Until I Find the Light

First Chapter

Was it supposed to end this way? Kami-sama let me be with her again. I haven't told her how much I love her.

Days had passed and all he could do was watch her from the corner of the room. He was worried because his wife hadn't eaten for the past four days. He had not left her side since the day he realized he left the living world. He had yet to do so many things but then, he was not given all the time in the world.

Watching her lying helplessly made his heart painful and it made him feel worthless even more. She stopped crying on the third day but since then, she just stayed there, staring into that empty space. And when nighttime came, she would suddenly fall asleep and in her sleep she would sometimes call his name.

He realized for the first time that he didn't see his little girl around. The pink-haired brat, who was so playful and hyperactive, which from time-to-time, would make him ask himself if the girl was really his own child. But he would never doubt his woman.

He then decided to check her out, worried that she was already starving. He went out of the room and continued down the hallway. He then reached his child's room and quickly made his way inside.

Looking around the wall painted pink, he didn't see a sign of his daughter. No jolly, little girl could be seen in that room. He, then, wondered where his daughter could be that time of the day.

He walked around the mansion and found a little note on the refrigerator, saying:

Sakura-chan,

I'll take Haruka-chan home with me. Take her when you are ready to live your life again.

Uzumaki Naruto

He smirked at the message, thinking how Sakura would react to it. But the words would really hit her hard, to wake her from her mourning. Honestly, he wanted her to continue living for their child and for her own good as well. It would hurt to see her soar again after his death but he could never let her stop breathing because of this. It was selfish to let her mourn over his death forever, after all.

He wanted her to be happy, her laughter filling their home again. He wanted her smile back, the smile that could brighten up even the darkest sky. Without her, he knew, everything would stop turning. Because he knew that she, herself, was everyone's source of life.

'She has to realize that.' He said to himself.

But how?

Sakura is a bright young lady, someone who is always logical and rational. But it takes more than being logical and rational to save her self from the darkness she was drowning herself in…

And all Neji could do was watch her…watch that cherry blossom wilt.

Days and days passed by and all she did was lie there in the bed they used to share. Used to… She couldn't accept the fact, that painful fact that her husband was gone. And she would never see him again. The thought of it suffocated her and left her helpless like a broken doll that she was.

She would be awake and then she would just fall asleep. And wake up the next day, feeling ever so empty all over again…

But something awakened her from that slumber she had, early in the morning. It was a call from the hospital.

She hadn't recovered from the pain yet something inside her told her to answer the phone. She picked up that lone phone and waited for the person on the other line to start talking.

Hospital…

She was needed. She was. But how could she help others when she couldn't even help herself. She was useless…

The nurse had begged her to come. She had a scheduled operation for that day and it meant life and death.

She couldn't…still couldn't…

The nurse didn't stop…she wouldn't stop talking, with that pained voice, which kept tearing her inside.

"Please—" the voice of the nurse was cut off when Sakura put down the phone back to its place.

Sakura curled into a ball again, to protect herself from everything around her.

'Until you graduate,' Neji spoke in a business-like manner.

Sakura pouted at this because she hated it when he talked like that. She hated it when he was cold, when he was distant, when he was just…being what he grew to be.

'What?' Sakura said, her hands lay uneasy on her lap.

'Until you graduate, we won't see each other.' Neji continued, still his voice as cold as the expression on his face.

'And why is that?' Sakura asked in a puzzled tone.

'You said you wanted to be a doctor so badly? Then I would let you,' he said and Sakura sat there in front him feeling stupid.

'Does it have anything to do with us meeting each other?'

'Of course,' the almighty Hyuuga Neji answered bluntly.

Sakura was quiet for a while and thought what was going on in that genius mind of his. It was definitely unexpected. He called her out of the blue and took her out for lunch. It was rare that he would take her out under the sun. He was always busy at work, after he took over the business his late father left for him.

Sakura had taken a different course in life, and it was rather a long course. She had always wanted to be a doctor, someone who serves the people.

Neji considered this and so as not to be a hindrance for her, he decided to give her space. This way, she would be able to concentrate on her studies and reach her dream.

'How?' Sakura inquired but the Hyuuga prodigy just gave that arrogant smirk of his.

'Fine,' the pink-haired woman said and stood up.

She moved out of her seat and quickly left the fancy restaurant Neji had brought her to. Sakura thought that Neji would follow her and call off everything he had decided on. But she also knew that the Hyuuga was no romantic guy. And she accepted that the day they became a couple…She knew very well that Neji was not and never would be an affectionate guy. Still, she loved him for who he was…

They had to give up everything they had established so that she could pursue hes career…

Is she going to waste everything?

Sakura quickly sat up after remembering the past. It was not too long ago. She was halfway to finishing her studies then.

Sakura got out of bed to fix her self and in an instant she was out of the empty Hyuuga household and was on her way to the hospital.

'Though you are cold…you were always considerate, Neji-kun…'she would tell that to him once in a while back then.

'That's because you are so cheerful and then you would just act stupidly, Sakura.' He would always answer back.

Then together they would say, 'Whatever.'

Neji was standing by the window of their room and watched that white car speed up out in the street. He nodded his head once and said, "Come back soon, Sakura."

End of the First Chapter.

Baby Panikku: Thank you for reading this little piece. If you were thinking that it ends here. No, it doesn't. I want to put some little twists. No, Neji is still by her side. And she hasn't moved on completely. Um, if the story wasn't good enough, again, I am sorry. I would try my best!

As for the NejiSaku fic, 'The Shattered Pieces,' I will still continue the story. I just can't think of anything to add…I am having…difficulty. I hope you understand.