Edward and I were on the road, just driving to wherever life takes us. I looked outside the passenger side window and saw the sun has risen. I quickly looked back at Edward but to another disappointing moment, he wasn't glistening in the sun but he still didn't like it. Edward folded down the mirror above him and put it between him and the blinding light that was suppose to show his true form as a vampire, but it didn't. I sighed and continued to enjoy the view from a bridge as we crossed it. As I watched the ripples of the ocean, memories from my dream flashed before me; When Edward left me and I went cliff diving so he could come back. I saw a ghost of myself falling into the water. I think Edward was trying to say something to me but it passed by my ear and I couldn't comprehend it. My arm was grabbed then and that's when I could hear what Edward was trying to say.1
"Is there any particular place you want to go?" he asked.2
I was still trying to comprehend the real world I was in "Huh?" his words came to my mind a little too late.3
"Is something wrong?" he sounded concerned.4
I didn't want to be reminded of the dream that felt like the perfect world. It was just too sad to think about "No, I'm fine. It's nothing…" I continued to stare off into space but in the direction of the ocean, until it disappeared and the woods slid into my line of sight and then all I could think about was Jacob Black. I saw a ghost of the brown wolf that I remembered as Jacob Black running through the woods with his pack. I felt the car slow down and I immediately turned my head towards Edward who was pulling the car to the side of the road. I was afraid that I was in for some sort of deep conversation that I could care less about. I listened anyways.5
Edward turned his body towards me and leaned against his seat "Bella, I know when something's bothering you." 6
"You can't read my mind Edward." or maybe he could. 7
He looked down and smiled and then he looked back up at me 8
"Probably not, but I can read your eyes" his smile went away into a straight serious line. He stared into my eyes and tried to give me a touch of comfort but I moved away from him. Edwards's eyes burrowed like he was trying to understand me. I didn't understand why I moved away, I would never move away from my Edward. Things were so much different and I didn't want Edward to feel bad for something he didn't do "I'm sorry, this just doesn't feel right" the tears I held back were about to break free.9
I could tell Edward was trying to comprehend what was happening because he was looking right through me "I don't understand Bella".10
My mouth began to tremble as the dam of tears was cracking "Neither do I" tears leaked down the side of my face and I gasped when I started to cry. My head leaned against the window pane as I let out my sobs.11
Edward tried touching me again "Shh Bella it's going to be okay." But I pushed his hand away.12
"No it won't, everything's too different!" I wasn't mad at him or anybody. I was mad at myself for having that stupid dream. I doubt it was my period making me so sad so it had to be because of that stupid dream. Edward just sat there confused not knowing what to do.13
"What's different," he was annoyed now but he still had a hint of sympathy in his voice "Tell me and I'll do my best to fix whatever it is"14
I tried my best to calm down so I could tell him what I wanted. What I wanted was something impossible to receive but I sucked it up and asked him anyways "Can you die;" His eyes went wide and I didn't stop with my question "can you die, and come back as a vampire?" 15
Edward shook his head, he didn't like my request "You know I would if it was possible Bella," I was beginning to sob again "but you of all people should know that vampires do not exist"16
"That's a lie" I whispered under my sobs of sadness.17
"Bella…" I know he was really confused by all this. But I really needed to find something that reminded me of my dream. I wanted something that would look completely familiar. I thought of Jacob and his dark Indian skin, I knew he would look the same to me but I doubted that he would be able to phase into a big werewolf. I put the werewolf thing aside because I just wanted to see the human side of Jacob for now.18
"Take me to Jacob's" I looked down the road when I said that. When I heard Edwards disappointed sigh I looked at him then and said "Now." And I think he knew I meant business with my red puffy eyes and serious expression. Edward turned the car back on and turned it around so he could take the right road to Jacob black's house. I couldn't wait to see my best friend again. I wondered if he would be any different.19
