Why am I alive? What is my purpose? I wasn't loved by anyone except Jim. I was happy to die. But why have I found myself breathing again? Is it because God wanted me to meet Lizzy? I admit she's very pretty. Beautiful even. But I can't be with her. She's engaged to Ciel. Just the thought of that makes me want to cry. She loves him, but he doesn't love her back.
When I first laid my eyes completely on her, I knew I'd fallen in love. It was such a strange feeling. I never had that feeling before. I've only hated people. I only loved Jim. But a brotherly love. Nothing too special.
But Lizzy, each time I look at her my heartbeat quickens and heat rushes to my face. I hope that once this game is over, I won't return to the ground. If I hadn't have met her, then I wouldn't care if I died after this. But when I'm with her, I can see my future with her. I know it's only a dream, but it's one that I don't want to wake up from.
I just hope she would feel the same way about me.
