I finish the chocolate brown hair and start on the sterling eyes, but my imagination takes control and when I finally hit reality again, his eyes are more vibrant then ever. I recognize that scarlet color, but I can't seem to place it.

It's on the tip of my tongue… I think as I rack my mind.

I hear footsteps toward the stairs. I match the footfalls to my father and immediately cover the painting with a sheet. I hide it in the corner quickly then grab my ipod and headphone. I crash silently on my bed, plug in the headphones, and turn it low enough so he wouldn't assume I just pulled my silent stunt.

He walks in and knocks on the door. I pull out the earphone and turn to him.

"Yeah?" I ask as if I didn't realize he was coming.

"The Volturi will be here around seven. Get dressed, we're going to school today." He says before breezing out.

I roll my eyes. He's always so serious and he especially hates how he can't read my mind, but found it beautiful when he couldn't read my mothers.

I jump off my bed and over to my dresser where I choose denim skinny jeans, a formfitting grey-black striped long sleeve shirt, and my favorite worn pair converse ankle-high high-tops.

I sit at my vanity and run a thin line of black eyeliner under my emerald green eye before brushing a silvery eye shadow on my eyelid. I flash to the bathroom to brush my teeth, then back to my vanity where I slide lip gloss over my lips.

I grab my backpack and cell before I head downstairs. I can smell wet dog so I know Jake and the pack are probably here eating. When I reach the last step, I hear food rushing to hungry mouths. I sit on the second to last step, where I always do, and read my novel.

Normally, I go unnoticed, but I continue to receive dirty looks from Rosalie. I think about saying or doing something, but I rather not get another year of grounding for putting Rosalie in her place.

Seth finishes first and sits next to me. The entire pack is naked besides a pair of blue jean shorts. I can't remember the last time I ever saw any of them in anything, but those shorts.

"Do you ever wear shirts or shoes?" I blurt.

"Why would we when we may have to faze at anytime? We prefer to not waste clothes, plus, taking shoes and shirts off take way to long." He smirks.

I lift my eyebrows, "That's a good reason." I laugh.

Renesmee skips in the backdoor and the whole room falls silent. "Good morning, Everyone." She twinkles.

"You look beautiful today! I love your shoes!" Alice beams.

"Your hair is perfect today, honey." Rosalie admires.

"You smell nice?" The pack and Emmet comment.

"Dear, are you hungry?" Esme asks.

"I'm starving!" Renesmee smiles as she sits at the table.

She decide to wear a blue low cut ruffle blouse, knee high white shorts, and sparkly silver stiletto heels that strap up her ankle. Her curls are wavy today, but still hang in ringlets which is humanly impossible. Then again, none of us are human. Her big chocolate brown eyes are fluttering with happiness at everyone.

I sigh and continue to convince myself that I'm better then her, but with everyone's attention on her, I feel myself falling again…

"Nick, You okay?" Seth asks.

"Huh? Oh, sorry. I… uh… zoned out there for a second." I laugh halfheartedly…


Just as Renesmee finishes, everyone rushes out the door. Emmet and Rosalie in Emmet's jeep, Jasper and Alice in Alice's Porsche, mom and dad in dad's Volvo, and even though Jacob offers me the ride on his motorcycle, Renesmee goes with him.

Seth hugs me goodbye, he has patrol today and doesn't go to our school anyway.

"I'll see you after school." He smirks.

"Yep. Bye, Seth." I smile before I shoot off to school.

I run through the woods, but hear everyone's cars and conversations.

Mom and dad are talking about what to do about the Volturi. Alice and Jasper are talking about me leaving for the Volturi. Rosalie and Emmet are arguing over which station to listen to. Renesmee and Jacob are silent, but Jacob's thoughts are about who he's in love with meanwhile Renesmee is already naming their children.

I shake my head and push harder on my legs, before I know it, The world is far behind a blur. No shapes, just colors. Green, yellow, and grey are mixing as I zip through the forest. I end up at the school two minutes earlier then I normally do.


I jog over to the parking lot and end up waiting five minutes before my family show up. They've all fallen silent as they see me here.

As soon as they park, they causally walk over to me.

"How did you get here before us? You normally are walking out of the woods now." Jacob asked curiously.

He would ask because he goes about thirty miles over the speed limit, forty on his bike.

"I ran." I shrug.

"She might be faster then you, Edward." Emmet chuckled.

My dad gave me a dirty look before he tossed his arm around my mom and walked in to the school, Emmet did the same to Rose, Alice grasped Jasper's hand, and Jacob gave me a sad look before he held Renesmee to him.

I followed behind. I didn't have anybody and none of them were in any of my classes, but they all had the same classes with Renesmee.


I quietly walk to my locker where I meet with my friends Derek and Liz. Derek's light blue eyes locked on to me before I could say hi. Liz smiled. The big, welcoming smile didn't quite reach her hazel eyes.

"Hey." I sigh as I unlock my locker.

Derek flips his long chocolate brown hair from his eyes as he leans against my locker. "Well, You seem down." He states with a grin.

"Yeah. I just love my family." I say sarcastically.

"What happened today, Nicky?" Liz asked as she adjusted her headband in her strawberry blonde hair.

"Nothing. I'm just invisible as usual." I roll my eyes.

"I thought being a Cullen would make you really popular everywhere." Liz blurted.

"Only if your like them… which I'm not." I sigh.

"But, Renee is and she's your fraternal twin." Derek states.

"Exactly. Were different. Personality, looks, and friends. The only thing that's the same is the fact we came from the same parents." I explain.

"Well, I like you better then her anyway. She hangs out with Kim." Liz says with a disgust in her voice.

Kim is the supposed queen of the school and took Renesmee in as princess. Kim is a Senior and Renesmee is a Junior so next year, Renesmee will be queen. Lucky her.

"Yeah and your way hotter." Derek grins.

"Gee, thanks, although that's not a term of indearment." I laugh.

"No, but its definitely a fact." He says sizing me.

"Dude, really?" Liz snaps.

"If you were gay, you wouldn't want this?" Derek laughs.

"Well… I'm straight. So, it doesn't matter." Liz says as her cheeks flush with bright a fuchsia.

"I have class. I'll see you guys at lunch." I say, saving Liz from an uncomfortable conversation that was beginning.


I arrive in first period, math, to see my crush. Jesse Adams. My seat is assigned next to him and he's actually really smart for a pretty boy. His shimmering blue eyes melted my skin. At far away view, you'd think their simply a dark blue, but up close, you can see a warm honey brown swimming around the pupil.

I sit next to him and he turns to me, his dirty blonde hair sliding to the side. He kind of looked like the guy from the movie 'I am number four'. He was a Junior like me, but all the Senior girls wanted him.

"Hey, Nicky." He smiled.

"Hi, Jesse. How's your morning?" I say.

Hazel mixes with green as our eyes lock. Even though I have a huge crush on him, It always feels odd to actually interact romantically with him.

"Well, it was bad." He shrugs.

"What happened to make it good?" I ask.

"You walked in to class." He grins.

I giggle at the cheesy pickup line. "Isn't that sweet. Thank you, I'm glad I could brighten up your day." I smile.

"Your welcome, I hope I brighten your days as well." He smirks.

"How couldn't you with those eyes." I blurt with a grin following.

"You like my eyes?" He asks.

"Yeah. They're very… pretty." I laugh.

"Your eyes are beautiful too, everything about you is beautiful." He smirks.

"Thanks, Jesse." I say, begging for a blush.

Because I'm maturing in to a vampire, I don't always get the perks of humans. Like blushing, crying, or heat.

I slowly feel my cheeks warming and want to cheer in my mind. My blush is on perfect timing. Jesse notices and smiles.

"Your blushing." He states with a sly grin.

"I know." I giggle.

The bell rings and class starts. I finish my class work half an hour before the bell rings and Jesse finishes ten minutes before, so we pass notes carefully through out the rest of the class. As soon as the bell rings, we get the homework and leave.


Jesse gave me his number before I walked out. I race to my locker on a happiness high. Derek and Liz show up a few seconds later.

"Jesse gave me his number!" I whisper squeal.

Liz's eyes widen and she squeals with me. We jump up and down together. I take a breath and stop. I put my math notebook away and pencil away. I pull out my art sketchbook and drawing pens.

"I'm so happy for you! You need to hook me up with one of his friends though." Liz smiles.

"It's a promise." I wink.

"Not to burst your bubble, You know he's asking out your sister right now?" Derek asks.

"What?" My eyes widen as I follow Derek's nod to Jesse smirking at my sister.

I listen in on the conversation.

"Well, my day was bad until you showed up." Jesse grins.

"I'm happy to be the sunshine of your life." Renesmee giggles as she twirls her hair.

"Your so beautiful." He sighs.

"So I've been told." She smirks.

"Your cute, Do you want to go to a movie on Saturday?" He asks her.

"I'd love too." She grins as she pulls him down to her lips.

I squeeze my eyes shut and it takes every once of my self-control to not set her on fire, but then, thank god, some kid uses the water fountain. I control the water to squirt out of the fountain and spray all over her.

She screams and Jesse jumps back. "What the hell?" He gasps as water continues to spray them.

The Freshman boy runs off, terrified of being pumbled. Jesse runs off to go get dried off, but Renesmee knew it was me. She glares at me with furious golden flecked brown eyes. She stomps over to me.

"Excuse us," Renesmee smiles at my friends before pulling me in to the empty girl's restroom.

"What the hell, Jessica? I really like that guy and when I get the best kiss in the world, you screw it up!" She hisses.

"I didn't do anything. That water fountain had a malfunction, I was causally talking with my friends." I say throwing my palms up.

"Ugh, Don't give me that! I know it was you. You must like Jesse too, well guess what, he wouldn't give you the time of day even if you were the last girl on the freaking planet. You seriously need to get a life instead of crying over how sad you are because no one gives two damns about you. Grow up and stop trying to mess my life up because I'm perfect and you're the stupid screw up that went wrong. You were a mistake and everyone knows it, even you," She snaps.

"I have a class to get to. See you at home." She sighs as she walks out the door.

I look down and close my eyes. "Yeah, I know." I whisper.

When I walk out of the bathroom, everyone has froze in the hallway. Renesmee must of spoke louder then I thought. I shake my head and begin to go to class, but Jesse stops me.

"I'm really sorry-"

"Forget it. Everyone has chosen her over me for years, I'm used to it. She gave me the reality check I needed." I say before I move around him and go to art.


Derek is there and instantly pulls me in to his arms the second I walk in. I hug him back, partly because I need something to hold me up, and the other part, to know I'm not completely invisible.

He sits me at our table and doesn't say anything the whole class period. He walks me back to my locker and turns to me.

"Everything she said is a lie. She's not perfect and you're not a mistake. You happened for a reason. Sooner or later, the reason will show itself. Right now, you probably believe her, but guess what? She's the one with no life because after high school, she's gonna taste the real world. You are beautiful, smart, and one of the most important people in the world. Your not a screw up and I hope you'll see how amazing you are." He said seriously, before he gave me another hug then left.

I sit there confused. Derek is never serious, but I guess he's trying to make me feel better. I put my sketchbook away before heading to science.


I walking out of language arts ,fifth period, when Liz came up to me and hugged me. "Your sister is a bitch." She said bluntly.

I can't help but laugh at the fact that was the first thing she says to me. We walk to lunch and sit at the special table which is all the scene, loud, class-clown, and extremely fun kids.

Blake, Andrew, Joe, and Jenna are all the scene kids with rainbow of colors in their hair and loads of makeup.

Diana, Louis, Emma, and Micky are all the loud kids.

Derek, John, Elisa, and Alyssa are the class clowns.

Liz, Danny, and I are the quiet kids in class, but the ones with the snide, clever remarks that are only heard at the table.

Liz and I sit with Danny who's brown eyes light up. Her hair is in a tight pony tail today and she looks extremely happy.

"Oh my gosh, Joe asked Alyssa out! She said yes! Joe is normally so cold to her, but because she laughs about everything he says to her that's mean, He thinks he's in love! How cute is that?" She squeals.

"About time they got together." Liz and I chime.

Everyone at my table doesn't eat so I've never felt out of place. None of us like school food or bringing food so we basically just talk all lunch period. The whole cafateria fell quiet, except for us, when the Cullen family walked in.

Instead of falling quiet the eight loudest kids in our group started laughing extremely loud. John, who looks almost exactly like Emmet, jumped up on the table.

"Hello, Rosalie! I have to admit something to you. I'm in love with you and I'd like to dedicate a song to you by Jesse McCartney." He exclaims.

"I shouldn't love you, but I want to. I just can't turn away.

I shouldn't see you, but I can't move, I can't look away…

I shouldn't love you, but I want to. I just can't turn away.

I shouldn't see you, but I can't move, I can't look away…

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,

Cause' I don't know how to make a feeling stop,

Just so you know, This feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it.

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now. Thought you should know,

I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to. I just gotta say it all before I go.

Just so you know.

It's getting hard to be around you, there's so much I can't say.

Do you want me to hide the feelings and look the other way

And I don't I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,

Cause' I don't know how to make a feeling stop.

Just so you know, This feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it.

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now. Thought you should know,

I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to. I just gotta say it all before I go.

Just so you know.

This emptiness inside is killing me and I'm wondering why I've waited so long,

Looking back I realize it was always there just never spoken.

I'm waiting here, just been waiting here.

Just so you know, This feeling's taking control of me and I can't help it.

I won't sit around, I can't let him win now. Thought you should know,

I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to. I just gotta say it all before I go.

Just so you know." He sings with perfect pitch, when he finishes, everyone cheers for him.

I was listening to Rosalie's thoughts and she hated it. She wants my dad to punish me for letting my friend do that, but he thinks my friend did it on his own, which he did.

"I love you, Rosalie Cullen. One day I will marry you!" He smiles before sitting back down.

Our table is laughing hysterically at his performance, because we all know it was joke. He thinks Rosalie is a stuck up bitch and only hopes Emmet will get out of there while he can… I laugh with them only because I know the truth.


The last bell of day rings and Derek offers me a ride home, in which I'm forced to decline because of my family. I hug him goodbye, in fact, I hugged all my friends before I left school because I felt like it would be the last time I would see them.

I race in to the woods, not running nearly as fast as I could, but at a human pace. I decide not to head straight home. Instead I sprint deep in the woods and find my tree. This tree is the tallest tree in Forks and you can see all of the little town. I shimmy up the tree and sit on the top branch.

Smells of pine, salt water, flowers, and rivers stir in the unpolluted air. I feel my composure return, since I'll need it when I get home. I decide to play around with my vampire senses and listen as far as I can. I listen toward my home to hear them wondering where I am. I'm surprised I can hear thoughts from here, but I hear Renesmee hoping the Volturi got me and decided to leave.

I listen in the other direction and hear other thoughts… The Volturi. I think.

I hear Aro wondering about how I'm doing. Other buzzing thoughts are running through. I can hear at most, seven minds working. All about me. I realize they're only about five miles from my home. I jump out of the tree and enjoy the flying feeling I receive before landing silently on my feet.


I sprint off toward my home where everyone is in position. The pack fazed, Dad and Carlisle in the front, Esme and everyone else in the middle, and then my mom with Renesmee at the back.

When I show up, They all want me in front, except my mom so I stand on the opposite side of her. Five minutes later, The Volturi show up.

Aro, Markus, and Caius are in front. Aro in the middle. Then they have four members of their guard.

"Hello, Young Friends." Aro smiles.

"Aro." Dad and Carlisle say in unison.

I can see mom stretch a shield over everyone. I do as Carlisle told me and do the same. Renesmee's job is to send thoughts to everyone after I listen to the thoughts and send them to her, but not today. Instead I give everybody in our shield the ability to hear and give thoughts.

Everyone quickly thanks Renesmee thinking she did this, but my mom thanks me.

"We'd like to see the girls. How old are they?" Aro asks.

"They're six. Their birthday is in three weeks." Carlisle explains.

"Wonderful. Let's save the best for last," Aro begins.

Your going first Jessica. Everyone tells me.

"Renesmee, come forward." Aro booms.

Renesmee changed her clothes, of course. She's wearing a formfitting, thigh high white dress. Its slightly low cut and has spaghetti straps with ruffles at the bottom. She exchanged her stilettos for white ballet flats. I guess she's going for an angel appearance.

"Greetings, Aro." Renesmee curtsied.

"Renesmee, You've grown up beautifully. Such a perfect mix of your parents. How are you, darling?" Aro smiles.

"I'm fantastic! I'm in love with Jacob, I have great grades in school, and I can't wait for my birthday. My parents are so proud of me because I can use my gift without touching someone!" Renesmee says proudly.

"How wonderful. It was fantastic seeing you, dear." Aro says as he looks toward me.

"Jessica, Would you mind coming forward, my dear?" Caius says gently, which is odd since I though he hated us.

I quietly walk forward and take my gift off everyone. I focus my mind reading on Aro and his group.

"Hi, How's it going?" I smile.

You hear the chuckles from the guard and Aro. Caius and Markus grin before their chuckles escape.

"We're all fine. Splendid to see you again. How are you?" Aro smiles as he opens his arms to me.

I hug him. I guess he knew I would need a few hugs today.

"I've had better days." I shrug.

"What happened today, my darling?" He asks with concern in his eyes.

I hold my hand out. He grasps it and picks through not only today, but since the last time they were here.

"Well, It seems your making due." He says sadly.

"What would happen if I didn't?" I shrug.

"Very true. It seems your sister has dressed up for us, but you haven't. Why is that?" He grins.

"She's an attention seeker. No amount is ever enough, she always needs more. I don't need to do anything, but use my gift to impress you." I explain.

The Guard, Caius, and Markus snicker at my comment. Aro takes notice to how serious I am.

"You impressed us before we even saw your gift." Aro whispers to me.

"Thank you, Aro." I smile.

"Now, Tell me what my Guard is thinking. Pull your hoods down." Aro smiles.

"This is Felix," A really tall guy pulled his hood down. He was bigger then Emmet.

"This is Demitri," A smaller guy pulled his hood down.

"This is Jane," A small girl who looked my age pulled her hood down. She looked angry, but I could tell in her eyes she just didn't like my family.

"And Alec," I practically passed out. The boy from all my drawings was hidden behind that hood. His eyes were the crimson color I've drawn, painted, and color all these years.

Markus smiled, "What's on your mind, Jessica?"

"Um- Nothing. Sorry, Felix is thinking about how much longer you guys have to be here. He's hungry and misses his computer." I say.

Felix grins and nods.

"Demitri is wondering how I can hear thoughts. Now he wants to know what my gift is. He wants me to get out of his mind." I hold in a giggle.

Demitiri smiles with me, saying friends in his mind.

"Jane doesn't want me in her mind, but she likes me. She thinks I would be a good asset in the guard, but she doesn't like my sister very much." I say sending I agree to her mind.

"And, please tell us what Alec thinks." Markus chimes.

"Alec wants to know what I'm thinking. He wants to know why I was so surprised when he took his hood off. He thinks I'm beautiful and hopes I join the Guard, now he's embarrassed and thinking of colors, not the color of my eyes. Now he thinks this feels like deja-vu." I smile.

"Yes, Dear. Why were you so surprised when his face was revealed?" Aro asks.

"I was surprised because he's the boy from my drawings. I can only draw one thing and it's a boy. That boy right there. Sometimes his eyes are red, sometimes they're a really pretty blue almost grey color. I don't know how I knew what he looked like, but he's all I draw." I explain.

"Maybe that's a sign of a future mate." Caius says.

"Maybe so, but Jessica, time for the moment we've been waiting for," Markus smiles.

"Yes, Jessica, Would you like to join our Guard?" Aro asks.

I hear growls and gasps all around. The spotlight is on me and I feel as though my slowly dying hear is ready to burst through my chest.

I listen around my family's minds.

I hope she leaves. I can finally be an only child! Renesmee thinks.

She can't leave! I need her! Jake yells.

I really hope she stays. The rest of the pack think to each other.

I don't want Bella to be hurt, but I think Jessica is just going to cause more problems. I hope she says yes. My dad think.

Jessica, I know your listening to my thoughts. Please, please, say no. I know you feel like everybody wants you to leave, but we all love you. Please don't leave. My mom, Esme, Jasper, and Carlisle all think.

If Rose in Jess got in a fight, I think Jess would win. She should stay, I like training with her. It's kind of fun, but then again, she's so depressing… eh… maybe she should go. Emmet debates in his mind.

JUST GO! God, No one wants her here. She is so rude to innocent Renesmee! Rosalie growls in her mind.

As I think about all their statements, I give the choosing statement to the only person I can truly trust. Myself.

I ask myself, Would I be happier if I were here or in Voltura? I love all my friends here, but they'll all grow up and move on. Do I want to go back to the life I was living or start a new one?

I take a deep breath, "I'd like to join your Guard, but I have to say goodbye to my friends first." I say.

I hear gasps from behind me and whimpers directed at me.

"Of course. We'll return to Voltura. We'll have Jane stay here with you. She'll take you to the airport tomorrow night. Welcome to our guard, Jessica Nicole." Aro smiles as he kisses my hand.

The Volturi leave and Jane stays. I take her up to my room where she'll be staying for the night. After I close my door and put a shield around my room, she notices.

"Why is there a shield over us? Do you not trust that I won't hurt anyone?" She asks with a grin.

"I do trust you, even if I shouldn't. I just prefer that if I'm going to be ignored, I be ignored completely. My dad can hear thoughts and everyone downstairs can hear three miles away, but with this bubble, They can't hear anything or get in here. So, I have privacy this way." I explain plopping on to my bed.

"So, if I hurt you they wouldn't hear?" She asks excitedly.

"Nope. If you mean by using your gift, I'll use it on you. I can also fight physically so it would still be a tie." I smirk.

"You have my gift?" She asked with anger seething in her voice.

"Well, I could if I wanted it. I could also give you different gifts, like, do you want to hear thoughts? Control the weather? Create an illusion? Anything." I say.

"Could I fly?" She asks.

I focus on making Jane defy gravity then will her way around, soon Jane is flying around my room. I place her on my bed and she starts laughing to no end.

"That was so cool! I'm sorry if I've said anything mean, but can we be friends?" She asks hopefully.

"Totally! I loved you the second I met you and I'd be pissed if someone could be immune to my gifts, but luckily, I can break through any shield." I smirk.

"Your going to be loved at the Volturi! What's your gift called?" She asks completely intrigued.

"I call it the gift of a collector, cause' I collect gifts in a way. If I hear about a cool gift and I know what it does, I focus on doing it and then bam, I can do it and I collect it in to my mind." I shrug.

"So you're a Collector?" She asks.

"Yep." I nod.

"Jessica Nicole Volturi, the Collector. It sounds so perfect!" She beams.

"I know! I can't wait to go to Italy, but are you sure everyone will like me?" I ask.

"Of course! If they don't, intimidate them." She smirks.

The rest of the night is like a slumber party, because neither of us need sleep, we talked all night. She told me that she knew I would join since I was little. She never liked Renesmee because she believed the spot light should've been on me. The much more talented one of the twins or at least the limelight should have been equal.

"YOUR LEAVEING?" My friends all gasped.

"I'm sorry, but another family adopted me. I'm moving to Italy." I smile.

"We're going to miss you, ya'know." Blake snaps.

"I know and I'm sorry I have to leave, but you guys all know the situation at the home I'm at now. Everyone in the school knows. I can still email you guys or talk to you through one of those web-cam things. I love you all and I promise to come back. Okay?" I smile sadly.

They all nod and crowd around me for a group hug. These guys have been my friends from either seventh grade or Freshman year. We've been friends for a long time. After the end of the lunch period, Derek comes up to me.

"Meet after school out in the bleachers." He smirks before going to class.

The last bell rings and I run out to the bleachers to see Derek sitting there sadly.

"Hey." I say as I sit next to him.

"You're really leaving?" He asks as he turns to me.

I nod. "Are you mad?" I sigh.

"No, I'm actually really disappointed in myself." He says.

"Why?" I ask.

"Because I waited so long to do this." He sighs.

"Do w-" I'm cut off by his lips caressing mine.

I don't pull away, partly because I'm enjoying it and partly because I've always known there was more in the fine print of our friendship.

I wrap my arms around his neck, his arms go around my waist. His tongue grazes my lower lip, I grant him entrance and our kiss deepens in passion. Our lips move in sync and our tongues dance together with perfect rhythm.

His hands tighten on my waist as if he let go, I'd float away. I straddled his lap and pulled his lips deeper in to mine. He broke the kiss first and rested his hands on my thighs. His forehead leaned against mine,

"I've wanted to do that for so long." He sighed.

"Me too." I laugh.

"I'm sorry I did it a few hours before you leave, but I'm not sorry I did it." He smirked.

"I'm not sorry either. I'm actually happy you did, but I can't do the long distance relationship thing." I say biting my lip.

"Neither can I. I just wanted to know what it would feel like to kiss you and I wish I would have done it sooner. I feel addicted now." He grins.

"Don't forget me, okay?" I ask.

"I won't as long as you do the same." He smiles his true smile. The one that is always hidden behind cocky grins.

I kiss him one last time before I go home. After I pack all my things and get them in to the taxi, Rosalie comes out.

"Its a lot more real now." She whispers.

"What is?" I ask slamming the trunk shut.

"You leaving. I thought I wouldn't care or I'd be happy, but it already feels empty. Even when everyone ignored you, you still helped everyone." She sighs.

"What'd you mean?" I ask checking my watch.

"With Jasper, You'd put a shield over his mind when things are overwhelming. You've given your father quiet. You've secretly helped Emmet play pranks on everyone. You've helped Carlisle with scientific things and Esme when it comes to things we all like. And me, You've always taken everything I've ever said to you. Your so different from your sister and I'm sorry I've been horrible to you. Alice is gonna miss fighting with you over fashion. Even your father feels bad, are you sure you want to do this?" Rosalie asks.

"It took me leaving for you all to notice me. I don't think if I stayed anything different would change. I'm going, but I will see you all for Christmas this year so, I guess I'll come back then. I love you all and I hope that Renesmee will receive the attention she deserves and that she'll forgive me." I pull Rosalie in to a hug.

Everyone comes out and hugs me. Soon, Jane and I are laughing on an airplane and then Jane looks out the window.

"Welcome to Voltura, Jessica." Jane beams.