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Xo . BlackRoses: The story is mostly in Cam's POV, but you'll see Owen's pov in this chapter. Maya's pov won't be until the next chapter which I'll post in a couple of days. Also, Dallas will have a few parts in here where it's told in his pov, too.
I forgot to mention, you will not like Dallas at the beginning of this story. He is an a-hole towards Cam, especially in this chapter. Well, enjoy!
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Chapter Two: I'm Damaged
(Cam)
His eyes slowly pry open and the brightness of the lights hurts his eyes so he closes them tightly. A groan escapes from his cracked lips as he feels his head start to throb.
"Cam, are you awake?"
Cam's eyes flutters open and he sees Maya, along with Owen, hovering over him. Both of them have concerned looks on their faces. Cam tries to sit up, but her groans louder.
"Don't try to sit up, Campbell," Owen says sternly. "You had a minor concussion from that nasty fall you had yesterday."
"I- What happened?"
"You were freaking out in the bathroom. I tried to get you to calm down, but you passed out. You hit your head so hard on that floor. I was scared," Owen says in a sad tone.
"I thought I was going to lose you! When I saw the paramedics get you, and you weren't responding, I thought you were gone," Maya whispers as tears fall down her cheek.
Cam felt a pang of guilt flow through his body. Not only did he make Owen worry, but he had hurt Maya. She thought that she was going to lose him. He was sure, now, that she was afraid.
Owen mumbles that he's going to go tell the doctor Cam is awake. Once he closes the door behind him, Maya goes to sit on the bed next to Cam. She places a small, soft kiss on his lips. The corner of Cam's lips tugs into a smile.
"You had me worried sick! Don't ever do that, again."
"I won't," Cam promised. "Where's Carol?"
"She's on her way, actually."
"Anyone else come?" Cam asks a little hopeful.
"Tris came by and Katie did, too with Jake. Owen kept saying that Dallas was going to come by, but..."
"It's fine. At least Owen came to-"
Cam was interrupted by the door opening. Owen had walked in with a man in his mid-thirties and with Carol. The man greets Cam and tells him his name is Doctor Watts.
Doctor Watts talks to Cam, informing him that he has a small bump on his head and he may want to stay away from physical things for a couple of days. He prescribes Cam with some medication to help him with his head and then Cam was on his way out of the hospital.
Carol tells Cam that she has to get back to work so Owen said he'd get Cam and Maya home safely. After thanking Owen plenty of times, Carol was on her way.
Owen, Cam, and Maya walks to Owen's car and they all get in. Once Owen starts the car, he turns to look at Cam and Maya.
"Do you two have somewhere specific you want to go?" He questions.
"I need to go home to shower and change."
"I guess you can drop us both off at Cam's," Maya says while reaching her hand over go grip Cam's.
Cam shoots Maya a loving smile. He leans over to peck his girlfriends on the cheek.
He was lucky to have someone like Maya. She made the pain go away when she was near him. She made Cam forget that he was depressed sometimes. She's take away all of his troubles just by smiling at him. He didn't know where he'd be without her.
Owen pulls up at Cam's house. The couple thanks Owen and before leaving, Owen says he'll be back later to check on Cam.
"I'll be back, I'm going to go shower and change," Cam announces.
"Okay, Cheesy," Maya grins.
Cam goes up the stairs and into his room. He grabs a green T-Shirt and a pair of blue jeans. He also grabs his boxers and some socks before going into the bathroom to take a shower.
After his shower and getting dressed, Cam goes into his room to see Maya sitting cross-legged on his bed. He gives her a soft smile as he flops on the bed next to her. Maya's arms immediately goes around Cam. He wraps his arms around her and the two sit there for a while.
Cam didn't realize how this little thing has affected Maya. He can only imagine how she'd react if she knew what was going on with him.
That's why he wasn't going to tell her. Cam was going to have to be brave and sane... for Maya.
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(Owen)
After dropping Maya and Cam at Cam's place, Owen decides to go to the Torres'. Once he reaches his destination, he gets out of the car and walks on to the porch. He rings the doorbell and Audra answers the door moments later.
"Owen, good to see you. The boys are in the basement."
"Good to see you, too, Mrs. Torres."
Audra steps aside and lets Owen into the house. He goes down the steps that leads to the basement. When he gets down there, he sees Adam, Drew, and Dallas watching TV.
"Yo!" Owen says, catching their attention. Adam grabs the remote to mute the TV and he flashes Owen a welcoming smile along with Drew.
"Hey, how's your teammate?" Drew questions just as Owen sits on the couch with the guys.
"He's good. He just went home today."
"Good, because that little bastard will end up costing us the damn game," Dallas spits out furiously.
Adam, Drew, and Owen gives him the "are you fucking kidding me?!" look. Dallas just shrugs as if he didn't just say that!
"What the fuck is your problem?" Owen snaps.
"Cam will cost us our games, and then we won't make it to the playoffs! He's never at practice and-"
"Cam does go to practice," Owen argues. "That kid busts his balls to make sure we win! He missed two practices and you suddenly act like the poor kid has done something so wrong!"
"He lied to us about being sick, Owen! Open your fucking eyes! He's trying to cost us our games! He wants us to lose! He's sabotaging us."
"Do you hear yourself fuckin' talking? This is our MVP you're talking about! He had a better shot at making it to the pros than any of us. Cam would never sabotage us!"
Owen and Dallas has forgotten that the Torres' brothers were there. They argued back and forth. After getting irritated, Owen gets up and says goodbye to Adam and Drew. He glares at Dallas before walking out of the house.
Owen storms off to his car and gets in. He drives off to Cam's house.
Why would Dallas say that Cam was trying to sabotage them? Didn't he know that hockey meant as much to Cam as it did to the others? Cam was the Ice Hounds star player, he'd never go against the team.
Would he?
When he arrives, he knocks lightly on the door. Maya answered the door and let him step in. He walked in and saw Cam lounging on the sofa eating popcorn.
"Hey Owen," Cam grins.
"Hey, Cam. Can I talk to you for a second?" Owen asks as his eyes adverts to Maya.
"I'm just gonna go to the washroom," Maya says awkwardly.
She walks up the steps as Owen takes a seat on the sofa. He makes himself comfortable and grabs a handful of popcorn.
"So, Dallas thinks you're doing all of this on purpose," Owen says as he throws a popcorn in his mouth.
"Doing what?" Cam asks confusedly.
"You being sick and then you passing out, but that's stupid. Right?"
Cam doesn't say anything so Owen continues. "He thinks you're trying to sabotage our team. He says you're trying to screw us up."
"I'd never do that," Cam argues defensively. "What kind of guy does Dallas think I am?"
"Apparently not a loyal one," Owen mumbles as he grabs some more popcorn.
Owen chuckles to himself. He knew Dallas was just overreacting and seeing things! This is Campbell Saunders they were talking about. This guy was made to play hockey. Not only would he be sabotage team, but he'd be sabotaging his career. They all know he wouldn't do that.
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(Cam)
Cam walks into the school and all eyes were set on him. He feels his face growing hot with embarrassment as he walks down the halls. People whispers and point at him, but he tries to brush the negativity away.
Cam goes straight to his locker and puts in his combination. Once he opens it, it gets forcefully slammed shut! Cam whirls his head around and comes face to face with an angry Dallas. He gulps so loud that everyone around them could hear.
"Owen may think that you're loyal to the team, but I don't see it. You miss practice today and your ass is off the team! I can guarantee that."
Before Cam could say anything, Dallas walks away. Sighing, Cam turns back around to open his locker. He grabs his books and slams his locker shut, earning a few looks.
Cam storms down the halls and tries to go unnoticed by Maya, but she saw him.
"Cam!" She calls out, running towards him.
"Not now, Maya!" Cam says more harsh than he intended to.
"Can you please talk to me?" she pleads.
Cam knows that if he turns around to see her sad face, he'd want to talk to her. He'd want to forget about harming himself, although it was something that he should forget to do.
"I'll see you in class," Cam says softly as he jogs down the hall and into the bathroom. He immediately runs into the bathroom stall and grabs one of his ice skates. He touches the tip of the blade and sighs. He didn't want to do this, but it was something that took away his pain.
The pain that no one could take away. Not even Maya.
Cam rolls up his sleeve and balances his arm. He slides the blade on his arm and blood oozes out. Cam winces in pain. Tears falls down his face and in that moment, as he watches the blood drip down his arms, he wishes he was dead.
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(Owen)
"Rookie!" Dallas yells, "Focus on the puck! Keep your head on the ice!"
Cam was skating his laps. Sweat was drenched on his face and he was beginning to breathe heavily,
"Dallas, don't you think you want to let him rest for a while?" Owen questions.
"No! He needs to learn his lesson."
It was a little after practice and Dallas had Cam stay a little while to get more practice in. He wouldn't let Cam have a water break and he wouldn't let his rest. Owen tried numerous of times to talk Dallas out of this, but he wouldn't budge.
After an hour and a half has gone by, Dallas figured he has had enough.
"Alright, Rookie, go."
Cam skates off the ice and storms passed Owen and Dallas. Dallas chuckles and shakes his head.
"You're an ass, you know that?"
"You want to run those suicidal drills too?" When Owen didn't response, Dallas sneers, "I didn't think so."
Owen hated that Dallas was captain! He let that title get to his head. He was meaner than usual and he was extra tough.
Owen decided to go check on Cam to see how he was. He begins to walk past the boys' bathroom until he hears something. It's the sound of someone crying. Owen pushes the door open slowly and quietly tiptoes in.
All the stalls were open so he wouldn't have trouble finding out who was crying. He finds the stall and sees something he hasn't expected to see!
Cam was sitting on the toilet with his hockey skate in his hand and he was cutting himself with the blade! The blood was flowing fast down his arm and splattering on to the floor.
"Cam, stop!"
Cam looks alarmed. He looks up and Owen and the tears flow heavily. Owen is in shocked. It's like his feet are glued to the floor.
"Please, don't tell Maya I'm damaged." was all Cam said.
